i just want you to know that i am so SO sorry for your loss. i've never talked about it on here, but i lost my older brother a few years ago, and i know how losing someone at a young age can feel like. it is absolutely terrible that you have to go through this. i know we haven't talked much on here before, but i just want you to know that, while it's never going to be the same, please don't forget that your life is worth living and it's going to get better. the whole grieving process isn't linear, there's nothing wrong with taking as much time as you need to heal, whether that be a few months or a few years, and even then it's okay to have hard days. i wish you and your family the best. <3