It's a bit depressing thinking of all the things she hadn't done with her life. It's a bit depressing that her mom (my grandma) is living older than her, and has been through her birth, to her death. It's a bit depressing my dad has to fill both roles as a father, and a mother that we once had.
I appreciate your support, I really do. I was astonished at her death at first, but then the next day I started to cry, after looking at a photo album, and she looked so happy, and I'll never see that face again.