What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

I mean if they gave him money twice now, just keep it. It's the bank's fault for messing up, again.

Spoiler: Hopefully my final rant abt this

I'm finally done with my 10 day long work streak. I cried like 2 or 3 times at work during that time from stress and frustration. I hate crying from frustration, I find it worse then crying from sorrow or sadness. I got reported by 2 different customers in the time span of 10 days because of stress and frustration and tiredness. Never have I felt so low and stressed before. There would be times when I would crouch (I don't sit at work, I crouch to put bread in the lower cubbies) and just don't want to get back up. There would be times that I go to the dish room in the back to clean dishes, hunched over the sink not wanting to go back up front. I know I've hit damn near rock bottom if I just do not want to get back up but by sheer will power I have to.

I'm amazed that I didn't go off on customers and yell and scream, cause LORD did I want to. I wanted to walk out, I wanted to throw my apron down and leave. I tossed things around, got my hand slammed on racks and tables (by accident, I get careless about my safety when I'm mad), I dropped food on the floor so I had to throw it out, I cursed a storm good lord I only curse when I'm very mad or to get my point across. My manager kept getting on my case for the brief not even an hour that he saw me, which just made me more mad. There were 2 or 3 times were I really thought I couldn't take anymore.

Today was no better. I read my schedule wrong so I actually came in 2 hours late. Customers gave me problems, another one reported my cause I SIGHED while getting her cake. I didn't even know I sighed until someone told me. My asst store manager had a talk with me in front of other customers about the customer who reported me for ****ing sighing. Then a misunderstanding with my asst manager which resulted in me leaving early. I thought she asked me if I wanted to stay till 7 so I could get an hour break instead of half an hour, but I said no cause I didn't want to stay any longer and that I'll just take the half hour. But she still made me scheduled for 7 and my other coworker got mad at me, and when I get back I'm sure my manager will ask me why I clocked out early today which he hates.

Even thou these 10 days of Hell are over I still get this feeling of, unease or dread. I can't fully relax, I still feel bad. I don't know the right word for it. All I want to do is relax and just get my stuff back on track. I've procrastinated on so much because of stress and tiredness. I want to do stuff I enjoy again. I hope these next 3 days will be better, and if work calls I'm ignoring them. I can't take work anymore.

TL;DR The 10 days are over, but I still have this uneasy feeling. Never have I felt this bad before.

I feel the same way, except instead of working a job nonstop I've been doing schoolwork nonstop for months. Even during my breaks (Mid-Semester, Thanksgiving) I spent most of my time doing schoolwork. After a while you kinda forget how to relax. Just remember to take it easy for at least the next few days, and hopefully you start feeling better soon. Just know you're done and hopefully you can take a break

- - - - - - - - - - - -

I have to leave my dorm by like Saturday at noon, and honestly I don't want to go home. I hate it there. I want to stay here. This city is so much nicer, and there's always something to do here. Where I live it's practically dead and really sad, and there's nothing to do there (besides drugs maybe idfk). I would honestly love to stay here in this dorm but during winter break they'll charge $25 a day if I stay

- - - Post Merge - - -

Also almost forgot, I'm really gonna miss going to the music hall and practicing on their really nice pianos. I have a petite baby grand at home, but it needs a lot of work done on it. It's not as nice, and since the action needs adjusted and the strings are out of tune, it's pretty hard to practice on. Luckily, over break I'll just be learning new notes, but working on the technical stuff is really difficult on my piano. Ughhhh.

 

[Zane]

dis shiny hunt is taking the joy out of my life
not rly but it’s dragged on long enough i say!

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

dis shiny hunt is taking the joy out of my life
not rly but it’s dragged on long enough i say!

When I did that back it X and Y, I would put on a movie. Now you have to watch where you're going more.

 

[Zane]

When I did that back it X and Y, I would put on a movie. Now you have to watch where you're going more.

Yaaaa X/Y had that city where you could literally just hold to the left or right and circle around that Eiffel tower building. Then you could zone out while you hatched. Wild area is kinda annoying for hatching because I tend to run into Pokemon if I look away from the screen.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

I'm not feeling too great. Mentally.

 

[Aquari]

dis shiny hunt is taking the joy out of my life
not rly but it’s dragged on long enough i say!

same as heck, ive battled over 1000 rookidees and still no shiny. even with the shiny charm...ive moved on to nickit now. i think im at like 400+ atm, but i have faith. shiny rookie cant hide from me FOREVER. ill come back to him once i find my shiny nickit!

 

[Midoriya]

Why is it so freaking cold in here? Is our heater not working? I’m not depressed or bored, but I literally can’t get out of my bed to do things without shaking uncontrollably.

 

[Mimi Cheems]

We are outttt of the things I need... and I forgot to remind my mom to get some on the way home. She says we need to use the last ones wisely, because they're not gonna last long LOL, rip.​

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I'm still working on these stupid short essays for music history ugh I'm so ready to be doneeeeeee D:

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Is anyone playing New Leaf anymore?

 

[Stella-Io]

Is anyone playing New Leaf anymore?

I play when I have time. I have had zero time these past few weeks, but I do generally try to play when I want.

 

[ali.di.magix]

people irl selling things and not responding when you message them asking if it's available smh. Like I'd happily buy it if you'd respond!

 

[Alienfish]

people irl selling things and not responding when you message them asking if it's available smh. Like I'd happily buy it if you'd respond!

Ugh yeah tell me about it

Also idk how I'm gonna do this in a few hours HHHHHhh hnnng

 

[Bcat]

Why do you have to be this way? >.<

people irl selling things and not responding when you message them asking if it's available smh. Like I'd happily buy it if you'd respond!

ugh yeesssss. Like, do you not want my money???

 

[mogyay]

i bought my parents really cute stockings this year but they're too small so idk what to do, either i could just wrap presents along side them or buy more stockings which seems like a waste (and then potentially more presents if it seems empty)

 

[Princess Mipha]

I have no clue how it happened, but it suddenly broke
while I was eating from it.. RIP plate

 

[Zane]

it’s only lunch time and i wanna go to sleeeeeep zzzz

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Little tired. :3 Think I'll chill for a bit then head back to doing some work.

 

[RedTropicalPeachyFish]

That I'm deadly sleepy..

 

[Alienfish]

Homework :c

Also hurry up rest of tokens bruh lol