I don't think those threads are bad per se but if it they try to replace a serious needed conversation with a professional with a thread on BTF then I really do. Also, I think it's mainly the way the society is built up these days, socially totally different then it was in the past, which makes people get these psychological problems with the needed behaviour besides it. But yeah, the government isn't going to pay attention to that. No, things that don't have anything to do with humans (and that's honestly why we even have a government) will mainly get all the attention. At least that's how it's in my country. A good euthanasia law? A good family care system? we probably need to wait until the society goes totally bad before something like that will be on the agenda to discuss.
Mental Illness
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I don't think those threads are bad per se but if it they try to replace a serious needed conversation with a professional with a thread on BTF then I really do. Also, I think it's mainly the way the society is built up these days, socially totally different then it was in the past, which makes people get these psychological problems with the needed behaviour besides it. But yeah, the government isn't going to pay attention to that. No, things that don't have anything to do with humans (and that's honestly why we even have a government) will mainly get all the attention. At least that's how it's in my country. A good euthanasia law? A good family care system? we probably need to wait until the society goes totally bad before something like that will be on the agenda to discuss.
I haven't been officially diagnosed but after about 5 years of symptoms I think I may have some variation of depression/bipolar maybe :/ But it's really hard to tell as I'm a fairly emotional person anyway so...Things are getting better now though 
It's just sustaining the positivity that is hard sometimes.
It's just sustaining the positivity that is hard sometimes.
I feel for you. I've been severely depressed since the age of 10. Just wish I'd gotten help sooner and didn't have to throw away so many years of my life on this disease. Nowadays I'm better and manage to cope with it. Although, some days are not so good. I'm lucky to have my girlfriend on such days. <3
im not diagnosed with anything but i was depressed for a few years starting when i was 10 and now im 14 and it stopped when i was 12 or so. i planned to kill myself when i was 11 by jumping off a Bridge into a river inmy town but my sisiter found out and my mom talked to me about it. i took some medicine, and talked to a counselor and i was fine. i am so different now i would never think of doing anything like that again. so yeah, just had to put that out there.
Nuclear Bingo
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I was diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 9. Then I was diagnosed with "moderate to severe" OCD when I was 15. I take 120 mg of Cymbalta daily. I'm thankful for parents who have put up with damn near everything that comes along with OCD and Depression through the years and I'm lucky to have prescription medication.
Mahoushoujo
huh
thank you both! i know its just frusturating because theyve (my parents) seen me hurt myself with their eyes and they think just talking about it once will make it all better, when its obv not and like after a few days i go back to hurting myself lmao.. also for a while i was questioning if i have bpd too :// just because ive researched a bit abt it and i just have rlly similar symptoms to bpd ( if that makes sense idk if i worded it right)
There is unfortunately a strong history of mental illness in my family. I first experienced depression when I was about 6 and I lost my mom. It resurfaced at around 12 and became extremely severe when I was 17 (i.e. beginning to plan/collect supplies for suicide attempts). It kind of just got progressively worse over the course of university, but I managed to graduate. However during my final exams in my last year of university my sister died and I just hit a breaking point. So basically I've taken the last year off school (was supposed to start my second degree last fall) by taking a medical leave for depression. I think that my depression stems partly from genetics and partly from the stress of growing up in a household where there was a lot of hard drug use going on around me.
Anyways, Justice I relate to a lot of what you're saying. I also struggle with feeling like I don't have anything to live for and have slowly quit all the activities I used to be passionate about. I completely relate to the feeling of losing the things that used to fulfil me to depression which makes them feel like a chore.
My experience with medication, however, has been ok. For me getting to the right dose of medication helped me to be capable of experiencing happiness doing the activities that had become a chore. It has also almost completely taken away my random sobbing fits that I used to have to leave class for all the time and would keep me up all night. I'm certainly not a doctor, but if you feel like the medication isn't helping you definitely talk to your doctor. I convinced my reluctant psychiatrist to help me change meds/doses (although he seemed to think I was doing better) and I finally began to get somewhat workable results.
