i honestly don’t think i’ve taken a full photo of myself (meaning one that isn’t just half my face or an eye) since 2020. i used to take selfies a
lot though, to the point that my parents actually thought i was conceited lol. i don’t like the way i look at all, but back when i was still attending school in-person before the pandemic, i
loved doing a full face of makeup before school, or on bright sunny days, and then going out so that i could take pictures of myself outside/in the car while my parents shopped. i’m not sure why i loved doing this so much. makeup just made me feel so much more confident, and i usually loved the looks i came up with, so i wanted to take advantage of that and take photos of myself while i looked and felt good. plus the lighting in my apartment is ass for pictures, so i wanted to take advantage of the good lighting as well.
i’ve lost pretty much all of my confidence over the last 2 years. i gained a ton of weight during the pandemic, and i had to get most of my hair chopped off due to how matted it got during my depressive episodes. i also don’t have the energy or motivation to do my makeup anymore, so that + my confidence issues prevent me from taking photos of myself (or having photos taken of me) nowadays. my mother has taken a few pictures of me on our occasional outings (to the movies, an amusement park, etc), but i’m covering most of my face in them.
i still occasionally post pictures of myself online (mostly on instagram), but they’re all from 2019-early 2020.