What's Bothering You?

[Dawnpiplup]

Why can't you just ever stop plummeting my mood? Why doesn't the family take my side? Why are they siding with someone who goes after not just me, but every other person in the house? I need to be doing stuff, but I'm not in the mood. There's finals and assignments, but I'm not doing so hot. Car broke down, so I'm stuck in the house. I don't like it here.

 

[Lady Timpani]

Spoiler: Very personal

After around a ten month battle with gastric (stomach) cancer, my mom passed away today. It is the saddest and crappiest day of my life. I cried a bunch and others did too. My mom was the most positive person in the world, and I would think that even if she wasn’t a parent of mine. Always putting others before herself, doing great things, self-accomplished and self-driven. She brightened everyone’s days whenever she appeared. There was, in a sense, no one quite like her, and I don’t think there ever will be again. I loved her so, so, so much and it’s still sinking in that she’s gone. Let December 1st, 2020 be known as a pretty bad day all around and I seriously can’t wait until this year is over.

I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you and your family are doing as well as you can right now. May she rest in peace.

 

[Midoriya]

I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you and your family are doing as well as you can right now. May she rest in peace.

Thank you, Lady Timpani. I really appreciate it as well as the Black Hybrid Rose you gifted me. We’re doing our best.

 

[saucySheep]

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Hey brother
that legit sucks so hard im so terribly sorry for you ;-; no one deserves pain like that
i shall be praying

 

[spawnpoint]

@Midoriya I'm sorry for your loss, man I couldn't imagine going through that I hope you and your family will be ok ;;

 

[trashpedia]

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Oml I am so sorry for your loss ;o; take as much time you need to mourn

I usually come back to this poem when someone I love and care about pass away, so maybe it'll help you too

Spoiler

Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep
Mary Elizabeth Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

 

[Midoriya]

Hey brother
that legit sucks so hard im so terribly sorry for you ;-; no one deserves pain like that
i shall be praying

@Midoriya I'm sorry for your loss, man I couldn't imagine going through that I hope you and your family will be ok ;;

Oml I am so sorry for your loss ;o; take as much time you need to mourn

I usually come back to this poem when someone I love and care about pass away, so maybe it'll help you too

Spoiler

Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep
Mary Elizabeth Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

Thank you, everyone. I really appreciate your kind words and the lovely poem. < 3

 

[pochy]

Spoiler: Very personal

After around a ten month battle with gastric (stomach) cancer, my mom passed away today. It is the saddest and crappiest day of my life. I cried a bunch and others did too. My mom was the most positive person in the world, and I would think that even if she wasn’t a parent of mine. Always putting others before herself, doing great things, self-accomplished and self-driven. She brightened everyone’s days whenever she appeared. There was, in a sense, no one quite like her, and I don’t think there ever will be again. I loved her so, so, so much and it’s still sinking in that she’s gone. Let December 1st, 2020 be known as a pretty bad day all around and I seriously can’t wait until this year is over.

i'm so so sorry you had to go through this your mother sounded like a truly lovely and incredible person.

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

totally haven't been crying for the past 2 hours because my hopes keep being shut down

 

[Dunquixote]

Why can't you just ever stop plummeting my mood? Why doesn't the family take my side? Why are they siding with someone who goes after not just me, but every other person in the house? I need to be doing stuff, but I'm not in the mood. There's finals and assignments, but I'm not doing so hot. Car broke down, so I'm stuck in the house. I don't like it here.

I want to know this too. Every time my dad or sister (when she is here as well or if I’m at her place since she has her own house now) criticizes me or disagrees with me, the other gangs up on me and my mom doesn’t say anything. When i try venting to her then, she tells me not to start anything. It is times like those I have intrusive thoughts though I honestly never mean any of the thoughts (partly because I’m a coward).

I’m so sorry that you are going through that and that you’re not feeling good. :/ Hang in there as best you can; I’m sorry I have nothing better to say since I don’t know how to deal with the situation except when at home, hide in my room. i can’t do that at my sister’s though :/. my mom is okay if i take a time out but usually my dad intrudes in the room to get something or idk.

 

[Stella-Io]

Welcome to another episode of 'JP is only 21 but physically feels like they're in their 40s!'

