Hey, sending you virtual hugs and positive vibes! I hope you can find some peace and learn to enjoy the good moments again. If I had my wish, your life would be full of wonderful days because you honestly deserve them!
Also, I know the team stuff doesn't compare to real life issues, but I want to reiterate that I personally think you did a great job and thank you for stepping into that role. I looked at that calculator photo and I swear one of those plus signs looked like a division sign to me. So anyway, on top of everything else, don't let that get you down.
You're an amazing person and crewmate! Hang in there and feel free to reach out if you ever need to talk.