What's Bothering You?

So the NFL merch I ordered for my bf to celebrate our anniversary arrived and it’s missing an item.. I’ve tried ringing their customer service which is supposed to be open but the automatic voicemail says it’s closed. So annoyed > w <
 
my best friend just got back from a trip to her grandmas in arizona and now she’s constantly playing minecraft w her discord friends and hasn’t really talked to me since she’s been back. and when she does talk to me she’ll only talk abt her minecraft friends and when i respond she doesn’t really get back to me. when she was in arizona she’d constantly talk to me and it felt great bc shes one of my only friends who actually bothers to talk to me everyday :// now i feel alone again and idk how to bring it up to her without making her feel bad bc i know she enjoys playing mc and she told me she missed playing w her friends when she wasn’t at home :/
 
I have a sore neck today. It’s mostly fine other than when I look to my right. I must have slept on it funny...

So shoulder checks when driving are painful as is trying to look out the window at work as it’s behind my desk on my right... Doesn’t help it’s a really nice spring day out either.
 
Disabling my instagram soon because I'm starting ti catch myself comparing myself to others again ugggggh

Sometimes it feels like my whole life is filled with ideas and dreams of what could have been, but never came to be.

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't the boring person I am now.

It all feels like one constant wistful thought that never goes away, making me wonder that could have been different if I had chosen something else in the past.
 
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i wanna find a cute retro crt tv to put in my room, but am having trouble finding one. looking on amazon brings up just flat screens and spare parts and everything on ebay is expensive. plus idk if i could get my switch working on one. i mostly want one for gaming as i have a few older consoles. but i wanna be able to play my switch on it too and i'm not sure how to go about that.

i need to find a nice cute one first though. i mean look at this one (that is out of stock everywhere omg). i want a cute one dang it! everything must be cute!!!
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any tips on getting my switch working on a crt tv would be great!

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ooooh a spongebob one maybe
 
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I don’t fit in with any of my friends anymore. There’s just one I can really get along with, but that friend’s girlfriend thinks that I’m just trying to steal him from her or something. Sometimes I wish I could just be fine on my own.
 
Getting wisdom teeth removed tomorrow and fairly nervous about the anesthetic. Logically I know it's almost guaranteed to be fine, but that won't stop the part of my mind that goes "yeah you're definitely about to die from this". Not looking forward to the moments right before it happens.
So the surgery happened a few hours ago and so far it's been completely fine. My mouth hurts a little but that's to be expected. Now I just have to spend the next couple weeks recovering from it.

Right before I got the surgery they sent me to another room and played a video that listed all the possible worst complications which did not help with nerves. Also the video felt like one of those 1990's news broadcasts you find on Youtube at 3:00 AM. Makes me wonder when it was filmed.
 
Disabling my instagram soon because I'm starting ti catch myself comparing myself to others again ugggggh

Sometimes it feels like my whole life is filled with ideas and dreams of what could have been, but never came to be.

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't the boring person I am now.

It all feels like one constant wistful thought that never goes away, making me wonder that could have been different if I had chosen something else in the past.
I just wanna say i felt this? It's the reason I became inactive in instagram and uninstalled it for the longest time in the previous years.

I also felt like a boring person going through that specific social media because everyone seems to be doing something worthwhile compared to me. But i guess i realized that, without comparing myself to others, whatever makes me content should make me the version of myself I'm happiest with. I can improve at my own pace and happiness.

Sorry I started to ramble about me. Anyway, i do think uninstalling or going off IG altogether is a healthy step for you. You should do things that make you happy and content. Plus, chasing your dreams at a later age isn't all that bad; I too have my "what ifs" and although I feel pretty old, I'm trying to check off those "what ifs" I kept thinking about in high school and college. No shame in chasing your dreams still.
 
Disabling my instagram soon because I'm starting ti catch myself comparing myself to others again ugggggh

Sometimes it feels like my whole life is filled with ideas and dreams of what could have been, but never came to be.

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't the boring person I am now.

It all feels like one constant wistful thought that never goes away, making me wonder that could have been different if I had chosen something else in the past.
i meant to respond to this earlier but i got sidetracked ;;; but i totally relate with this!! i uninstalled instagram abt 2 months ago and it was probably the best decision i made. i was constantly comparing myself to my friends and how they had “”better”” lives than i did because i never did anything or went out anywhere worthy enough to post. but i really recommend deleting it, it did wonders for me and my mental health <3
 
Even with my antidepressant I still feel exhausted and disposable. I’m going to have to force myself outside before I get any dumpier.
 
ugh it's gonna take them hours to clear out this event...and I'm gonna be waiting hours to do the pack up, then a good couple hours to complete my work and get home at like midnight lol
 
Disabling my instagram soon because I'm starting ti catch myself comparing myself to others again ugggggh

Sometimes it feels like my whole life is filled with ideas and dreams of what could have been, but never came to be.

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't the boring person I am now.

It all feels like one constant wistful thought that never goes away, making me wonder that could have been different if I had chosen something else in the past.
I should really do this too, I mean sure it has been great for some communication with stores since it made things easier to arrange in special cases and such but yeah it's like.. sure I got back my neopets account and made connection but yeah really.
 
Also having meh thoughts about this new work opportunity... I mean sure it sounded interesting when I first heard about it and I'll definitely go there for the interview but I don't want to quit my current job for that alone, plus the new workplace sounds like totally not my thing and the employer and my contact person got like, way too big misconceptions about me sigh. No I don't want a lone computer office job lol...
 
I'm so bored with ANCH already, now that I've caught a few meteor showers, designed my own clothes and gained a few new islanders etc I feel like the thrill of the game has all but gone. Maybe the upcoming Easter celebration will bring back my love for the game like it did to begin with but I can't help but feel it won't, overall my feelings for the game are annoying me.
 
I’ve heard that three teachers have quit my old job. I know they’ve lost other teachers, too. But specifically three that were teaching my age group, in my class room, have quit. So much for me having the “easy” age and “easy” class, huh?

I loved my old job, don’t get me wrong. If it wasn’t for the pandemic I likely wouldn’t have quit (although there were some issues here and there that were getting to me) but a recurring theme was always that I had the easiest group. Drove me up the wall.

I was the only solo teacher and my kids, whilst the oldest, also had a different schedule from the rest. My kids never napped so I was on all day long with them. That gave me less time to plan activities, hang up art, do the in class paperwork, and clean the toys and such. But I still managed it. It was hard and what I was doing was overlooked but I loved my kids to pieces so I tried my best.

I don’t blame the new hires for walking away as I’m sure those problems above have increased tenfold with all the new covid measures. It doesn’t help that I’m sure my directors waved off their worries the same way they did mine. Baffles me how they can still blindly believe they’re the best preschool/child care centre in my area when they can’t keep staff. You’d think they’d connect the dots or at least try to keep staff but they just don’t seem to care. There’s always gonna be new graduates who’ve never worked in a centre before and won’t know any better.
 
i have a google meet w my school counselor to talk abt my mental health in abt an hour and im super nervous bc i dont even know what im gonna talk to her about ;-;
 
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