Well, I'm stuck here alone...again. Boyfriend says he wants to play with friends and relax before taking an exam and all my other friends are either working or hanging with other friends. Even if they had nothing to do, I'm the last person they ever think of to hang out with. Day after day, week after week, I'm always here in my room, by myself. Sure, alone time is good and all, but it gets so agonizing when it happens too often for too long. I'm always left behind.
I try so hard to reach out and connect with people, but all they really do is brush me off and tell me their too busy. My boyfriend doesn't even seem to care whenever I'm all alone. It just seems like his top priority is friends and video games, nothing more. If I'm sad, so what? "It's no big deal" he says. Forget to text me when he said he would? No big deal. Forgot an important conversation? No big deal. Forgetting the anniversary? NO BIG DEAL. I'm thinking: "Are you serious? Is anything ever a big deal to you? The only thing seems to be amiibos right now. Not my feelings or my conserns, nothing. Only when the stupid blue yarn yoshi is gonna come out." The only reason you want to keep your grades up is to keep your stupid games. I'm of no consern here.
People just don't ever need me. Ever. All I do is anger people and get in the way. No going to the movies or sleepovers for me. All I get is the silent treatment alone in my room, when others are out there partying and laughing the day away. Whenever I express how I feel, no one seems to care, or just want to tell me all the ways that I'm wrong and shove their own ideas down my throat and expect me to swallow.
Where is MY best friend? Do I just not deserve one? I'm just so different from everyone else that there is no one on Earth who seems to understand me? Billions of human beings...and theres not even one. It's just me, and only me.
I try so hard to reach out and connect with people, but all they really do is brush me off and tell me their too busy. My boyfriend doesn't even seem to care whenever I'm all alone. It just seems like his top priority is friends and video games, nothing more. If I'm sad, so what? "It's no big deal" he says. Forget to text me when he said he would? No big deal. Forgot an important conversation? No big deal. Forgetting the anniversary? NO BIG DEAL. I'm thinking: "Are you serious? Is anything ever a big deal to you? The only thing seems to be amiibos right now. Not my feelings or my conserns, nothing. Only when the stupid blue yarn yoshi is gonna come out." The only reason you want to keep your grades up is to keep your stupid games. I'm of no consern here.
People just don't ever need me. Ever. All I do is anger people and get in the way. No going to the movies or sleepovers for me. All I get is the silent treatment alone in my room, when others are out there partying and laughing the day away. Whenever I express how I feel, no one seems to care, or just want to tell me all the ways that I'm wrong and shove their own ideas down my throat and expect me to swallow.
Where is MY best friend? Do I just not deserve one? I'm just so different from everyone else that there is no one on Earth who seems to understand me? Billions of human beings...and theres not even one. It's just me, and only me.