The best advice I can give you is that at only 15, there is so much of life that you haven't experienced. So many great things that you couldn't even imagine right now. My first remission of symptoms was when I was about 18 and it was a result of a few things happening in my life that I never thought would be possible. I try to tell myself this all the time. I'm still young (though quite a bit older than you) and it would be so naive of me to think that I've experienced all there is (although my depression seems to tell me all the time that there's nothing else worth doing). Lately I've been handling suicidal thoughts with essentially postponing them. Saying "ok I'm going to do another year of school first and then reevaluate". It's helpful because sometimes in the interim there is time for things to get better. I also find that things like volunteering really help me. Helping others can be a great way to help yourself.
Anyways sorry for the rambles, but as others have said I'm also always here if anyone needs someone to talk to.
Anyways, Justice I relate to a lot of what you're saying. I also struggle with feeling like I don't have anything to live for and have slowly quit all the activities I used to be passionate about. I completely relate to the feeling of losing the things that used to fulfil me to depression which makes them feel like a chore.
My experience with medication, however, has been ok. For me getting to the right dose of medication helped me to be capable of experiencing happiness doing the activities that had become a chore. It has also almost completely taken away my random sobbing fits that I used to have to leave class for all the time and would keep me up all night. I'm certainly not a doctor, but if you feel like the medication isn't helping you definitely talk to your doctor. I convinced my reluctant psychiatrist to help me change meds/doses (although he seemed to think I was doing better) and I finally began to get somewhat workable results.
The best advice I can give you is that at only 15, there is so much of life that you haven't experienced. So many great things that you couldn't even imagine right now. My first remission of symptoms was when I was about 18 and it was a result of a few things happening in my life that I never thought would be possible. I try to tell myself this all the time. I'm still young (though quite a bit older than you) and it would be so naive of me to think that I've experienced all there is (although my depression seems to tell me all the time that there's nothing else worth doing). Lately I've been handling suicidal thoughts with essentially postponing them. Saying "ok I'm going to do another year of school first and then reevaluate". It's helpful because sometimes in the interim there is time for things to get better. I also find that things like volunteering really help me. Helping others can be a great way to help yourself.
Anyways sorry for the rambles, but as others have said I'm also always here if anyone needs someone to talk to.
i've been diagnosed with major depression since i was 12. it was/is a really hard battle and eventually i just gave up, especially when my parents went through a terrible divorce in 9th grade (they ended up getting back together a few months later) and i tried committing suicide maybe half a year ago (i am now 17 going on 18). it landed me in a hospital and now i'm medicated up my a**, as my mother put it. during that hospital visit, i was also diagnosed with anxiety. great.
i think i may have bpd too, but i'm really afraid of what my parents will say/do if i get diagnosed or talk to my psychiatrist about it, so i'll put it on the back burner for a while. i'm like the teenage anti-christ to my parents: i'm gay, trans, disabled, and expensive to take care of.
i don't know if you're still reading these, justice, but if you are, we've talked a few times in the past and i'd love to PM/talk to you privately sometime. you have strong opinions and i think you're one of the coolest people on this site. you deserve to be happy and i'm sorry things are so hard for you.
i think i may have bpd too, but i'm really afraid of what my parents will say/do if i get diagnosed or talk to my psychiatrist about it, so i'll put it on the back burner for a while. i'm like the teenage anti-christ to my parents: i'm gay, trans, disabled, and expensive to take care of.
i don't know if you're still reading these, justice, but if you are, we've talked a few times in the past and i'd love to PM/talk to you privately sometime. you have strong opinions and i think you're one of the coolest people on this site. you deserve to be happy and i'm sorry things are so hard for you.
im sorry for what you're going through. ive been depressed since during fifth grade for reasons, but didn't actually become aware of it until seventh grade. long story short, i went from a ton of friends with the same interests as myself (anime, gaming, books, etc) but now im alone with no social like, no legit friends in real life or on the internet anymore, just alone every day watching anime in the summer. i dont mind anymore (sort of), i actually find it pretty relaxing to not worry about planning skype calls with people or having to reply to messages all the time. so far since the school year ended, i haven't had any major break downs unlike last year, so i guess im getting better..but im convinced that all im doing is ignoring the depression bc lately every night, i havent been able to sleep at all bc the depressing thoughts i use to have are coming back little by little. i solved that problem by just keeping my phone and earbuds with me every night to listen to music when i need to in order to shut it out, but thats just a temporary solution. i have a feeling it'll come crashing down on me once the school year starts, i'd have to worrying about my social anxiety, grades, etc. but..thats not for a month or two anyways. because of this all and other issues, i deal with severe depression, insomnia, social anxiety, and mood disorders. about you though--this probably sounds really cliche but i hope everything works out for you
My parents made me go to a psychiatrist when I was 15-ish. Been on antidepressants off and on for those 5 years since. I just take life one day at a time. Some days are easier than others.
