Isolation, and trying to be free of it.

[Tama456]

Lately I find myself with more and more time on my hands, but it never seems like enough. Lately whenever I'm alone I play games, constantly. They've always been my escape, when I'm feeling down or lonely. it's not so bad in story driven games, but in games like Minecraft, or Stardew Valley, and of course Animal Crossing....I find myself feeling more isolated and lonely then ever. For example in Outset (my town in new leaf)I get excited to be playing again and I want to but I just wander around for a while and do a few things and quit, because it really just hits to close to home. It's the interaction I think that I'm craving, with a friend. I have family yes, and I have a really good friend, someone who I consider to be my dearest friend, but it occurred to me that I haven't seen her in person in roughly 3 years. We chat online fairly often but I can't honestly say we know each other the way we did before. My OCD and Social anxiety have caused me to slowly isolate myself until I was cut off from the majority of my friends, until I lost most of them. Which to go back to New Leaf, is why I think I have trouble playing it lately is that I was subconsciously trying to use the villagers as a substitute for what I lost. Thinking this through has spurred me into trying to maybe meet some new friends online, here specifically through a game which I've come to really love. So if anyone wants to chat with a slightly damaged gal who is socially akward/inexperienced, I'll be here whenever I can, so just send me a message if you feel like it.

 

[honeyaura]

Hi. I'm glad that you were brave enough to post about this, and realizing how you truly feel is a huge step in getting better. Please feel free to PM me <3