unfortunately, yes. i’m like both of them in a lot of ways but as i’ve painstakingly come to realize, i’m the most like my father. his worst traits are his temper and his impatience; for as long as i’ve been alive, my father has been a very angry man. he’s thrown tantrums over a justin bieber song coming on in the car and has referred to my mother as a “freaking female dog”
i cringed while typing this but just,, substitute for the swear word variants for not handing him a pair of keys that were literally right in front of him. i think the worst thing about it, though, is how unpredictable his temper can be; he can be goofy and cracking jokes at 2pm but by 3, he’s slamming stuff around and picking fights. the most recent example of his impatience was 2 days ago; my mother is in the hospital and since he was the one to pick up the phone when she called, he got to talk to her first. when
i finally had the phone and was talking to her, he was already holding his hand out for the phone back not even 2 minutes later. my father is entitled and cruel and unfortunately, i’ve inherited his worst traits. granted, unlike him, i’ve acknowledged that these traits aren’t okay and i’ve been doing the work to try and overcome them but
man, it really sucks to have so much in common with him somedays lmao. i even look the most like him which is just,, not sexy
i think this turned into a rant lmao i’m sorry