Probably will stop taking antidepressants when my current refill is finished because I no longer have insurance.
Probably will stop taking antidepressants when my current refill is finished because I no longer have insurance.
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i was homeschooled up until i was 13 (im 14) bc i suffer from schizophrenia (its been treated and i hardly ever hallucinate now, and at this point its almost nonexistent) but because of it, i used to have these cases where id just flail and just bite myself where i could and my parents would have to hold me down and soothe me but it usually took quite a bit of time before i did. (this hasnt stopped, even though the biting has, theres been other forms of self harm) and i was unsafe to be around other children?? so anyway i think i might have a bit of an anxiety issue as well bc this last year was my first ever year in a public high schools and i met this wonderful girl and i liked her and my parents found out and they just isolated themselves from the "lesbian disgrace" in the family, they switched my entire schedule (and almost school) so that i would never interact with her. they stripped me from my phone, and took me out of dance classes and it just makes me break down in dry sobs almost daily. just recently in may was my 3rd attempt. i took a buuuuuuuunnnnch of tylenol and regretted it immediately and went and vomited most of it and still took a really long nap (18+ hours). i used to cope with ballet and drinking a lot of tea and crying but now i almost hardly ever have a physical tear come out?? even then that didnt help all that much and i still pulled stunts (pills and a hanging attempt) i just cant feel anything anymore sigh
i was homeschooled up until i was 13 (im 14) bc i suffer from schizophrenia (its been treated and i hardly ever hallucinate now, and at this point its almost nonexistent) but because of it, i used to have these cases where id just flail and just bite myself where i could and my parents would have to hold me down and soothe me but it usually took quite a bit of time before i did. (this hasnt stopped, even though the biting has, theres been other forms of self harm) and i was unsafe to be around other children?? so anyway i think i might have a bit of an anxiety issue as well bc this last year was my first ever year in a public high schools and i met this wonderful girl and i liked her and my parents found out and they just isolated themselves from the "lesbian disgrace" in the family, they switched my entire schedule (and almost school) so that i would never interact with her. they stripped me from my phone, and took me out of dance classes and it just makes me break down in dry sobs almost daily. just recently in may was my 3rd attempt. i took a buuuuuuuunnnnch of tylenol and regretted it immediately and went and vomited most of it and still took a really long nap (18+ hours). i used to cope with ballet and drinking a lot of tea and crying but now i almost hardly ever have a physical tear come out?? even then that didnt help all that much and i still pulled stunts (pills and a hanging attempt) i just cant feel anything anymore sigh
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I have Major Depressive Disorder, had two suicide attempts this year. I would self harm a lot and starve for days whenever I was depressed but I never actually tried suicide cuz I told myself things would get better. I had to do it the first time to get to the hospital because my parents didn't believe I was depressed even though I always came home from school crying and my world was really falling apart. Now I'm on antidepressants and have to repeat my year in school. My medicine helps me.. And thankfully so far there has been only one side effect: horrible trembling. And it's kind of a big deal for me because I loved to build houses of cards and now I can't even do the second level. Also I like drawing very much and I am a perfectionist when it comes to my artworks. Now I can't draw a perfect straight line without erasing and trying again 10 times.I used to be on fluoxetine 20 which did nothing but gave me pains and stress. It's stupid. The doctor says "these are anti-depressants. But in some young people they have suicidal thoughts". Seriously. Who the hell thought this was helpful? Now I'm on Zoloff 75 and I've been at least okay 30% of the time.
Guilt is a huge part of my depression and it doesn't help that I'm extremely intelligent and I can get good grades without studying because I don't deserve this high IQ when I don't value my life and make use of it to help people which ultimately makes me undeserving of my life. I have nightmares every night and take 2 hours to get out of bed due to the stress it gives me. I go to school and have panic attacks in class so I sit outside so as not to disturb my friends but it made my life feel so blank because I was just going to school and sitting outside class alone everyday. My mom never lets me skip school without MC..
