im the worst and i know a lot of people say that but its stuck in my brain
i just cant get over my depression and being isolated
im a mess and everything triggers me
since ap environmental science is over and have nothing to do for the rest of the year, our class, devoid of seniors, after a long string of conversation throughout the class period, decided we were going to dissect fetal pigs tomorrow. in middle school i never got the chance to dissect frogs as we were supposed to, so this really excited me. i texted a group chat w/ two of my friends saying that we were gonna dissect pigs tmrw. now i get that this isn't everyone's thing. some people are really sensitive to that stuff, which i get. i'm not gonna bother you abt it. But one friend started saying stuff like "dont send me pictures or i wont talk to you for a week im dead serious" like out of nowhere i was like ok? i wasn't going to? why tf? and i said that i wasn't and was just excited and they were like why is that any bit exciting and was being all passive aggressive kind of about it and like. that really messed up my jam. like i know it's not something you're comfortable with but i'm not forcing you to do anything and i'm just saying i'm excited and someone being like why is that exciting wtf and kind of implying that im inhumane and awful and terrible or whatever for being excited is really um. not fun lol. like seriously. they were acting like i was personally threatening them.
anytime you're excited for something and someone shoots you down is really a mood changer lol. like wow thanks i really appreciate it. -_-