What's Bothering You?

I just feel like I'm drowning at work at this point. The last few weeks have really taken their toll on me mentally. Today is another hellish day and now I'm stuck devoting part of my day to training someone. It just feels like it's never ending. I accidentally skipped my second 15 minute break training the person and I am just so frustrated.
 
out of pettiness and love for best boy, i'm about to change my entire internet presence to be sugawara/hq themed instead of kagome/inuyahsa themed & i'm NOT sorry- both hq s4 & yashahime r coming out this week so im just a disaster

i'm actively avoiding doing work right now too because i'm 1. stressed out cuz i'm moving in 2 days 2. brain preoccupied with thoughts about 100 other things, including how much more i want to play mario than do any work 3. i have no idea what im gonna eat tonight thanks to #1
i just need to do my job but i can't i absolutely cannot focus and its literally.... so bad
 
Wow, I was really upset yesterday and only certain people were there to comfort me. I guess I know who my true friends are now.

And as harsh as it may sound, I don’t think I’ll ever meet people in real life who will truly appreciate me unless I move to a different state or country. I have one best friend of nine years in real life who is too busy to hangout, and no one else.

Being stuck in this state and being raised the way I was both suck. I don’t care if I have many blessings, it hasn’t allowed me to grow the way I should have grown.

/endofrant

I hope you’re feeling better today. Sorry if I wasn’t much help. I have good friends but I can still relate to your feelings. It took me so long to find them and even now I have doubts about myself being a good friend especially since I let little things like the fact people not surprising everyone in the group with a game console or bundle like they did with someone else in the group or a surprise party (i don’t want many games fortunately but would’ve love if everyone in the group got the same treatment). And when i state my opinion about something, i always feel like i am looked at strangely even by my good friends or they don’t understand. :/
 
I hope you’re feeling better today. Sorry if I wasn’t much help. I have good friends but I can still relate to your feelings. It took me so long to find them and even now I have doubts about myself being a good friend especially since I let little things like the fact people not surprising everyone in the group with a game console or bundle like they did with someone else in the group or a surprise party (i don’t want many games fortunately but would’ve love if everyone in the group got the same treatment). And when i state my opinion about something, i always feel like i am looked at strangely even by my good friends or they don’t understand. :/

Hey, I’m doing better now. Thank you for your words. I’m just going to be extra cautious about who I befriend from now on as I’m done dealing with that type of situation. It has happened three times now in the past and I’m sick of it. Putting my foot down there, so we’re all good. c:
 
I was just about to wash the blue hair dye out of my hair and the landlord shows up to fix the dryer with no warning. I thought a real handy man was gonna take a look at it cause the dryer smells like fire when you turn it on but he insist he can fix it himself even though he has no handy skills at all. And he already tried to fix it this month and I still refused to use it. The tubing on the back was not properly attached. Why can't some guys just admit they can't fix everything. Call a professional pls lmao.

Now I gotta wait till he leaves to take a shower and there's blue streaks running down my face from nervous sweat. My skin is gonna be dyed so blue lmao
 
I was hoping I’d feel better once I went to sleep, but just saw a thread about the posters again and now I’m super pissed again. oof. >< Sorry for being a broken record :/; just put a lot of work ordering those posters and setting it up so people could catalogue them for free. And as a completionist, seeing my catalogue missing ones I have and not being able to order any again if I wanted another copy, really bothers me.
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No response is needed. I just really needed to vent somewhere.

i know you said no response was needed but you were the first person i thought of when i found out about the posters. you put so much time and kindness into your free cataloging event and i’m super pissed for you. nintendo really makes stupid decisions sometimes ;/
 
blehh my parents say its allergies but i've never had allergies before? do runny noses and sore throats from allergies usually last 10 hours
 
i know you said no response was needed but you were the first person i thought of when i found out about the posters. you put so much time and kindness into your free cataloging event and i’m super pissed for you. nintendo really makes stupid decisions sometimes ;/

Thanks for the kind thoughts :); I appreciate it very much. I hope you’re doing better yourself :).

I know it is probably annoying I keep posting about it and will try to now minimize the rant and complaining in other threads and here. I feel a bit better now, but seriously, while I’m not surprised, I was seriously hoping Nintendo was better than this. I’ll still find a way to help people with the posters though :). I just needed a few moments to vent. Thanks everyone for listening to me. :)
 
My rabbit Theodore isn't feeling well all of a sudden when he was fine this morning eating his breakfast. I offered him dinner and he didn't want it so then I offered him carrot & apple and he didn't want that either. Normally he would get super pumped so I called the vet and went and picked up some medicine to get his guts moving along normally again. When I got back home he was sitting in the same place and hadn't moved at all which isn't like him.

