not talking to my friend the night she killed herself :/ i had the chance to do so but i didn't because i thought she'd be fine and wake up the next day but she didn't and that's what honestly tears me up the most, i couldve done something but i didnt and maybe if i did talk to her that'd bring her enough semblance and realization that life isn't meaningless. that's probably the biggest regret in my life right now and her death impacted my whole life because of the guilt and how messed up it was. i've accepted and am over her passing now, but the effects of what happened back then still linger somewhat. miss u lani. if only you got to see how big BTS is today and how proud u must be of them