Celestefey
どうでもいい
A year ago today I was in a sad time of my life. I was starting to recover from my depression and anxiety, which greatly stopped me from doing so many things. I had very few friends, I didn't have a friendship group, I used to go to school and hate every minute of it, to the point where I'd start skipping classes or just stopped showing up. I was very miserable and low, I would seldom leave my room, it was just awful. I was taking medication at this point for my depression but I still had a long way to go.
Now I'm like the complete opposite. I didn't really do anything to celebrate New Year's, I stayed in with a friend and played games and ate snacks but... I just realised how different my life was at that point. I just finally felt so happy and content with everything. I'm so much more confident and I've really come out of my shell. I've definitely become a lot more extroverted and I enjoy going out and meeting new people. I've also finally managed to just settle with a friendship group where I just feel like I can just genuinely be myself, and not worry about being judged. A friendship group that I consider to be my family. I've finally got people who just *get* me and I don't feel like I need to be anyone else but me. I wake up in the morning and I don't feel the same sense of dread and emptiness inside of me, instead I just feel so excited to be able to go out and face the day. Honestly, I have not felt this way in YEARS now and i'm so glad that I've finally just reached a point in my life now where I'm happy. I'm finally working out my place in this world and it's just a great feeling. I'm finally being the person who I've always wanted to be and the person who I truly am inside. 2016 was my year of growth and now I want 2017 to be the year where I finally am just myself, and a year where I make even better memories. It'll be the first full year I get to spend with my new friends which I am just so excited about.
Now I'm like the complete opposite. I didn't really do anything to celebrate New Year's, I stayed in with a friend and played games and ate snacks but... I just realised how different my life was at that point. I just finally felt so happy and content with everything. I'm so much more confident and I've really come out of my shell. I've definitely become a lot more extroverted and I enjoy going out and meeting new people. I've also finally managed to just settle with a friendship group where I just feel like I can just genuinely be myself, and not worry about being judged. A friendship group that I consider to be my family. I've finally got people who just *get* me and I don't feel like I need to be anyone else but me. I wake up in the morning and I don't feel the same sense of dread and emptiness inside of me, instead I just feel so excited to be able to go out and face the day. Honestly, I have not felt this way in YEARS now and i'm so glad that I've finally just reached a point in my life now where I'm happy. I'm finally working out my place in this world and it's just a great feeling. I'm finally being the person who I've always wanted to be and the person who I truly am inside. 2016 was my year of growth and now I want 2017 to be the year where I finally am just myself, and a year where I make even better memories. It'll be the first full year I get to spend with my new friends which I am just so excited about.
