I’m Catholic and I do believe there is something after death. But I’m still scared to die, I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna leave my family and TBT! D:
However, as morbid as it is I find the topic of death quite interesting. Like what does death feel like and what other people believe about what happens after death. Not to doubt my religious beliefs but if the after life is just darkness and I cease to exist I’d be upset because that’ll be pretty boring.
I'm more fearful of how much pain I'll be in/how I go and how it will effect those left behind rather than the fear of death itself.
In terms of pain, most ways to go seem pretty painful...Well, I guess anything but dying of old age is unnatural, thus it's probably going to be painful. If I'm going to be in pain, then I at least want to go out in a blaze of glory like I'm in an action movie or something, yano, make it cool.
As for other people: I wouldn't want to leave my best friend behind as it would land him with all my half of the bills and he couldn't afford it alone. Everybody else like my family, friends and girlfriend I just don't want to be upset over me, but luckily there's no real burden on them like with my roommate. In terms of funeral costs, they can just throw me in a ditch or something, I don't care.
Death itself though, meh. It's just rotting in a hole in the ground, it's not like I'll be aware of anything. The only thing close to fear is what happens to my concious, even then, I imagine it's kinda "flipping an off switch" or going to sleep, it just turns off and I cease to be.
