i know i post here a helluva lot buuuuut it feels sorta nice just yelling out what you feel.
i want to just run and leave all my problems behind and i know i can't do that and that feels so unfair because i don't want to have to have a job or fill out tax return forms or whatever, i just want to live in a cottage in the forest where i won't be bothered only that won't happen because the world is too rational and you have to have plans and decisions and insurance, you can't just DO things. it just isn't fair how i have to stay in this dreary world when i could be living in a forest or something because of all this grown-up stuff is dragging us down. we can't just do what we want. all i want is a cottage with a garden and a beehive. not some fancy job, not a flatscreen tv. i'd throw away my whole life for that in a heartbeat