♥♥♥ Finnian's Auction Recruit! Updates coming.

Finnian said:
omg you guys are all so skinny and im sitting here at 250lbs and 5'6".
like???
okay okay this is really fat so i feel like i should explain.
i have a pituitary tumor. it really messes up my hormones and i gain weight at the drop of a hat.
when i was 16, I was like 130lbs, then 6 months later I was somehow 200lbs and i literally exercised and ate almost nothing to try to stop the weight gain.
From there I just kinda gave up.
I'm starting my diet today though because I literally cry every day because im so fat. Im not kidding. I'm like weird obsessed with my weight. I'm gonna see if I can't at least take myself down to like 180 so i can at least not idk liek wanna die and hide??
My self-esteem is so bad that I literally avoid going out in public so people can't see how freaking fat I am.
Like, I couldn't get to the post office yesterday to ship things.
It's literally the reason my shipments take for freaking ever.
And yes I know it's extremely unhealthy to feel this way. I've had an ongoing battle with anorexia and bulimia since I was like 12.

See, I'm so nervous about it that I just rambled for liek 10 freaking minutes.
Sorry guys TMI lol.
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It's just really hard for some people D: don't feel so bad!!
Thb, I had the same problem, but it was with my butt and legs, I always thought they were so big it made me look really weird.. cuz most short ppl have awkward chubby legs ; ^; so i was really self conscious about that. And also my face, especially without makeup or when wearing my glasses. All my friends and family would call me pretty and beautiful and all that crap, but then every guy I liked would reject me or all the popular girls and **** would make fun of me and say I'm ugly or a freak (even lil kids did. They'd call me "blue-haired freak" and scream and run away and at first I thought it was funny, but then once I was a lone and started thinking about it it made me really sad)
I've grown up being dissed and made fun of, so I have really low self esteem too. i used to be really depressed, and while I still get that way sometimes now, it used to get so bad I started cutting myself or I'd cry for no reason for hours, or my inner me would literally really down myself to where I'd just tell myself to kill myself or that no one would care if I was gone.
It sucks how you find yourself to be your worst enemy. You get it from combining what others have done to you, let it get to you and then you worsen it and make it seem like everyone will judge you.


I know I should be taking my own advice, but honestly, as long as your friends and Kimb love you and being around you, you shouldn't worry too much about everyone else. The only ppl you need to impress or feel good around is them. Everyone else.. just impress them through your art!!
Which seriously, isn't hard to do, cuz you're amazing ;P


But seriously. Keep at your goals, and don't let the bad things take over how yo feel. Everyone has their insecurities that we need to work on, so we need to be there for them as well. ^^
 
lays here bc wth is happening.....
are we having this auction haha
 
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omfg i finally got home and i have a project due and i have a test today anD I'M SO SORRY I DISAPPEARED

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also: Finnian i'm 5'1" and 200lbs and i've always been fat; I used to hate myself a lot for it (and it still makes me a little uncomfortable) but you just need to remember that you're so much more than a number <3 I've lost tons of weight before, and all it did was make me even more self conscious, exhausted, I was getting stomach ulcers and it just wasn't pretty. I guess i "looked better" but I was so much more miserable than I was before.
Some of us are just meant to be bigger and that's ok. I have stretch marks and cellulite and rolls and everything; I am also smart and talented and funny and have tons of people who love me.

protip: act like you're the best thing ever and then EVENTUALLYYYYYY it'll stop being funny and you'll actually believe it. Or, at least kind of believe it.

 
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Yes we are.
Just need piimisu's info and fup need to update psot.
forget about headers.
i think the psots are find without them.
;v;

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KainAronoele said:
It's just really hard for some people D: don't feel so bad!!
Thb, I had the same problem, but it was with my butt and legs, I always thought they were so big it made me look really weird.. cuz most short ppl have awkward chubby legs ; ^; so i was really self conscious about that. And also my face, especially without makeup or when wearing my glasses. All my friends and family would call me pretty and beautiful and all that crap, but then every guy I liked would reject me or all the popular girls and **** would make fun of me and say I'm ugly or a freak (even lil kids did. They'd call me "blue-haired freak" and scream and run away and at first I thought it was funny, but then once I was a lone and started thinking about it it made me really sad)
I've grown up being dissed and made fun of, so I have really low self esteem too. i used to be really depressed, and while I still get that way sometimes now, it used to get so bad I started cutting myself or I'd cry for no reason for hours, or my inner me would literally really down myself to where I'd just tell myself to kill myself or that no one would care if I was gone.
It sucks how you find yourself to be your worst enemy. You get it from combining what others have done to you, let it get to you and then you worsen it and make it seem like everyone will judge you.


I know I should be taking my own advice, but honestly, as long as your friends and Kimb love you and being around you, you shouldn't worry too much about everyone else. The only ppl you need to impress or feel good around is them. Everyone else.. just impress them through your art!!
Which seriously, isn't hard to do, cuz you're amazing ;P


But seriously. Keep at your goals, and don't let the bad things take over how yo feel. Everyone has their insecurities that we need to work on, so we need to be there for them as well. ^^
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u r seriously so beautiful kain dont even

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fup10k said:
omfg i finally got home and i have a project due and i have a test today anD I'M SO SORRY I DISAPPEARED

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also: Finnian i'm 5'1" and 200lbs and i've always been fat; I used to hate myself a lot for it (and it still makes me a little uncomfortable) but you just need to remember that you're so much more than a number <3 I've lost tons of weight before, and all it did was make me even more self conscious, exhausted, I was getting stomach ulcers and it just wasn't pretty. I guess i "looked better" but I was so much more miserable than I was before.
Some of us are just meant to be bigger and that's ok. I have stretch marks and cellulite and rolls and everything; I am also smart and talented and funny and have tons of people who love me.

protip: act like you're the best thing ever and then EVENTUALLYYYYYY it'll stop being funny and you'll actually believe it. Or, at least kind of believe it.

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;A; you're so sweet bb.
and im sorry you've had to go through all of that.
 
um... Can I still apply? :eek:

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I mean, would you and Kimber still accept one more?? SRRY im so late to the party ;;
 
graciegrace said:
um... Can I still apply? :eek:

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I mean, would you and Kimber still accept one more?? SRRY im so late to the party ;;
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If you pop over to the first page you can see that the contest ended like 1000000+ years ago but we're just taking forever to get set up, lol!
 
UtopiaJ said:
If you pop over to the first page you can see that the contest ended like 1000000+ years ago but we're just taking forever to get set up, lol!
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Oh okay ! Thank you tho. Hope you guys set up soon, can't wait to see this c:
 
awesome! Thank you!
So, I'll do Kimbers post tonight, and we should be good to go in the morning.

also, remember, NO HEADERS!
i dont have time to do them!
 
Hey. Hey. You need to listen to this song.... it's my new obsession; it's the best ever.


 
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pengutango said:
Rhett and Link are awesome. :) Love Good Mythical Morning.
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I've really gotten into watching their videos again :3
Watched their 5 Strange Facts about Belly Buttons vid and stumbled into that song.
Listening to it for 3 days straight and I'm still in love with it xD
 
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