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[Mars Adept]

Hi. I’m feeling strong emotions today. The following spoiler contains my feelings, so if you’re just here for fake currency, please skip it.

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I feel trapped. I keep trying to do new things, become independent, become a nicer person, and/or fix my mental problems, but it never works. This medication isn’t working. My mood swings might be getting worse. I can’t fix myself. I am rude, jealous, greedy, impatient, unmotivated and can’t seem to bring myself to do the simplest things such as brushing my teeth, and probably several other things on top of that. I have no redeeming qualities. I’m garbage at art(my parents made me a golden child when it came to my art skills, and also my mom spoiled me and never really taught me how to do things on my own which is why I’m likely never going to be independent and instead leech off my mom forever), I’m garbage at writing, I’m garbage at making friends, and I’m absolutely stupid. The only thing I’m smart at is knowing myself and why I’m so screwed up, but I have not found a way to fix my mental health yet and I feel like giving up.

And you might be wondering ‘why are you doing this giveaway’. Well, there’s reasons why I try to be nice. 1. To gain respect and friends. 2. If I get something good out of it because I’m greedy. and/or 3. If I can have a great enjoyable moment. The third reason is why I’m doing this giveaway. I love to see you all going so fast, trying to win the prize. It’s wonderful what humans will do for money, isn’t it?

By the way, this is nobody on TBT’s fault. I’m naturally screwed up from being born this way and from the environment I experienced.

And that’s why I’m doing this giveaway! All you have to do to win this nice 100 TBT is correctly guess the character in my profile picture and what they are from! You are allowed infinite guesses.

Have fun, and good luck!

 

[Mars Adept]

You guys seriously don’t want any TBT? Well, ok then.

 

[Firesquids]

Man I'm stumped as to what your profile pic is, the style is familiar but I just can't figure it out. I'll let you know if I come up with a guess

Pertaining to mental health, I also struggle with hating myself. I'm really working on not actively thinking I'm an idiot, or fat, or ugly or whatever. I grew up in an abusive household and I've seen myself become the abuser in past relationships as a result of it. I feel like my "friends"are self-absorbed are never there for me when I need them, I'm pretty bitter about it.
Also this year just really sucks, I know I've been set back on my journey to escaping depression (and whatever other undiagnosed issues I may have) If you have the resources, therapy can really help. Sometimes it just really helps to have someone to bounce ideas off of to sort your mind out.

Just know that you have value as a human being, you have a unique experience from everybody else and you matter!
I'm rooting for you, bud!

 

[spawnpoint]

Uhh I'm probably wrong but Harvey beaks?

 

[Mars Adept]

Man I'm stumped as to what your profile pic is, the style is familiar but I just can't figure it out. I'll let you know if I come up with a guess

Pertaining to mental health, I also struggle with hating myself. I'm really working on not actively thinking I'm an idiot, or fat, or ugly or whatever. I grew up in an abusive household and I've seen myself become the abuser in past relationships as a result of it. I feel like my "friends"are self-absorbed are never there for me when I need them, I'm pretty bitter about it.
Also this year just really sucks, I know I've been set back on my journey to escaping depression (and whatever other undiagnosed issues I may have) If you have the resources, therapy can really help. Sometimes it just really helps to have someone to bounce ideas off of to sort your mind out.

Just know that you have value as a human being, you have a unique experience from everybody else and you matter!
I'm rooting for you, bud!

It looks like Chowder, but it isn’t Chowder. That’s how I’d describe it. Also, like, really obscure. Too obscure, probably.

Your situation makes more sense. You got abused. Me, I’m just constantly craving attention, you know? I just... I have so many flaws, and I acknowledge them, and yet I continue to act on them...

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Uhh I'm probably wrong but Harvey beaks?

lol no but good guess

 

[Lightspring]

It kind of looks like a character from the Loud House

 

[Mars Adept]

It kind of looks like a character from the Loud House

No

 

[Ace Marvel]

We don't know each other, but if you ever want to talk feel free to send me a DM. This is a really kind community and we don't abandon members. (I'm not a specialist or anything, just somebody that can listen)
I have no idea who you character is... thinking.

 

[Xeleron]

Spoiler: Character Answer

The character is Winston from Bug Salad

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OP, it does sound like you have a lot going on. Some of your feelings I can relate to and I really can't relate to others. I don't know you, so I'm going to abstain from saying what I think, because I think that would be irresponsible for me to do. Instead, I'll talk a little bit about my own situation and hopefully that will help. I grew up very protected from the world, my parents really never let me do anything by myself and like you, because of that I feel like I'm going to depend on them my whole life. I have always felt like a little bird trapped in a cage with no escape, but a couple of years ago, I decided that needed to change, I couldn't stand who I was, it even came to a point where I hated the world and everything around me. I went to a counselor when I was in college and she helped me out tremendously, but that is because I wanted to change I needed to become a better person and leave all my hatred behind, she also helped me out with my social anxiety, which I do struggle with from time to time, but the tools for coping that she gave me are tools I'm so grateful to have.

It takes time to change, I still don't feel as independent as someone my age should feel, and tbh I've come to a point where I haven't progressed much, but I still try everyday. There are days where I feel like a useless p.o.s. and that I'll never amount to anything significant in my life, if I pass no one will mourn me, care, or even remember me.... I haven't come up with a solution to overcome these thought, I just stop thinking about them and focus on other things or just tune out by watching tv shows... but I think you're onto something, I think it's important to acknowledge all these things about ourselves in order for us to change.

I really don't know if any of this helped, but I do hope you can keep moving forward, growth and change are things that happen little by little, you can't become a whole new person from one day to the next.
Best of luck OP.

 

[Mars Adept]

Spoiler: Character Answer

The character is Winston from Bug Salad

I must ask, did you use reverse image search or something, or did you actually know the character beforehand, haha.

Either way, Xeleron has won so they will be getting the 100 TBT.

Thanks everyone. As you can see, I’ve had a lot on my mind lately, and this made me feel... a bit better.

 

[Xeleron]

Honestly, it was a big coincidence. One of my long lost childhood memories came back to me not too long ago about a show called Growing Up Creepie (a show about an orphaned girl raised by bugs) after I decided to look it up, I ended up watching a few episodes on YT. The show your character belongs to came up as a recommended lol. I can't 100% say I watched the show when it first came out, but Scott definitely felt incredibly familiar when I was watching a couple of episodes. I have to say that timing was on my side lol

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Continuing the conversation about what you posted, I do have to ask, what makes you happy OP? You don't have to reply to me or think too hard about an answer, but sometimes it's easy for us to forget about the little things in life that makes us happy.

I'd also recommend doing things that are out of your comfort zone. For example one of the things I did to help with my anxiety (specifically social anxiety) is that I joined a foreign language club at my college; that might not seem like a big deal, but it is for someone with anxiety. In this club, I ended up "hosting" several events we had and believe me, I was shaking with fear for most of them but I still did them and I followed through (trust me when I say I was desperate and needed to change). So if your goal is to become kinder or less greedy, try finding things to do that would reflect that.
Once again, best of luck OP.