What's Bothering You?

@xSuperMario64x
as i said, maybe he has issues handling his emotions. If he can see that you are, at the very least, trying to listen to him. He can have some sense that his opinions are being considered.
People yell and get rude because they feel they aren't being heard. Just hear him out.
 
GAH! How ignorant can my mother be?

... It'd be nice to have some support. But noooo, you're too selfish! you stupid *****
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Stupid piece of ****

yeah maybe I did say I'd do it all on my own don't worry bout it. But don't you feel lacking as a parent in any ****ing way???? Stupid *****. Screw you and screw everyone. And those times where I tried to let loose and have fun with you guys eventually get twisted in some racist way or some ****. **** all of ya'll, can't wait to say goodbye to you guys on Sunday!
 
irritated that my manager has something against me and refuses to promote me even though everyone else at the store thinks i should be. that and i hate my job. and i hate my coworkers. and i hate that there's literally nothing else for me to do but suck it up and keep working.
 
Being off my meds for four days has made me really irritable and angsty. Exercise helps, but I can only keep it up for so long. Hopefully my refill will come in soon...
 
I think what makes this so hard for me to do is the fact that he's constantly rude to all of us (me, my mom, my brother) and he's completely unwilling to open up and talk to anyone about his issues. we know he has issues cause he grew up with an abusive father but he's gotta do some work on his part, he needs to make an effort to better himself. I just can't stand dealing w him anymore. after 21 years it's getting old.
sounds a lot like my dad. My dad is also fairly conservative and unwilling to change his views, but in my case he literally doesn't have any critical thinking skills and can't back up what he says lol. He often just repeats what the media says without thinking much more. He's had a bad past as well like yours, but the part I highlighted in the quote is his problem as well. He's had years to change but he listens to absolutely nobody. After 23 years of this ****, I couldn't care if he loves me or not, or even apologizes, because the same **** will happen over and over again until he makes a change in himself.
 
I don’t feel super great. I’m okay and my days been okay but I can just tell that I’m feeling off suddenly and I hate it. It frustrates me when I’ll be fine and then one little thing will happen and I’ll just end up upsetting myself over nothing. I’m trying to ignore it but I can feel that like nervous knot in my stomach sort of thing and like I’m about to cry. :/
 
It bothers me how much I'm down on myself, and no matter what I do I can never seem to shake it. I don't know, I'm so quick to compare myself to others out of impulse.

And recently I've been feeling so insecure; more so than usual. Everything I seem to do, I always find someone who does it 10x better, or looks 10x better, and shows it 10x better.

I hate this feelings, but it just comes naturally
 
What's bothering me is, no one seems to have a spare rocket DIY.
 
I stayed up too late last night cause I lost track of the time (i usually go to bed at 10pm but I went to bed at like 1:30 instead) and now it's 11:20am and I'm really tired 😣
 
my brother and dad are always arguing about the most basic things, i feel like i'm listening to the same conversation every single day it's so annoying 😑
 
It's supposed to be a dress up day at my work with a "cozy" theme. I was going to borrow some clothes from my partner to wear (because what are boyfriends for if not to steal their clothes right?) but he left the house at 7am this morning because his dad is in hospital.

So now I am worried about his dad, worried about my partner, and everyone's just looking at me like I'm a party pooper for not wearing pj's at work like sorry I wasn't in the mood today? It seems inappropriate to be doing "fun dress up" when a family member is doing so poorly. And also didn't want to borrow clothes without asking. But I didn't want to explain all that to them either so I'm just the work buzzkill today who didn't dress up 🙄
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My head hurts and has been hurting for hooouurs now, almost for the entirety of my 10.5 hour shift today. I drank water and turned off the lights (save for my light up thingy that makes a soft light so I can see wear I'm walking and my phone set all the way down) but neither have helped.
I really haven't had anything to eat since 6am this morning (it's almost 7pm now) but what is being made for dinner I don't like. So my stomach also hurts the point of feeling nauseous.
What a swell way to end the week.-.
 
As I was trying to pay off my tuition, I ended up taking money away instead of actually paying it off because of how weird the format of the system is, and I'm really stressed rn. I tried contacting the office at my college and emailing them, but I got automatic messages back saying that they won't be back until January 19, which is when payments are due. I'm so stressed out right now and I can't think rn.
 
