i’m always happy to have an opportunity to talk about this! i tend to get fixated on the same thing/s for several months (sometimes years), and these are a few of my main current hyperfixations
barbie: i would promise that i’ll finally shut up about
barbie soon, but i‘d be lying if i did LOL.
barbie has been on my mind ever since i found out it was in production last year, and my
obsession love for it has only gotten bigger since it came out. i haven’t talked about
barbie on here in as much depth as i would like to beyond “it’s the best movie ever and i adore it so much”, not just because i don’t want to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it yet and is planning to, but also because my love and appreciation for it is so great that when i
do finally talk about it in depth (which i guess would be right now lol), i want what i say to be as intricate as it can be, because to me,
barbie is so much more than just a movie that i watched and loved. i had no idea what i was walking into when i saw it opening night because other than the trailer, teasers, and any pics and cast reveals i saw, i wanted to go into it as blind as i could. i was expecting a fun, silly, but also heartwarming and beautiful movie, and that is exactly what i got and more. i’ve talked about this in other threads, but it’d be an understatement to say that the past few years have been so gutting for me personally. i won’t go into depth about that, but right now i’m in a place where i am really struggling with all that has changed for me and within me. my life is so unrecognizable, and i have been struggling so much with the fact that my life will never again be what it was, and that i’m growing up. i yearn for the past so badly and for everything to be like it was again, and while
barbie didn’t change that, it gave some of the feelings i’ve been having a voice and represented change, the struggle with it, and how even the most painful changes can be beautiful eventually in a way that healed a part of me. i haven’t felt as at ease as i did in that theatre watching
barbie for the first time in so long, and i never thought anything would make me feel that way again. seeing it in theatres (and on opening night) was a big part of the magic and healing for me— everyone showed up wearing pink or some sort of nice outfit, and sitting in that theatre with strangers, laughing at the funny parts with them and watching silently with them during the more serious ones is an experience that meant so much to me. the energy in that theatre is unlike anything i’ve experienced before, and it was so cathartic for me. one of my most favourite experiences yet, and i am so grateful that i got to have it
but beyond that,
barbie has just generally become my favourite movie of all time! the casting was absolutely incredible (margot robbie my beloved
, it was so nice to see her alongside emma mackey), the narration added to the story so nicely, the aesthetic was better than anything i could’ve imagined etc! i loved the fact that the dialogue and the sets replicated in a way what playing with barbies was actually like— the fake water, the fake mirror, the shower that doesn’t have water come out of it, there not being any real food or drinks, barbie’s refrigerator having stickers of food inside etc. i also loved the inclusion of real barbies like pregnant midge, growing up skipper, etc— i actually had the video camera barbie when i was younger, and seeing her on the big screen was so fun! there was never a dull moment, and it is the only movie i’ve ever watched that i never wanted to end.
barbie could have been 10 hours long and i would’ve been happy.
all of the thoughts, experiences, and observations that i’ve heard and seen from others have been so beautiful and important, and i am grateful for the discussions that
barbie has brought about. i still don’t have the brain power to contribute to them much, but getting to share and experience
barbie with so many people has just been… wow. “i’m just ken” plays in my mind pretty much 24/7 and i would have all the
barbie merch in the world if i could (i’m deadass wearing a
barbie shirt rn), and i am diving head first into my love for this movie. it’s even brought my love for the animated barbie movies back, and i am so tempted to binge them all
i’m gonna shut up about it here since i honestly didn’t mean to ramble this much LOL, but i genuinely cannot recommend seeing this movie enough. i know i‘m very biased hehe, but even if it isn’t your cup of tea or it doesn’t look like something you’d usually enjoy, i still recommend at least trying to watch it once. it is so much more than just a pink, camp movie about dolls, it is about the painful beauty of existence and womanhood and growing up and humanity and everything wrong with society and things that still need to change and it is so, so important. i can’t recommend it enough :’)
the last of us: okay i promise i’ll do my best not to ramble too much about this one since i’ve already practically written an essay lmao, but i’ve been on
the last of us train for about 6 months now! i first got into it when i was going through a really difficult time back in march, and it honestly got me through it. my fixation is more-so on the show adaptation than the games, but i love both so much. father/daughter relationships are so important and precious to me, and the relationship between joel and ellie both warms and guts me at the same time. the progression of their relationship in the first game is so special to me— seeing this grieving, emotionally distant, angry, violent man become a father of sorts again after everything he’d been through and done is so
, and watching it bring him back to life and make him softer is just so!!!!!!! and ellie : ( seeing her gain a parental figure who loves her and would do anything for her—like damn humanity just to save her— unlike any other adult who has been in her life is so good. the switch from them barely being able to tolerate each other to doing whatever they can to save each other, joel letting ellie tell him puns and even starting to tell her some back, calling her “kiddo” and “baby girl”, reading books about space so that he can talk about it with her, taking her to a museum for her 15th birthday and letting her experience what going to space would be like in a way, the drawings she did of him, the photo of them he has in his house : ((((( the second game ruins my life so bad and i honestly just pretend it doesn’t exist (joel is alive and well in my head idc), but the parallels between joel/ellie and abby/lev are also so
, and seeing how much ellie and tommy change after joel dies ruins my entire life. ellie’s biggest fear of ending up alone comes true, and she loses the only family she’s ever had
it makes me so unwell, why can’t i be fixated on something happy for once!!!
collectibles: okay i won’t write a wall of text about this one i swear!!! i’ve been into collectibles for a couple of years, but i’ve really been into them as of late; i’ve been into creating lineups specifically!! i’ve always had fun with trying to design lineups, but the new space camp collectibles have inspired me so much, and the “design a lineup” contest that oblivia hosted a couple of weeks ago amplified my obsession with lineup design even more! it’s very fun trying to design lineups for myself, but it’s even more fun trying to design them for other people and getting to play around with collectibles and timestamps that i don’t have! i deadass have a google doc with all of my collectibles in order and all of my lineup ideas, and i am constantly in there trying to come up with more
it’s been where a lot of my creative energy has been going lately, and it’s honestly been very comforting these past couple of weeks as i’ve been sick
a low energy way for me to be creative, i love it!