At the moment I am very hypomanic (have been for a week or two now), which is a nice change considering I'm not having a depressive episode. Although, I've been very irritable because of it and I anger easily. I've also been reckless spending (spent $45 on Roblox but my avatar looks cool so it's cool). My biggest problem with hypomania/mania is that I become very impulsive and I say things I don't actually mean. But hey, at least I'm not that suicidal now!
So, the question begs: Have you ever felt genuine mania or hypomania? This could be from a mood disorder such as bipolar or schizoaffective (which I suffer from).
I have and a few days ago I was wondering if I might actually be bipolar rather than depressed.
I can go from from being really happy to flying into a full rage to wanting to kill myself just like that, I've even been in serious debt as at one point I was constantly buying stuff I didn't need due to either being really happy or depressed.
Luckily I've managed to get my spending mostly under control but I still spend most of my wage within the first week or so meaning I've no money for the rest of the month, but at least I'm not in debt anymore.
have you looked into seeking help for it?
my boyfriend is bipolar and he's very adamant about being med compliant because mania is just as dangerous and hurtful as depression and depressive episodes can be. one truly isn't better than the other, and reaching out and getting help for mental health is very important.
