[artsy shots]
this video is inspired by so many things.
i am a type 9. i've done many tests, quizzes and even been
judged by some fellow compadr?s of mine into the 9 category;
i'm a peacemaker. accepting, trusting and stable. some common
traits are optimism, creativeness and supportiveness. we
avoid conflict like the plague, but can be a little
complacent with our avoidance of problems, often simplifying
them too far.
[on a shot with me 1 "my response" on the one side with me 2 "a perfect 9" on other]
>>e.g; head and shoulders next to head and shoulders
[text: me vs. perfect 9]
both say; "my basic fear"
1; loss of family and friends
2; loss and seperation
both say; "my basic desire"
1; happiness and peace of mind
2; to have inner stability or "peace of mind"
[back to artsy shots]
i often get lost in my own thoughts and daydream, or zone out entirely.
sometimes, entire days, actions and often exams or simple tasks such as
closing the curtains completely disappear from my memory, as i'm not there.
music gives me
i have little made up worlds in my head, and memories can repeat indefinitely
for several minutes or hours. if i giggle or laugh to myself, i've just
replayed a funny memory or invented a scenario in my head. my personality
moulds to other people to avoid any issue, i'm a chameleon of every friendship
group.
i always see both points of view, see both the glass half full and half empty,
like some silly spot the difference drawing, but without the similarities. my
response to pain or bad situations is glazed over eyes or total ignorance.
premature peacefulness is more enjoyable than any tension i may encounter.
being numb to me is better than being depressed. i focus on the silver lining
so my peace of mind isn't rubbed away, but i really need to realise that the
only way for me to deal with situations is by tackling them head on.
on the level one to nine scale on the levels of development, i'm definitely
in the healthy levels, but sometimes i do relate to the average levels. the
healthy levels include loving care and the feeling of being autonomous, with
healing and calming influences, whilst being emotionally stable, whereas the
average parts i relate to are the tuning out of reality and the minimisation
of problems, as well as the procrastination of things.
procrastination motivates me to do other things: i get my best ideas and
work my hardest when i'm avoiding doing something important. the constriction
of it is binding, like a pair of trousers that don't fit. type 9s should not
focus on individualism or being unique or standing out from the crowd, but
most of my personality revolves around me being very different to the main
body of humanity. my clothing style also screams for attention, really. but,
type 9s should also contain the positive traits of all the other types, which
does include the creativity of a depressing four, so i guess i fit into the
mould that way.
but really, as much as all of these character traits fit me into this nine
box, there's no real need to categorise myself in this way, except to better
understand my thought processes, actions and emotions. me not being driven
could be put down to my complacency with not conflicting others, for example.
i'm just happy being me, really.
thank you for watching, and have a nice day. goodbye.
