What's Bothering You?

[Dawnpiplup]

I can't focus on doing schoolwork.

 

[Dunquixote]

Just before dinner, my dad was about to tell me about our neighbor's dog dying (even though by now he should know it upsets me hearing about any animal getting sick or dying) and was about to say, "you no longer have to worry about..." since I was always worried about the dog since he kept going in our yard to poop and it drove me crazy and whenever I got upset my dad would go ballistic and yell, "what does it matter to you? it's not like you clean it up!" My mom stopped him but it still bothered me. Like, what is that supposed to mean? I know he was implying that I'd be happy that the dog is gone. No....

Additionally he grabbed my mom's meal he ordered and put a bunch of soy sauce on it (we ordered takeout food) and when my mom told him that was hers and when she said she didn't want it now that he put sauce on part of her meal, he throws his hands in the air and huffs. IF my mom and I were to do that with him, he'd go into a shouting match and ask us what the f is our problem. When I tried to bring this up with my mom she is like it doesn't matter and don't bring it up. For the thirty some years I've been in the house, that has always been her answer. It really bothers me she just gives up like that; sure there is nothing you can do about his mental state. Still, it would've been nice if she stuck up for herself and for me when dad goes into one of his fits. He has had them since I was little and have gotten worse over time. This is why I don't feel comfortable around him.

 

[Midoriya]

I didn’t sleep well at all this past night and feel like crap. Really need this next week to go better for me.

 

[toxapex]

Tonight I was looking at a few of my old posts and DMs and around the internet and wow. I used to be so self-righteous and mean sometimes. 2014-2015 was a very formative period of my life wherein I definitely should not have had access to a keyboard. I was involved in so much drama and probably made some ppl feel so awful. And now I have no way to apologize to them. That's a very unfortunate feeling. And I can't feel right just playing it off like "haha I was such a cringey edgy kid!" because idk how much my words hurt or stuck with people.

I legitimately feel sorry that anyone had to interact with me during that period of my life.

There's not much I can do now but strive to do right by other ppl and just be a good person in general. It still sucks to be reminded of what a jerk I used to be. Thankfully the worst of it was fairly brief.

I could go into a longer rant about how for years I feel like I've tried to be a good person yet continuously make mistakes and fail to help others, or I feel like every time I feel I need to do something for myself I negatively impact the ppl I care about in a major way... But I don't feel like unpacking all of that here.


Anyway, uhh don't be mean to people. It's cool to be nice.

 

[Dim]

vv

 

[Dawnpiplup]

Spoiler:

I can't trust myself with pills, and I can't trust my family with them either. Been contemplating this for awhile. ****ing hell.

 

[SmoochsPLH]

i made apple cake (its soooo good) but my intestines dont agree with it :c

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

I'm ****ing trash

I read that as Irish.

 

[Dim]

I read that as Irish.

.....

 

[Katzenjammer]

.....

I'm so sorry you're not ok I wish I could do something to help...I hope you feel better.

 

[Jessi]

having no motivation. Makes me feels lazy, but I have no energy for anything. Which is terrible for an adult

 

[Dunquixote]

having no motivation. Makes me feels lazy, but I have no energy for anything. Which is terrible for an adult

I am experiencing this. My motivation had been going downhill since high school. I went to counseling, tried different medicine, but nothing seems to help and it continues to get worse. i know it is part of having anxiety and depression. It doesn’t help that I am scared of being on my own one day and everything. I sometimes ask my mom if she thinks i can get out of my situation and she says only if I have the will and push myself; that’s the problem though. I want to but I am lacking resolve & will. :/ I am an adult too and am quite embarrassed of myself and my situation.

I hope you overcome your problem or issues that you’re dealing with. I know it isn’t easy :/

 

[frogslime]

I just don't feel like myself. Things that I love barely interest me anymore, and I feel void of a personality.

 

[MapleSilver]

I don’t understand how people can say that I’m smart. I really think I’m stupid a lot of the time. I also think I make a complete fool of myself a lot. I really need to fact check things more and just... approach things differently. I also didn’t get any sleep so there goes my stability in emotions as well.

I just don’t really think I have what it takes to be successful...

Sorry I'm going to have to go after you for copyright because that was clearly stolen from my mind.

In all seriousness I relate to that so much.

 

[Alienfish]

Spoiler:

I can't trust myself with pills, and I can't trust my family with them either. Been contemplating this for awhile. ****ing hell.

what happened .o.

also ugh i hope they remove those restrictions on the 19th for real, i definitely prefer seeing people in person even if it's outside man. also this "keep open but don't go there" approach is just ****ed.

 

[Jessi]

I feel like I was actually smart and creatively talented when I was younger, but my self doubt, anxiety, and depression completely ruined it. I felt like I was terrible, and I should just stop while I was ahead. I was sooo deep into my depression that I ended up dropping out of high school. I couldn't even get out of bed without crying. I felt like I failed my mom, because I didn't do anything with what I had. Now I feel like I wasted what could've been

 

[skarmoury]

Spoiler: t

lmao they way they ask questions is so ****ty.
If you wanted to be more integrative then you wouldn't just be blatantly copy pasting from the textbook. Imagine it's just 2 pages and I'm known for highlighting so many things and even then they find a way to ask something I didn't highlight. What the ****. Was this portion even taught?

Now i dont even know the relevant things to memorize. if you're just going to ask the most minute of details that it's borderline semantics at this point, i don't know what to say. man.

these topics in general just leave a baaaad taste in my mouth. way to ruin me appreciating the topic.

 

[ali.di.magix]

I haven't had a good nights sleep in almost a week now. Please I just want one night where I can at least sleep solidly for 6 hours rather than waking up every 2 hours

 

[_Rainy_]

Probably a ridiculous thing to complain about but I’ve been playing for hours and AC won’t give me mushroom diys I’m going to be tired in the morning with nothing to show for it. Except a drawing of Punchy dressed as a Pirate and I regret giving him a sword because punchy should not be handling sharp objects imo.

 

[Alienfish]

Probably a ridiculous thing to complain about but I’ve been playing for hours and AC won’t give me mushroom diys

This, I've a few but man it's so slow. Though acorn/pine cone ones is worse, the drop rate for them as material is even worse than some MMORPG drop chances...like okay why even add in the recipes for such tedious things.