Thank you so much for your kind words! I made this thread basically as a motivational place for myself and it has evolved into so much support despite me seemingly never ending my struggle!Sorry to hear about your struggle with OCD, my heart goes out to you and I wish you luck with it and with your happiness and health! Let us know as a community if there is anything small we can do within this game to help make animal crossing at least a little happy place.
It sounds, at the moment, like the constant resetting is preventing the game from even having a chance at being a little happy place. In terms of accepting your island my advice would be to give it a bit of a go. As Fey said above, try as much as is possible (and I realise it may not be possible) to focus on everything else about your island apart from the fruits. Which villagers might you enjoy having? What kind of decorations might you put in your house? How might you use the custom paths to make something fun somewhere on your island? etc etc. The perfect fruit might happen and you can cross that bridge if it does, but equally it might not! Or it might return in a format where through trading you can have perfect fruits that are non-native to your island. We don't know yet. My advice, therefore, would be to give this island a go (maybe after a little break if you feel it could be of any benefit whatsoever) and see how you find it. As you said, it does sound like you're on the verge of just giving up with the game as your recent experiences have not been enjoyable or relaxing. Hopefully you can get some (or hopefully lots) of enjoyment from this island, which looks great and has lots of strengths/positives.
Good luck and keep us posted
I definitely will give the island a chance. On whatever island I will keep, I will gather all the cherry blossom recipes anyway, so I will spend quite a bit of time on the first few days and we will see if this leads me to feeling more at home on this island or if the feeling of it not being perfect will linger just as badly. Custom fruits will end my playtime on this island and NH for good if I keep this island and only native fruits will be perfect and that sucks because I don't like some maybe-dealbreaker like that dangled above my head as it would constantly remind me of the cherry-issue. I'm not a fan of such uncertainties and while it indeed might never happen, it makes keeping this island feel "not safe" and I feel anxious about it. That's not a good thing to feel and it might honestly be the biggest issue this is causing me. But you're right and I think it's right now likely between playing this island or giving up on AC at least for the very forseeable future, if not for good. I have close to 300 hours clocked into NH now and at least half of that is island testing and resetting, so while I got quite a lot of gametime out of the game and it was well worth its money, it's obviously not exactly the perfect fun-to-"work" ratio.
But thank you so much again! <3 Honestly, the chance of me resetting the island are very likely bigger than me keeping it, but I'll do my best.