Edgy. But either way that's a bit of a silly thing to think about your life considering that you're still a teen. It's 100% okay to be single when you're a teen, you don't have to be searching for a relationship. (you sound like you are searching a lot of the time so making that assumption)
Also you honestly can't predict the future so chill, you'll be fine and I doubt you'll die alone or whatever.
There are some Americans who legit think that the less known parts of Europe are that undeveloped and I've heard stories of ppl from middle EU or smth going to America and ppl going ''IS THERE ELECTRICITY THERE??''i am soOoOo confused like do yall western people think saudi arabia is a desert n people live in tents and enslave women bc????
avatar indecisiveness omg