One of my fears because of my depression is the mental ward stays. Every time you have a failed suicide attempt you have to go there and whenever I feel my life is falling apart I get so scared my parents will notice my misery and send me back to the hospital. I hate going there because it costs my parents money and my mom time. Also it has no privacy in there and I'm uncomfortable with the nurses. Some schizophrenia people are really really dangerous and scary and I feel like if I go into one of my panic modes they might restrain me so I only cry in the toilets where no one can hear me.. It's also hard to sleep at night with people screaming their heads off... So every time I feel down the thought of the hospital gets me so scared that I want to die even more so that I don't go there. The plus side of hospital stays are that the food is better than school and you can meet people with your same problem... Especially people my age. It's great to have someone who can understand you... But in a mental ward here it's 30% elderly who can't talk, 30% schizos who only talk to themselves or scream at you, 30% middle aged who are ok except some don't speak english, and 10% youths. Whenever I get in I always pray that there'd be one or two under-20 people to befriend.
My girlfriend dumped me after the first time I got admitted. She didn't visit me at all or answer my messages while I was in. She thinks she's the cause of my depression but really I just get more depressed when I don't have her..
Anyways I'm staying at home for the rest of the year. Hope next year I can adjust back to school well...
Guilt is a huge part of my depression and it doesn't help that I'm extremely intelligent and I can get good grades without studying because I don't deserve this high IQ when I don't value my life and make use of it to help people which ultimately makes me undeserving of my life. I have nightmares every night and take 2 hours to get out of bed due to the stress it gives me. I go to school and have panic attacks in class so I sit outside so as not to disturb my friends but it made my life feel so blank because I was just going to school and sitting outside class alone everyday. My mom never lets me skip school without MC..
One of my fears because of my depression is the mental ward stays. Every time you have a failed suicide attempt you have to go there and whenever I feel my life is falling apart I get so scared my parents will notice my misery and send me back to the hospital. I hate going there because it costs my parents money and my mom time. Also it has no privacy in there and I'm uncomfortable with the nurses. Some schizophrenia people are really really dangerous and scary and I feel like if I go into one of my panic modes they might restrain me so I only cry in the toilets where no one can hear me.. It's also hard to sleep at night with people screaming their heads off... So every time I feel down the thought of the hospital gets me so scared that I want to die even more so that I don't go there. The plus side of hospital stays are that the food is better than school and you can meet people with your same problem... Especially people my age. It's great to have someone who can understand you... But in a mental ward here it's 30% elderly who can't talk, 30% schizos who only talk to themselves or scream at you, 30% middle aged who are ok except some don't speak english, and 10% youths. Whenever I get in I always pray that there'd be one or two under-20 people to befriend.
My girlfriend dumped me after the first time I got admitted. She didn't visit me at all or answer my messages while I was in. She thinks she's the cause of my depression but really I just get more depressed when I don't have her..
Anyways I'm staying at home for the rest of the year. Hope next year I can adjust back to school well...
I'm sorry for all you I wish I could help ;-;, but at the end, life is life, and things happen for a reason, I guess
My life is full of problems, and I always think "positive" I laugh at my faults and I see my own problems with a sarcasting tone, no matter what. I hate crying or being in a bad mood. I know humans can't ignore our own emotions. We have limited time to live, and we can't spend our time being sad, because I swear that the reason that is making you sad today will be gone. Maybe in a week, maybe in a month, maybe in two years, but It will disappear, and you will have spent a precious time for nothing. Yeah, I know that I may seem somebody that is dumb and happy, but I'm not happy. I'm just living. (I swear it makes kinda sense)
Sorry if somebody gets offended for the words or something, I would like to write more and correct some things but It's really hard since English is not my best subject, haha.
Oh yeah, I forgot, I have ADHD and Tea
My life is full of problems, and I always think "positive" I laugh at my faults and I see my own problems with a sarcasting tone, no matter what. I hate crying or being in a bad mood. I know humans can't ignore our own emotions. We have limited time to live, and we can't spend our time being sad, because I swear that the reason that is making you sad today will be gone. Maybe in a week, maybe in a month, maybe in two years, but It will disappear, and you will have spent a precious time for nothing. Yeah, I know that I may seem somebody that is dumb and happy, but I'm not happy. I'm just living. (I swear it makes kinda sense)
Sorry if somebody gets offended for the words or something, I would like to write more and correct some things but It's really hard since English is not my best subject, haha.
