Avoiding sleep

[Rasha]

I was always known to be a night owl because I like it when it's so quite and everyone else is asleep, but lately I've been avoiding sleep even when I'm exhausted for another reason; I fear the next day, I don't want to think about work or the people I'm going to deal with and the things I'll be put through, my job itself is fine I just hate its dreadful atmosphere and the fact that I don't get along with most of the people there, also I've grown to become LAZY on a criminal level, like, just thinking about the next day gives me the jeebies because I don't want to do anything at all. it's been like that for a couple of months now, because of this fear I'm having I've been avoiding sleep to the point I basically go to work everyday after sleeping less than 2 hours, I also go late... I do it because I don't want the next day to come and I DON'T KNOW WHY, my reasons aren't good enough!. we all go through things and routines we don't like but to feel this lazy and unmotivated to do the most basic things in life, and staying up as many hours possible to delay the next day (which doesn't happen, only makes things worse)...
I want to know if there's anyone here who's gone through something similar and what they did to fix it because this is no way to live, I'm basically exhausted all the time because of it. it does sound silly but it's not when you're living the situation..

 

[Trent the Paladin]

That really sounds like some form of illness and you really ought to see somebody Bahia.

 

[tabris]

not to be this person but have you had experiences with seasonal affective disorder or bouts of depression before? because this feeling is usually one of the earliest signs of either/or. i've felt what you are currently feeling at different levels of intensity since i was about 12 or 13 years old, and was diagnosed with clinical depression when i was 15 (have had my condition evaluated since, i'm much older now, yup still got it haha)

my suggestions are to try and break the routine as much as you can. go somewhere new or someplace you haven't been to in a while, drive a different route to work, take a long walk in a different park or neighbourhood, etc. i live in a big city so what i often do to break routine is visit as many different coffee shops or local cafes as i can... it really helps get rid of the feeling of the mundane, even something small like that. and the mundane or the boring can really drag you back into a depressive cycle. i wouldn't call yourself lazy, but anxious or just... sad. that's what happens unfortunately. the body is often more affected than the mind which is why you might feel confused as to why this is happening

sorry if this is a mess of a post. feel free to PM me if you want. i've had over ten years of experience with ongoing depression and am always open to talking with others about similar issues

 

[Malico]

At least you realize your doing it. As someone who got waves of depression but knew it was happening I hated I felt bad. For me meditating and fixing my diet did wonders as well as making sure I wasn't lying to myself about things I disliked. Life is hard and my advice would be not to look towards any prescription but spend some time every day listening to binaural beats to help with letting go of stress and overthinking, especially if your up late with nothing else going on anyways. You might find it clears your mind outside of your own sense of self and genuinely wake up feeling less focused on some of the things that bother you. Best of regards.

 

[Bowie]

This is me. I had no idea other people experienced this. I feel like this almost daily. I get this overwhelming feeling of dread for the following day, especially if I know a lot has to be done.

 

[Flare]

This sounds like Depression... I experience these things too. I also agree on how I feel dreadful about something and not being sure on what to do about it as well...

 

[Frostbite2002]

As the others said, this sounds like you have some symptoms of depression. This isn't anything to be ashamed of, many people have been diagnosed (myself included) I suggest you go to a doctor or therapist to talk about it, if you feel that wont help then you should still try it out, you may be surprised at what happens. Depression isn't something to be joked about it made fun of, it is a serious mental disorder and you should at least tell SOMEONE about what you are going through.
Of course if you don't want to seek medical help then you can try many things to help you relax. Make sure to take care of yourself! Make sure you are eating enough! Make sure to go outside every so often, fresh air is good for clearing your head! Try reading or maybe try writing down how you feel everyday and make a journal out of it, it sounds clich? I know but it is known to help!
You aren't being lazy, you just seems to be extremely anxious and sad which make make you less motivated to do the things that worry you, it all just seems a bit complex, I know.
Whatever you choose to do to try and help yourself, just remember that you are important and you should always take good care of yourself. Good luck!

 

[MishMeesh]

As other people have said, this sounds like it can be a sign of depression. Depression can effect your motivation, your executive functioning, your sleeping and eating cycles (phases of too lazy/not motivated to eat anything and on the other hand there may be phases of overeating/binge eating), lack of motivation for the upkeep of personal hygiene (keeping oneself and one's living space clean and manageable), and all of this can happen without the significant or noticeable onset of sadness that people might think of when they think of what depression means. This is how it started for me.

If it's affecting your life, which it sounds like it is, you should talk to a doctor, therapist, or counsellor. There are ways to get better!

 

[EpicGamer12]

This is definitely legitimate depression. There are so many resources that can help you with this and I suggest you see a doctor. I know it may not be something you want to do, but maybe it would help if I told you the outcome and the future can get better.

Tell someone close to you that will push you towards action. This will create accountability and help you get help for the problem.