What's Bothering You?

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great, so, i boot up my wii o=to play Pokepark 2. (ONLY REASON!) and it wouldnt read the effing disc :rolleyes:
 
Lol that irony. Although unlike you your brother is actually decent despite being a bit impulsive and autistic at times.
 
I just really, really wish things to be different. I hope I'm able to stay at that friend's house after I complete Driver's Ed. I know this is a bit too much, but I've thought about them being my guardian or something - my friend's parents, I mean. Honestly, I want to be able to do things around the house. This contamination OCD is slowly killing me. It doesn't help that my family is disgusting. They've done really abnormal and gross things. I want to be able to do chores; I want to be able to not be afraid of touching things; I want to be able to spend less time obsessing over germs. I mean, it's not that once I live over there my mental illness will immediately go away - but I think living in a more cleaner environment will definitely help. I bet that my family won't understand the reason why I want to live elsewhere, and perhaps they never will. I just want to get better. I'm feeling guilty, because I know that they do love me, but the things that they do are really just too much. The rest of my family are going to question me, and they are probably going to dislike me a little because of it, but I think it's best for my mental state to live elsewhere. I've got a bunch of family members living near me, but I wouldn't want to live with them - especially not my aunt. I don't know. My friend hasn't talked to her parents about me staying with them in awhile, so I'm hoping they're still willing to take me in. I just want to be free from all of this.
 
Whopee the one chance I actually get to drive my car it breaks down ;~;

Today is just not going very well for me lol
 
Worried I might actually lose my job and scared things won’t work out with my psychiatrist tomorrow. Plus I need stuff to get done. Everything just seems so frightening for me.
 
My mom got mad at me when I didn't give her free range of my phone while we were on a hike today. I didn't want to bring my phone with me anyway, it's not like I had any kind of service on top of the mountain. She insisted that she take pictures of my sisters, even though she has a tablet that takes just as good pictures as my phone does. She took her pictures and then got pissy when I asked for it back and started on some "I pay for this and you don't" rant. Sorry I didn't want my phone shoved in the backpack with the water and bugspray instead of my obviously safer pocket, mom. Sorry I forgot that my phone, which was my graduation present and I've had for almost a year, isn't actually mine because it was a gift. I don't think she even sees me as an adult, to be honest.
 
there are zero good therapists in the area except for one and they charge $150 just to schedule an appointment... and then you ahve to pay for each session on top of that.. :(
 
I'm glad you have a friend that you can rely on. I wish I had a friend that I could've relied on when I was in that similar situation of feeling trapped and wanting to escape, but I was always too afraid to reach out. While it's hard to ignore, you don't have to explain yourself to others, especially extended family. They don't know the actuality of what's going on, so there's no point fighting a battle with them. All you can say to your family or extended family is that you're doing it for your own happiness, it's for you, not anyone else <3 And if your family can't help you, then bye
 
This game...

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I have to go to the dentist again today to get some more dental work done, and honestly I'm just so tired of getting shots in my mouth :/
 
I have no motivation...I have exams coming up and I'm supposed to be revising...I also have a cold which is not that bad but it's still bothering me...someone please inspire me or I'm going to fail haha :(
 
Mom didn't fix the bathroom sink/pipes that were clogged last night as she should have since we agreed I'd make dinner.. like sigh fine have a flooded bathroom then
 
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