Oh yeah, I forgot, I have ADHD and Tea
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my younger cousin is adhd and i can tell its like living hell because he irritates his mother and she treats him terribly
shannenenen
grilled cheese expert
I've been plagued by different mental illnesses and other behavioral problems since I was a kid. When I was in elementary school, I had extreme anger issues as well as being highly sensitive, and I was 7 during my first visit to my counselor. I've been seeing him on and off for the past 10 years.
When I was 13, he diagnosed me with moderate-to-severe depression (I'm 17 now); I was diagnosed with a general anxiety disorder about two years later. The depression is genetic but I have no idea where the anxiety came from, though I know that it often comes hand in hand with depression. I SHed for about two years and was suicidal for about 6 months- no attempts but plans were made. I've been in a state of recovery for about 10 months, and I'm 7 months clean of self harm.
I'll be honest: my life has been easier than others on here. The worst treatment I've experienced at the hand of others is verbal and emotional abuse, but I may have perceived it that way because of how sensitive I am. I may have been gaslighted, though. I don't know anymore. But my mom and my friends have always been really supportive and kind and I was diagnosed and got help before it got past the point of no return. My medication really helps. Some people say that their meds make them feel numb, and that's not what they're supposed to do- if you feel that way, you may need to look into another medication. My personal experience with medication is that it helps me to feel more stable and mellow and keeps me from making any rash decisions.
My number one piece of advice is that whatever it is you're feeling, it's valid. I've had people tell me that my experience isn't legitimate because it isn't as severe as theirs/others. But that's not true. My experience as well as yours is valid and legitimate and real. If you're feeling it, then you're feeling it and that's okay. And you can always look for help and find it in unexpected places.
When I was 13, he diagnosed me with moderate-to-severe depression (I'm 17 now); I was diagnosed with a general anxiety disorder about two years later. The depression is genetic but I have no idea where the anxiety came from, though I know that it often comes hand in hand with depression. I SHed for about two years and was suicidal for about 6 months- no attempts but plans were made. I've been in a state of recovery for about 10 months, and I'm 7 months clean of self harm.
I'll be honest: my life has been easier than others on here. The worst treatment I've experienced at the hand of others is verbal and emotional abuse, but I may have perceived it that way because of how sensitive I am. I may have been gaslighted, though. I don't know anymore. But my mom and my friends have always been really supportive and kind and I was diagnosed and got help before it got past the point of no return. My medication really helps. Some people say that their meds make them feel numb, and that's not what they're supposed to do- if you feel that way, you may need to look into another medication. My personal experience with medication is that it helps me to feel more stable and mellow and keeps me from making any rash decisions.
My number one piece of advice is that whatever it is you're feeling, it's valid. I've had people tell me that my experience isn't legitimate because it isn't as severe as theirs/others. But that's not true. My experience as well as yours is valid and legitimate and real. If you're feeling it, then you're feeling it and that's okay. And you can always look for help and find it in unexpected places.
Ghost Soda
(he him or they them)
diagnosed, i have add and ocd.
and undiagnosed i'm 99% sure i have some kind of anxiety disorder, either general anxiety disorder or panic disorder, since i have panic attacks often irregularly.
and undiagnosed i'm 99% sure i have some kind of anxiety disorder, either general anxiety disorder or panic disorder, since i have panic attacks often irregularly.
I was diagnosed with major depression like 5 yrs ago and since then have been diagnosed with chronic depression and I have to take antidepressants pretty much errrry day.
Depression and anxiety are extremely common to be honest but is still a taboo subject which p-sses me off to no end. Talking is the best thing we can do
Depression and anxiety are extremely common to be honest but is still a taboo subject which p-sses me off to no end. Talking is the best thing we can do
KaydeeKrunk
The Late Great Turt
The only "confirmed" mental illnesses I have are Depression, Borderline Personality, and ADHD. But due to my medical anxiety I can't have the other things I've got wrong with me to be "confirmed." I also have, like stated, medical anxiety, hypochondria, social anxiety, anxiety about SO MANY OTHER THINGS, I am pretty sure since I was 15 when I got diagnosed the H fell off my ADHD because I have calmed down a lot, but the ADD symptoms still persist. I have slight OCD towards certain things. Basically I have a bunch of everything, it's great! Hahaha..ha...ha..he..
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