So, it was my first time selling on Nookazon yesterday. And other than having to get used to the faster pace of dealing with offers and occasionally worrying about potential scams/scammers (which hasn't happened yet, thankfully), it was all good. Just a few things kind of irked me, though...
Case 1: Apparently, I was "unresponsive/too slow" in accepting someone's offer of 100k Bells, so they cancelled on me in just a few minutes of me having put the listing up, and theirs was the only offer. (Though, I would've happily accepted their 100k. It's just that I was dealing with other trades in the meantime since I was getting quite a few offers; I listed several DIY recipes one after the other for the first time, so my listings were all showing up at the top of the search results, and thus bound to get more attention/offers.) I even had my status set to Busy, along with my bio/description (which is always shown right above every listing) explaining what my Online/Busy/Offline statuses specifically mean for me. Word for word, Busy means I'm updating listings, completing a trade, or AFK. But I guess that didn't mean anything to them, if they even saw or read it in the first place... Perhaps, I could have messaged them letting them know I'd be with them shortly, but didn't get around to doing it because, again: it was my first time on Nookazon, plus I had multiple offers to respond to. Naturally, after that experience and getting used to the pace, I started messaging offerers when they would have to wait a bit, even if they didn't cancel on me in the first few minutes (because most people usually don't cancel so quickly...). Some people are just too impatient and have a bad attitude, it seems. At least, that's the impression this offerer left on me, unfortunately.

Case 2: Someone offered me 2 NMTs for a DIY recipe and, out of a bit of curiosity and cheekiness, I counter-offered them for 3 NMTs. Later, I check and see that they declined. Understandable. Wasn't guaranteed, and wasn't expecting it to go through for sure. Then, I cancel my counteroffer and message them asking if they're still interested and that I'd be happy to accept their offer of 2 NMTs (since they still had it up at the time). They don't respond, though their status says Online. I get the feeling they may be annoyed with me at this point, and so they've probably moved on to another person. About an hour or so later, I get a notification saying they cancelled the offer because they no longer need the item. Okay... So, three possibilities there: they changed their mind, they got the same DIY recipe from someone else because they got a better deal, or they just didn't want to trade with me specifically because of my counteroffer earlier. Regardless, I didn't really see the sense in it... First off, asking them for just one more NMT isn't crazy, in my opinion. Like, I didn't think it would be a make-it-or-break-it thing. And secondly, even after clicking Accept on their first offer, I still directly messaged them to confirm that I was willing to do the trade. Yeah, it took a few extra steps and a little more time than it maybe should have, but they still would have gotten what they initially wanted, and I would've had one more DIY recipe off of my cluttered beach, plus 2 NMTs in my pocket. But no, they just had to be petty over 1 NMT difference. *sigh*... I don't know. Maybe I'm the one that's being petty. Or just plain sensitive... I guess, when I just don't understand people's actions, I take it personally, and/or I make it mean something negative about them.
Edit: And now I'm salty that I didn't even get any TBT after writing all this?? 🙃 Is that feature disabled for this thread or something, or it just doesn't count for text closed off in a spoiler? Anyway... Ironically, I'm not even getting any offers on Nookazon anymore right now. :rolleyes:
nookazon is crazy. i use it a ton because i knew about it way longer than bell tree, so i have over 500 trades done so far. thankfully no scammers, but the people on there want ridiculous prices for most things. also i hate when accepting a trade, they send me the dodo, and a second after they cancel the trade. has happened to me quite often and it always makes me salty because like...you sent me the dodo! you went that far! and then a millisecond later your out. it feels like they wanted to waste my time

also in the nookazon app, the noise it makes is 1) annoying, and 2) stops my music while trading because apparently my phone sees it as music????
 
other people: "you should try to get along w your dad!"

my dad: randomly walks into my room to complain that there's a tiny bit of hair dye on the wall (which wilk come off easily with some soap) and I told him it's fine and he's like WE'LL WHEN YOU'RE NOT THE ONE MAKING THE HOUSE PAYMENT YEAH



like seriously chill the **** out my dude, it's a tiny bit of hair dye. so what? why the **** does he have to make a big deal out if something so small? this kinda bs is why I don't like him.
 
other people: "you should try to get along w your dad!"

my dad: randomly walks into my room to complain that there's a tiny bit of hair dye on the wall (which wilk come off easily with some soap) and I told him it's fine and he's like WE'LL WHEN YOU'RE NOT THE ONE MAKING THE HOUSE PAYMENT YEAH



like seriously chill the **** out my dude, it's a tiny bit of hair dye. so what? why the **** does he have to make a big deal out if something so small? this kinda bs is why I don't like him.
my dad is the same way. people always are like "but theyre your dad!! you have to try and forgive them!" no. you dont have to. my dad screamed at me, abused me, and yet people have the nerve to say "well he still loves you!" quit that. that isnt helpful in the slightest
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that kind of talk makes abused people think they need to forgive their abusers and what they went through wasnt bad enough. its harmful and it has always bothered me
 
it's hard living up to seemingly perfect siblings. they have everything i don't have- a bunch of friends they've known for years, amazing grades and skills, etc.
they've been so great at everything we've all done for years- meanwhile i still can't play those games we loved.
i can't even focus in my classes because i'm stressed about living up to the bar they set for me.
why has my life been trash compared to theirs? at this point the only thing keeping me alive are my stuffed animals that i still talk to.
 
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