I think I'm an introvert? I get a little confused sometimes between whether or not I'm genuinely introverted or that's just my anxiety at play. Whenever I do end up going out with friends (which isn't super often
) I usually come away from the outing with a bit of a high energy buzz, lol. I'm very much like, "oh my gosh!! I just went out and we did X, Y, and Z," and recount the night to my cats or whatever, lol. I'll be a bit bouncy and just be like
I have to do something. And then I end up settling not too long after.
But I don't really actively yearn to go out. I haven't seen my friends in person for over a year now and honestly even before the pandemic we didn't see each other tons. I have a really hard time balancing work and a social life because I would always come home from work feeling so drained. I obviously miss my friends when I don't see them, though! We talk tons through text, calls, videos, etc. but I've not had a weighing-down sort of feeling about not being able to go out and see people. I've always been pretty content at home. My hobbies are all things I can do easily at home and being here makes me feel comfy and relaxed whereas when I'm out in the moment I'm definitely more on edge and tense but again, that's my anxiety. So when I come home I'm tired but I think that's more of my anxiety just draining me, lol.