Very much so.
Ever since I graduated high school in 2016, I've just felt kinda...stuck, if you know what I mean. I almost went to college, but my parents and I all came to realize that it is not for me. There is too much to do in little time. I feel like I would (and have) struggled with deadlines. I have half-assed homework assignments back in school because I just wanted to get that bull**** done and over with. I am against mandatory homework anyway, but that is a topic for another thread. It is probably also one of the reasons my dad is aware about me not being able to hold down a job, as you have to do things at a certain pace, which I have my own pace of doing things. If I am going to eventually have a job, it would have to:
- Have a flexible/changeable schedule
- Me being self-employed and being able to work at my own pace
- Something I enjoy and am good at
My dad is currently in the process of getting my guardianship stuff done (and bank account which may have to require guardianship), since he will be my legal guardian for the foreseeable future, but this lawyer that he saw back in March does not want to cooperate. -.-
School was by no means perfect -- I hated waking up early, dealing with ignorant teachers (though I had a lot of good ones too), and worrying if I had homework, but at the end of the day, I miss going to school deeply. I miss having structure in my life, I miss the fun classes, I miss the pep rallies, and I miss going and seeing friends in-person.
There is also a huge possibility that I have ADHD, which ADHDers tend to get very bored very easily. This past Friday, I tried telling my dad that I possibly have ADHD (NOT because of this, but because I do struggle with paying attention along with having a multitude of other ADHD symptoms, though I only mentioned my inattention), but he doesn't think I do. Then again, the situation was him just teasing the hell out of me about my "small brain", so I may have to try again when we are in a more serious situation, but I digress.
I have been feeling this way for years now...God, it feels good to finally get all of this off my chest. >_<
That isn't to say that there are no times where I do enjoy myself - there are still a lot of moments of me enjoying myself with my moodboard-making, video games, and writing, but I do feel bored quite frequently and regularly.
I cannot wait to have a bank account, I really want to work towards being an author and publish some books <333
though i've been self employed for a year and i'm not the best at creating a schedule for myself so i definitely could be doing more LOL. but even in the grand scheme of things - we just wake up, do x y & z, and rinse and repeat? 