Anyone who's had a rabbit knows they can get something called GI stasis and so that's what the vet said it probably is. Me & my boyfriend just had to force feed him medicine and now his bunny beard is all dirty. I really hope he's gonna be okay. Pls don't take my bunny rabbit 2020 you merciless year lmao
 
can I just not write this essay pls, I'm so tired. I literally have dark circles under my eyes and I feel my head getting heavy.
 
My rabbit Theodore isn't feeling well all of a sudden when he was fine this morning eating his breakfast. I offered him dinner and he didn't want it so then I offered him carrot & apple and he didn't want that either. Normally he would get super pumped so I called the vet and went and picked up some medicine to get his guts moving along normally again. When I got back home he was sitting in the same place and hadn't moved at all which isn't like him.

Anyone who's had a rabbit knows they can get something called GI stasis and so that's what the vet said it probably is. Me & my boyfriend just had to force feed him medicine and now his bunny beard is all dirty. I really hope he's gonna be okay. Pls don't take my bunny rabbit 2020 you merciless year lmao

oh no! i’m sorry to hear that :(. i hope he’ll be okay and i’ll keep him in my thoughts 💙
 
My rabbit Theodore isn't feeling well all of a sudden when he was fine this morning eating his breakfast. I offered him dinner and he didn't want it so then I offered him carrot & apple and he didn't want that either. Normally he would get super pumped so I called the vet and went and picked up some medicine to get his guts moving along normally again. When I got back home he was sitting in the same place and hadn't moved at all which isn't like him.

Anyone who's had a rabbit knows they can get something called GI stasis and so that's what the vet said it probably is. Me & my boyfriend just had to force feed him medicine and now his bunny beard is all dirty. I really hope he's gonna be okay. Pls don't take my bunny rabbit 2020 you merciless year lmao
This is the thing that scares me the most about being a bunny parent. I hope Theodore pulls through 😔

I’m trying not to post in here with my problems as much, but since I’m already here I’d like to say that I don’t feel good.
 
I was supposed to read 2 chapters of my database textbook and forgot too oops
we have to do chapter 3 questions tomorrow. I also have a website i have to make soon
theres also videos i have to watch for comms and this instructor expects paragraphs out of me.

college life everybody
 
oh no! i’m sorry to hear that :(. i hope he’ll be okay and i’ll keep him in my thoughts 💙
This is the thing that scares me the most about being a bunny parent. I hope Theodore pulls through 😔

I’m trying not to post in here with my problems as much, but since I’m already here I’d like to say that I don’t feel good.
Thanks everyone, I appreciate y'all thinking about him. And I hope you feel better soon Renee!
 
My rabbit Theodore isn't feeling well all of a sudden when he was fine this morning eating his breakfast. I offered him dinner and he didn't want it so then I offered him carrot & apple and he didn't want that either. Normally he would get super pumped so I called the vet and went and picked up some medicine to get his guts moving along normally again. When I got back home he was sitting in the same place and hadn't moved at all which isn't like him.

Anyone who's had a rabbit knows they can get something called GI stasis and so that's what the vet said it probably is. Me & my boyfriend just had to force feed him medicine and now his bunny beard is all dirty. I really hope he's gonna be okay. Pls don't take my bunny rabbit 2020 you merciless year lmao

Oh no. I’m so sorry to hear that :(. Also, I’m really sorry for not seeing this earlier; Idk if sorry even sums it up. You were so nice to me when I was mad about the posters and you were hurting because your rabbit wasn’t feeling well :(. I hope your rabbit recovers soon and you get some medicine to help him. Poor guy.
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This is the thing that scares me the most about being a bunny parent. I hope Theodore pulls through 😔

I’m trying not to post in here with my problems as much, but since I’m already here I’d like to say that I don’t feel good.

Aw :( I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope you find a way to cope. If you want to chat—about stuff that makes you happy to help get your mind off the problem or about the problem I’d be happy to listen. I feel bad for complaining yesterday :( sorry everyone. It really helped but I feel kinda like I was being rude to everyone :(
 
I cannot for the life of me keep things brief and I'm once again at a point where I'm ready to explode because of it. It absolutely aggravates me. Why am I out here always writing novels when all that's asked of me are a few words to get the point across? One of my bigger flaws honestly. I wonder how much it annoys people to have to read through my **** at times

We can also link this to my next fundamental flaw, which is my inability to have a basic conversation. Set phrases and idioms don't come to me naturally and this turns what could be a 5 minute convo with a forum member into a 30 minute endeavour. And I still come out sounding robotic anyway, IRL too as well as regardless of language, so why am I even bothering. I know it's because I'm autistic, and I know I can theoretically practice this like practicing any language, but it pains me to say I've somehow gotten worse at it over the years... I really thought I had this small talk **** down back in HS.
 
I keep clicking videos of news on YouTube of terrible things and they upset me and make me depressed and angry and hate humanity because of how bad they are but I keep clicking on them cause they catch my attention in the recommended and ahhh I just want to NOT think about terrible things
I also keep seeing nsfw content on Instagram and that's not helping my mental state either
 
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