sad because I got drunk and made out with a friend that I've had a crush on for a bit last night. today we talked about it and I confessed that I've been crushing on her and she said she didn't want to let it go anywhere because she's leaving town for good in a little over a month. really ****ing bummed and tired of being so damn lonely all the time and really care about her and cried because she's leaving so goddamn soon. and my roommate and best friend is leaving the same month and I'm going to miss them so much even though I know they're both going on to do better things and grow personally and I'm beyond happy for both of them but I still cried myself to sleep a few nights ago thinking about my best friend in the entire world leaving for grad school in alaska in a little over a month.