Autism
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Well, uh, I was diagnosed when I was younger. Unfortunately I didn’t know about it until recently. I always had a feeling, I guess? I don’t have any issues talking to people and I’m honestly very extroverted. I was just bullied a lot when I was younger and I assumed something was wrong with me because of that. I don’t want to identify with it, though, if that makes sense. I don’t want to let it define me. I don’t know how I feel, though. It definitely explains a lot from when I was younger. I just didn’t feel the need to be social with people who were rude. It’s just that I never suspected having it after high school because I had a much easier time making friends and being super outgoing. I don’t want knowing about it to change how I live my life, basically.
I was diagnosed in my late teens. It helps to explain why a lot of things are the way they are; but it also has me lookin back at a lot of past events and thinking about how unfair and cruel some people were to me over things I couldn't help.
ali.di.magix
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I suspect I'm on the ASD spectrum. I've always felt like there's something...off (lack of a better word) about myself. I can relate to a lot of ASD traits and I also tend to score highly on screening questionnaires. I haven't had any luck finding any available clinicians that can do an ASD diagnosis for adults, maybe later this year if I'm lucky. It'll give me peace of mind once I finally get an assessment done.
Newleafkid22
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I got tested for it the school thinks i am on the spectrum but it is just my 80hd
I had my diagnosis when I was two. For the longest time, I wondered how much of my own thoughts, insecurities, and outlook on life was shaped by me being on the spectrum, even if I'm "high-functioning".
I don't know. There's still so much of autism that's misunderstood and unknown, so whenever I see people use the term autism in any variant to describe anything non-related to its medical definition, it bothers me in a way I can't articulate. Just gives me another reason to stay introverted and distant from others.
I don't know. There's still so much of autism that's misunderstood and unknown, so whenever I see people use the term autism in any variant to describe anything non-related to its medical definition, it bothers me in a way I can't articulate. Just gives me another reason to stay introverted and distant from others.
visibleghost
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i'm autistic, got diagnosed with atypical autism at 16 (now it's just autism spectrum disorder). i think i always knew i struggled socially and i had heard of autism before that and related to autistic issues so it wasn't surprising when i finally got my diagnosis. it's hard for me to pinpoint what about me is my autism and what is just me. they're not separate but i'm not only autistic, you know? and for me everything i do and what i'm like is normal.
i had a lot of struggles in school but that was also due to mental illness. now in university i cope much better but i'm still weird and a loner and awkward like i've always been (which is part of my autism lmfao like no shade to other autistic people but i'm definitely like this at least partly because i'm autistic).
i avoid things that are difficult for me so i feel super normal (not neurotypical but i don't think i'm experiencing a ton of autism issues i guess) most of the time but then i have to go out of my comfort zone, break my routine or socialize and i'm a mess. idk. i don't have many friends and have never had a relationship and i don't mourn that or feel sorry for myself but i do feel weird and i know i'm unusually avoidant of people and social interaction. i don't know how to connect to people and i have social anxiety and always overthink things, on top of that i know that i'm autistic and can't read other people and that makes me nervous that i'm always misinterpreting everything people say or do and i feel like people just barely tolerate me all of the time. that sounds pathetic but idk.
anyway my primary/special interest has been animal crossing since 2015 so yayyy yyy yy that's why i'm here.
i had a lot of struggles in school but that was also due to mental illness. now in university i cope much better but i'm still weird and a loner and awkward like i've always been (which is part of my autism lmfao like no shade to other autistic people but i'm definitely like this at least partly because i'm autistic).
i avoid things that are difficult for me so i feel super normal (not neurotypical but i don't think i'm experiencing a ton of autism issues i guess) most of the time but then i have to go out of my comfort zone, break my routine or socialize and i'm a mess. idk. i don't have many friends and have never had a relationship and i don't mourn that or feel sorry for myself but i do feel weird and i know i'm unusually avoidant of people and social interaction. i don't know how to connect to people and i have social anxiety and always overthink things, on top of that i know that i'm autistic and can't read other people and that makes me nervous that i'm always misinterpreting everything people say or do and i feel like people just barely tolerate me all of the time. that sounds pathetic but idk.
anyway my primary/special interest has been animal crossing since 2015 so yayyy yyy yy that's why i'm here.
I do.
I struggled through school because of sensory overload and never had any friends because I couldn't maintain friendships or relationships. I've never understood other people and I'd always been labeled "slow", "rude", "cold", "deadpan", and "inconsiderate". I was finally diagnosed at the age of twenty-five with Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory Processing Disorder, and ADHD, primarily inattentive type. I can't hold a job. I struggle to hold a verbal conversation. I have issues verbalizing my thoughts/feelings and I get confused easily. I know that I'm intelligent, but boy, sometimes, I feel stupid. Sometimes I can't process what's happening around me, and I get overwhelmed/overstimulated. I'm easily irritated. I can't handle loud or annoying noises; I need total silence to be able to focus on something important. Nobody would ever know unless I told them, but I'm severely impaired. I shut myself in my own head when things get to be too much, so I stop moving, I stop talking, I just... stop functioning until I feel up to being social. It's so hard. I'm still with my parents, which is okay, but I feel bad, because I can't work (I have some severe brain fog that led to security/key control issues; this is not ideal), and there's nothing I can do except for therapy.
It's not all bad, however. My special interests keep me happy. There are things that I know everything about. I can't normally hold a conversation in person, but if you get me talking about Doctor Who or another special interest aloud, it's more of an issue of getting me to stop. But sometimes, I forget about the other person, and they feel like I don't care about them, so I've been trying to be more considerate.
It's not all bad, however. My special interests keep me happy. There are things that I know everything about. I can't normally hold a conversation in person, but if you get me talking about Doctor Who or another special interest aloud, it's more of an issue of getting me to stop. But sometimes, I forget about the other person, and they feel like I don't care about them, so I've been trying to be more considerate.
Mars Adept
Circles and spirals in mind…
Reading through this thread, there’s a lot of things here that are relatable to me. I was diagnosed with autism when I was… 5, I think? I was also diagnosed with ADHD and OCD at some point so I’m beyond a mess.
People always say autism isn’t something that should be cured, but I wonder if I actually like having autism. Nobody understands my view points, and my dad thinks I’m weird just because I pace around the room or I mess up the pronunciation of a word. If even my family makes fun of me for who I am, then is autism really something to be proud of having?
I struggle with a lot of the things people already mentioned here, like fire drills and focus issues. The grownups never knew how to properly discipline me, so I grew up to be a spoiled brat with the horrible temper that I have today. It’s not an excuse, mind you, but since the people who were supposed to teach me how to deal with the issues in my life at an early age just made me avoid them instead, I never learned to handle things correctly. Although I suppose that’s more so a disciplinary problem than anything to do with autism/ADHD.
People always say autism isn’t something that should be cured, but I wonder if I actually like having autism. Nobody understands my view points, and my dad thinks I’m weird just because I pace around the room or I mess up the pronunciation of a word. If even my family makes fun of me for who I am, then is autism really something to be proud of having?
I struggle with a lot of the things people already mentioned here, like fire drills and focus issues. The grownups never knew how to properly discipline me, so I grew up to be a spoiled brat with the horrible temper that I have today. It’s not an excuse, mind you, but since the people who were supposed to teach me how to deal with the issues in my life at an early age just made me avoid them instead, I never learned to handle things correctly. Although I suppose that’s more so a disciplinary problem than anything to do with autism/ADHD.
