Alright so I do have a few...
- try to become mentally well and stable. having bpd and gad is not really the best mix. my anxiety triggers the abandonment trauma from the bpd, then i get retaliatory, and then.. and then.. yeah. i constantly spiraled the entirety of 2023. tried to think i was doing good.. when really, i think i was just really good at pretending i was. this year, i'm going to do better mentally. i'm tired of the same cycle over and over. ruining relationships, etc. this year,
i'm going to control
my disorders. i'm not going to let them control
me anymore.
- watch more anime! since i got a smart tv for christmas, i've been really trying to get back into the swing of watching more animes. i don't do a lot aside from work and sit at my desk. having something else to do would be nice!
- read more manga! i've been really bad with keeping up on my physical collection. i buy these mangas, but haven't touched a single one unless if the synopsis really pulls me in. i have a few mangas i bought, but have yet to read. like parasyte (which i bought about 2 years ago since i knew my bestie
@Midoriya loves this series!), jjk, and others.
- be kinder to myself. like many others i'm sure, i have a very hard time with being nice to
me. i want to change that this year. i want to treat myself more like a human, instead of a monster i definitely treat myself as.. it's hard being nice to yourself.. but it's even harder being nice after being so mean to yourself for so long.. especially since i'm so used to it.. breaking the habit is hard. but i'm determined!