I just need to tell SOMEBODY.
So, 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, which is not diagnosed as ASD. ( Autism Spectrum Disorder )
It makes me repetitive, + a bunch of other things.
When I draw, I have a set way of doing things, so I can't change the angle or pose very much, or it looks like utter crap. Im not flexible with my art, and that is a flaw that is like a roadblock. I can't pass it.
When I tell people that I like multitasking and systematic things, they dont understand.
Multitasking makes me less nervous, and I feel useful and productive. Systematic things, like making charts and doing the same things over and over again. Example: Cycling.
I used to play a game when I was little where I had a stuffed animal factory. I would put boxes on the floor, and each one was a different station. One made them, one colored them, one stuffed them, one made them come alive, ect. It pleased me. I was also very overpowering while I played, and planned the entire thing out. I was bossy, yes.
Everything that I enjoy is in the creative area, which is a flawed area for me.
You have to be flexible, which I'm not. For me, there is a one way to do things. Its not something I can change. That hinders me.
I want to be able to do something on this forum that is enjoyable, and helps everyone. But I can't think of anything. This frustrates me, and makes me feel worthless, like I'm not good at anything...
I've been depressed about this for a couple days.
I just needed to vent. I could probably vent for ages about my autistic tendencies that make life harder, but I think this is enough. My fingers hurt.
So, 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, which is not diagnosed as ASD. ( Autism Spectrum Disorder )
It makes me repetitive, + a bunch of other things.
When I draw, I have a set way of doing things, so I can't change the angle or pose very much, or it looks like utter crap. Im not flexible with my art, and that is a flaw that is like a roadblock. I can't pass it.
When I tell people that I like multitasking and systematic things, they dont understand.
Multitasking makes me less nervous, and I feel useful and productive. Systematic things, like making charts and doing the same things over and over again. Example: Cycling.
I used to play a game when I was little where I had a stuffed animal factory. I would put boxes on the floor, and each one was a different station. One made them, one colored them, one stuffed them, one made them come alive, ect. It pleased me. I was also very overpowering while I played, and planned the entire thing out. I was bossy, yes.
Everything that I enjoy is in the creative area, which is a flawed area for me.
You have to be flexible, which I'm not. For me, there is a one way to do things. Its not something I can change. That hinders me.
I want to be able to do something on this forum that is enjoyable, and helps everyone. But I can't think of anything. This frustrates me, and makes me feel worthless, like I'm not good at anything...
I've been depressed about this for a couple days.
I just needed to vent. I could probably vent for ages about my autistic tendencies that make life harder, but I think this is enough. My fingers hurt.
