Yo. Elleir. What's up? What mix of feelings and emotions have come upon you as you opened this email? What are you thinking about typing, but changing your mind and putting something simple? Are you wondering whether I judge your emails when you send them? Am I wondering if you judge my emails when I send them? Am I wondering why you haven't emailed me? Are you glad I haven't emailed you? Does annoyance come upon your mind and aggravate you when you read my messages? Am I too judgmental? Are you too judgmental? Do you have real friends who accept you for who you are? Or do they accept you for who you act like around them? Do they enjoy your company? Or are you just a burden to them? Do you talk as much as you'd like to? Do you say what's on your mind? Are you truthful with your peers? Do you prank them? Do you like your teachers? Or do you just want to break their puny necks and throw them into a bonfire? Do you pretend to like your friends, and you'd also like to incinerate them? Did you pretend to like me? Are you pretending to like me? Do you actually like everyone but don't want to show feelings, for you're afraid to come off as a lovey dovey wimpy person? Do you hate everyone with a passion? Do you have a passion? Do you enjoy every aspect of life? Do you try to see what another person's reason is for suddenly snapping at you, before starting a potentially very hazardous argument? Are you a hippy? Do you have no worries?(Like Vaughn in Community)Are you worried about your appearance in school? Are you not worried about you appearance at all, and like to go with the flow? Do you enjoy watching people fail and evilly laugh in your head when they do? Do you find it amusing when people see their loved ones die? Are you a villain? Do you still have your evil grin? Are you secretly sparky sparky boom man? Do you blow up things with a vertical eye in the middle of your forehead? Do you intentionally try to kill Aang and Toph and Sokka and Katara? Do you carry a grudge against them for some outrageous reason? Do you love Potter? Are you a potter? Do you like pottery? Can you create pottery? Do you enjoy answering questions about yourself? Are you selfish? Are you aware of how your words affect other people? Have you ever actually listened to someone talk, the certain words they use, and how they pronounce them? Have you ever actually looked at one of your friends, looked at the shape of their eyes, the shape of their nose, their lips, ears, eyebrows, the curve of their face, their jawline? Often times people can become friends with someone, but if asked to describe them to a sketch artist, the resulting sketch would most likely not look like their friend. Because people don't notice the small details. The tiny splotch of green/blue in one eye. The weird hooked or potato nose. The billion freckles on their face, or the absolute absence of any marking on their face. The long, pudgy, short, or bony fingers. The textured palm and very defined marks. The one eye that squishes together more when they genuinely smile, so you can tell if they're actually smiling or not. The wide or thin head. Long, short, neck. The odd way they walk. (A good example of this is Melinda. She reminds me of a thug when she walks. She a little hunched over, grumpy expression, and sometimes with her hands in her pockets.) Left handed or right handed. Balanced or clumsy. The weird look in their eye that makes you wonder, "What the heck are they thinking?" Or the look that you know exactly what they're thinking about. The way they act around certain people. You know, people are really weird. You should look at someone and observe them. You might not be as good and discreet at observing as I am, but who knows. I've observed multiple people. They were quite odd. One seemed very introverted, but started jumping (More like a hop, but in between those) across a bridge (Very small. Like 6 feet across, 3 feet wide). He then resumed his anti-social walk to a hill, and then his walk quickly changed to a cheerful, almost skipping, walk. His whole demeanor changed. From 'get away from me, I hate you', to 'I'm a happy person, come skip with me'.
Anywho, people can be very complicated. Think about it. You are one person, with parents and two siblings. You are friends with multiple people, who each control their every motion, and have parents and relatives themselves, who each have their own lives and thoughts. Every single person in the world is for themselves. Their thoughts are the only thing in their mind, all day, every day. Wouldn't you think they'd get tired of themselves? No. They don't. Because they don't think about themselves, they think about other people, objects, and places.
They think about their dead cat. They think about how late they're going to be for their job, and how their boss, another person, will lecture them. Their boss thinks about how the employees are always late. The late employee is cursing the train people for cancelling his train. The train people get frustrated when the trains break down. The train fixer now has more work to do, making her unable to go to her date. Her date gets angry waiting for her and leaves the restaurant. But in his fury rage, he walks out into the street without looking, and gets hit by a relatively slow car. A passerby sees him on the ground, so she calls 911, and sits with him, temporarily forgetting about her very important meeting with a very very important person. The important person gets annoyed, so he leaves the meeting place and heads home to his wife and teen child. He tells the wife about the important meeting, and the teen, overhears, and the stressed feelings of the father get moved onto her. The teen has a hard time sleeping because she's caught up in thinking about her father. She then in the morning heads off to school, and fall asleep in class. She, after waking up, has a headache, says something rude to her guy best friend, and he takes it too seriously, and breaks up their friendship. He heads home, cranky and frustrated, and talks back to his mother. The mother and his relationship drops down to a low level. Then the guy friend becomes depressed, because he realized he just overreacted, and lost his relationship with his best friend and mother. His father, who was already rude to him before his overreaction, became meaner to his son. The guy took that hard, and his self esteem dropped. One day when he was feeling especially down, he decided the world didn't need him. So, he committed suicide. There was a funeral, and many people who never took the time to say how much they enjoyed his presence, cried and mourned. The teen girl blamed herself for his death, as she was the one who was mean to him. But the parents lost their only child, so they blamed their selves as well. The father became an alcoholic, and got in fights with everyone. One person who the father got in a fight with had to be driven to the hospital, and when there, slipped into a coma. The grandmother of that person visited him everyday, and prayed that he'd wake up. One of the nurses at the hospital was inspired by the grandmother, and decided she'd be that devoted to her friends, and there when they needed her. One of her friends appreciated that, and was happier, and nicer towards all people she knew.
You see, people can really affect other people. If someone's sad, ask why. If someone's mad, ask them what pissed them off. (You know, if they're your friend or if you've suddenly turned into a really outgoing person.)
Actually read this, okay? Don't just skip over parts because they seem boring. Take this into consideration. Answer the questions in your mind, truthfully. Be a better person.
You know, I could be a motivational speaker that's really depressing. But that'll never happen, since I can't do that public speaking stuff without stuttering or talking way too quietly. If I reading a speech or something to my friends or something, sure, I'll be as loud as I need to be. I'll do it in an australian or scottish accent if you'd like. But a stranger? Ha, no.
Sorry it's so long.
What do you think of it? All of it? (Truthfully. I don't want a lie, here, after all my hard work on ranting.)
Oh man. When did I get the time to write this.... (Sorry it's so small. Didn't want it to take up much space.)