if i had answered this earlier today, i probably would’ve said that it’s never been my favourite ‘holiday’ and left it at that, but my dislike for it has really grown throughout the day lol. i’ve spent the entire day questioning everything anyone has said or done because some jokes/pranks are not always obvious to me and i hate it. i spend every day questioning people because of my anxiety and paranoia, and days like today just make it worse. i’m so scared of falling for something or not getting a joke and looking moronic, doubting something or someone that is actually serious, etc that i pretty much avoid everyone every year on this day.
this is personal, but today also marks 5 months since my cat passed away. the first of every month upsets me now, and april is no exception.
the only part of april fools day that doesn’t bother me are the pranks that tbt staff pull every year. to me, they’re obviously jokes and quite entertaining, and i like them. everything else leaves me feeling suspicious and uncomfortable.
i’m not trying to upset anyone who participates in and/or enjoys april fools day, nor am i saying that people are wrong for doing so… i just personally don’t like today lol.
this is personal, but today also marks 5 months since my cat passed away. the first of every month upsets me now, and april is no exception.
the only part of april fools day that doesn’t bother me are the pranks that tbt staff pull every year. to me, they’re obviously jokes and quite entertaining, and i like them. everything else leaves me feeling suspicious and uncomfortable.
i’m not trying to upset anyone who participates in and/or enjoys april fools day, nor am i saying that people are wrong for doing so… i just personally don’t like today lol.