What's Bothering You?

Today really is just a meh day. Don’t feel like doing much.

Probably because it’s a Wednesday.
Ditto. I’m not really feeling the Wednesday vibes either.

It’s also raining here, which I don’t mind other than it was dark when I woke up this morning and that always seems to make my whole day a little off.
 
talking to my mom about my mental health/autism is such a horrible invalidating experience cause im over here literally suffering and feeling I might go insane if I keep this up and she's just like "oh you have to think positive and keep trying" like bruh you don't think I tried that already???? this stupid school system is really working against me and I'm reaching my breaking point with it.

I'm not suicidal or anything but i seriously sometimes think i would be better off dead, kinda ironic for me

edit: telling someone who is mentally ill to just be positive is like telling someone who just broke their arm to be healthy. like I can't just do that! It's a process that takes weeks/months/years of healing!!
 
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talking to my mom about my mental health/autism is such a horrible invalidating experience cause im over here literally suffering and feeling I might go insane if I keep this up and she's just like "oh you have to think positive and keep trying" like bruh you don't think I tried that already???? this stupid school system is really working against me and I'm reaching my breaking point with it.

I'm not suicidal or anything but i seriously sometimes think i would be better off dead, kinda ironic for me

edit: telling someone who is mentally ill to just be positive is like telling someone who just broke their arm to be healthy. like I can't just do that! It's a process that takes weeks/months/years of healing!!
I'm sorry you're going through this. *virtual hugs* I found my experience with opening up to my parents about my mental health to be fairly similar. I think a lot of it comes down to the difference in generational experiences, folks being more open about mental health nowadays (not to say it's perfect now, even though we've made strides in the grand scheme of things), etc.

Personally, I found the most comfort in talking about my experiences with my peers, mostly friends I made in university. If your school offers counselling services, I would check them out, too, though you may not instantly vibe with the first counsellor with whom you get matched.

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Speaking of generational experiences/differences, I wish my mum would stop hoping that I will meet more men "to better figure out what I want in a partner." Bruh, I went through five years of engineering and you think I haven't met enough of the other sex? Lmao. I should just tell this to her face, albeit more gently, the next time she brings up the topic. 😆
 
I woke up feeling sick and I thought it would pass over time but my stomach is still hot and bubbly. I'm glad I don't have work today but idk what's the issue. I haven't even been able to drink coffee yet.
 
Also yeah in relation to my earlier posts, that pity party person literally do that in EVERY post, it's not that they come to like a thread like this and actually want get advice or reach out so yeah, ignoring is the way.
 
I wish I was better at dealing with my stress. I get really annoyed and everybody else just has to deal with me. I’m so annoyed with myself.

Ive also been procrastinating on playing my flute and now I have lessons tomorrow and I’m not ready whatsoever.
 
My Switch is broken and of course it's guarantee just expired a month ago. Not even bother to ask Nintendo's customer service because I know it will be expansive + time consuming to let repair that thing. RIP to my NH island and Splatoon save file here.

Also, nice that my doctor now says I'm not suitable for the job I would like to do even if she said the other day that said job would fit perfectly to me. All I needed was a piece of paper with a confirmation on it from her that I'm suitable for the job so that I can apply for it, now I don't have anything and can't apply because she changed her mind. Thanks for nothing, doc, it's not like that I feel perfectly fine and need money for living... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
 
I forgot my sertraline this morning and I am feeling that withdrawal. It’s late, so I’ll have to deal with this until tomorrow.
 
it sucks that my mom thinks since i have a “perfect life” i’m not allowed to have negative emotions at all?? i told her i feel like i have anxiety and she told me “what do you have to be anxious about? your life isn’t hard” like ....this is why i never open up to her.
we had a suicide prevention presentation during my english class today and everything that was shown in a video the counselors showed us really resonated w me, since i had suicidal thoughts back in 2019... the counselors made us fill out a google form to tell them if we felt like we needed to talk to someone abt our mental health if we wanted to. i put yes because my mental health hasn’t been great since the pandemic started, but i’m scared they’re gonna contact my parents. my parents are those type of parents that don’t believe in mental health problems,,, i’m scared they’re gna ask me why i said i needed to talk to someone if “my life is perfectly fine” :/
 
Getting wisdom teeth removed tomorrow and fairly nervous about the anesthetic. Logically I know it's almost guaranteed to be fine, but that won't stop the part of my mind that goes "yeah you're definitely about to die from this". Not looking forward to the moments right before it happens.
 
Getting wisdom teeth removed tomorrow and fairly nervous about the anesthetic. Logically I know it's almost guaranteed to be fine, but that won't stop the part of my mind that goes "yeah you're definitely about to die from this". Not looking forward to the moments right before it happens.
Sending well wishes your way. Had all four of my impacted wisdom teeth removed like five years ago and was nervous too because of my low pain threshold. But it was the second time I've gone under and I knew I was in good hands. The medical staff were competent and professional.

Be patient with yourself while you heal and make sure your toothbrush is soft. You got this! <3
 
Sending well wishes your way. Had all four of my impacted wisdom teeth removed like five years ago and was nervous too because of my low pain threshold. But it was the second time I've gone under and I knew I was in good hands. The medical staff were competent and professional.

Be patient with yourself while you heal and make sure your toothbrush is soft. You got this! <3
Thanks for the well wishes!

Feeling a bit better about the whole thing after posting about it here. Seeing my thoughts put into words definitely helped since my mind was going through all the possible worst case scenarios I could think of, as if thinking about it all night will somehow change whatever outcome happens.
 
Having my eyes checked later and I kinda hate it even if I'm getting the same guy as before... I mean I don't think it's that worsening but it's really annoying still cause I just hate the procedure lol. I do look forward to pick out frames though and hopefully I can get photo-chromatic lenses in them
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Getting wisdom teeth removed tomorrow and fairly nervous about the anesthetic. Logically I know it's almost guaranteed to be fine, but that won't stop the part of my mind that goes "yeah you're definitely about to die from this". Not looking forward to the moments right before it happens.
Me every time I go to dentist and stuff even though they might be good, I've the lowest pain threshold but if you're allowed to listen to music that will definitely help. Best of luck! ❤
 
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