I was crouching down and when I went to stand back up I felt something hurt in my left knee, aka the stupid knee I've had problems with since high school. Fr thou why do I have pains like this, this is supposed to be my prime (physically). Knee pains, back shoulder area pains so much that I can't even give myself a massage anymore, it hurts to press that area. There are times where it literally feels like someone is pinching my nerves and other times that it feels like it burns. Not like a hot heat burn like my muscles are on literal fire, but just weird. At the end of a work week my back shoulder area is killing me.

To the 40 year olds reading this, I in no way mean this as an insult. I use 40 cause my parents are in their 40s and complain about pains.

 

[Midoriya]

i'm so so sorry you had to go through this your mother sounded like a truly lovely and incredible person.

Thank you, pochy. I appreciate your kind words. < 3

 

[Mad Aly]

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I offer you my deepest prayers and condolences for you and your family. I know the pain of losing a loved one... My grandfather passed away last year on February 1st. And last night, on December 1st, I was overcome with a grief for him that I hadn't felt in months. I even thought about how interesting the timing of it was, being almost exactly a year and ten months. And then, today, I saw your comment. If that's not more than coincidence, then I don't know what is. So, just know you are not alone, friend. ❤

 

[Midoriya]

I offer you my deepest prayers and condolences for you and your family. I know the pain of losing a loved one... My grandfather passed away last year on February 1st. And last night, on December 1st, I was overcome with a grief for him that I hadn't felt in months. I even thought about how interesting the timing of it was, being almost exactly a year and ten months. And then, today, I saw your comment. If that's not more than coincidence, then I don't know what is. So, just know you are not alone, friend. ❤

Thank you, Aly. I really appreciate it. I’m sorry to hear about your grandfather. I’ve never had anyone this close to me die before so it’s taking awhile. I didn’t sleep well last night and I’ve felt cold, tired, and depressed all day. Thankfully my dad and other family have been giving me hugs to keep me warm, and I’ve been able to talk with the person I care most about today and relate to them, and they’re helping me feel a lot better. I can’t wait to go to sleep tonight. I think I’ll sleep well because I’m tired. Once again, thank you so much.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

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I'm sorry your family is that way as well. It hurts. Thank you for your kind words and advice - right now I'm just having the blues still, though. I'll try and manage - you do the same as well. <3

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

Spoiler: vent

I feel like my mom just says i'm talented to not hurt my feelings more than they already have been hurting, since in the past she would say "oh no, don't say you are not talented, you're good at drawing (points at drawing that is 3 months old and is a drawing where I didn't bother trying)"
And just today I was telling her about my interest in acting, and she was saying something along the lines of how there was no way I could make it and that it isn't even a career for most people.
Meanwhile, with my sisters, she's always telling them how crazy amazing and smart they are. It's like the subject is always about them when I talk to adults because they're superior to me or something.

I wish it didn't bug me so much because this has been happening for years. I remember even in second grade I wasn't going to have a life and how I was just going to end up being stuck in my parent's basement.
They've also completely forgotten that I stopped drawing months ago to focus on guitar and music and see me like i'm still in middle school. They still bring up my art often even though I've told them several times I stopped drawing completely.

I'm just the forgotten child.

 

[Dunquixote]

Never mind.

 

[Clock]

Theres a delivery outside right now and the family member paying is not here right now, and i have to make the delivery man wait

Post automatically merged: Dec 3, 2020

Never mind now, the problem is solved

 

[Midoriya]

- snip -

Just wanted to point out that this was indeed my birthmother who passed, who was related by blood to me 100%. Not that it matters too much, as Kuriboh pointed out to me that a mother is supposed to take good care of their child whether they’re blood related or not. Still, she acted in every way a birthmother should and never gave up on my sister or I, which just makes this all the more saddening. I know my wording in my original post about it here may be misleading, so I thought I would clarify. Thank you once again everyone for your support.

 

[SmoochsPLH]

as an explanation, i collect discarded snail shells

i've found it now, but i put a snail shell on my bed awhile ago turned around for a couple seconds, looked back and it was gone. D: so for awhile i thought i had a lose snail wandering my room. ;w; then it turned up at the end of my bed today. so either it just fell or it passed in my room :V i hope it's the former