Wow your priorities... Okay yeah I get you need a job and socialize but honestly you are doing this the wrong way, don't go back there again I swear to god...
I've been so reflective lately about all the things you never did with us. Sometimes it makes me unreasonably angry, just thinking about it ruins my day even though nothing has happened recently for me to justify being that way. I can't help but think about it, and it's just... sad now. I don't think you regret anything though. How unfortunate.