What's Bothering You?

It has been a chaotic day with a lot going on. And it didn't start off on the best foot either - I forgot to pack my lunch and my jeans (I had the gym before work) so I've been wearing my workout trousers all day. Super unprofessional.

A £1400 (US$1800+) piece of equipment brokedown. I managed to repair it thankfully but it was out of commission at the time it was needed!

Cut multiple fingers opening new glassware this morning. And I didn't even do it on the glass - it was with the blade I used to open the packaging! Thankfully the first aider was free but my hands look awful covered in loads of plasters. 😅

I'm very much looking forward to the weekend. Two more hours and I can go home!
 
ive lost my appetite the past few days? weird. just the thought of eating something, especially something with fructose makes me feel sick in the throat. i wonder what's up. even remembering an acai bowl thing i had a week ago gives me this feeling t-t the memory is soo gross, but at the time it tasted fine.
 
for some reason i keep waking up in the middle of the night with my body feeling like i just had a nightmare, but i sincerely dont remember my dreams? it's interrupting my sleep and it's really strange. like i just wake up in a panic and go "that was odd" and then try to fall back asleep, but it takes a few hours. hrrrm.
 
To be honest, I'm just so fed up of a few people in real life. No matter what I do, it's never enough or right. I can't avoid these people due to circumstances, I've tried to tell them how I feel and they say 'You're overreacting' or they tell a whole completely different versions of events. It's never ever their fault, always mine even if I'm not even there.
 
I've had a slight headache and been in a bit of a daze all day. Hopefully it doesn't turn into a full blown migraine... But the slight headache and fuzzy headed dazed feeling is often like the first phase of a migraine for me. (Well, I guess the first phase is actually hyperactivity for me... Since that usually happens the day before the foggy head day, but I didn't even know hyperactivity was a migraine symptom until recently, and that phase doesn't really bother me.) Sometimes it does just pass without going into the one sided agonizing headache stage though, so fingers crossed
 
I feel like I shouldn't be complaining about my job, because there are people in the world who struggle to work for a multiple of reasons, but I can't stand it. I'm physically and mentally exhausted after every shift. I have to rush to eat/drink because my time is crunched, and it makes me feel nauseous. I'm still having headaches and it gets worse at work. I deal with so many rude, impatient, and overall difficult customers when I'm just trying to do my job. Earlier afternoon, I had to delay my break by 40 minutes because there was so much to do (cooking, cleaning, serving) and the customers are still being ungrateful. I'm working my ass off for a minimum-wage job, and I can't foresee myself doing this forever without dropping. My coworkers left a huge mess of dishes and cleaning for me and my other coworker to do during our closing shift, so that was just wonderful. I couldn't stop thinking to myself about how much I hate it here. My work isn't too difficult, but I hate dealing with the exhaustion and stress.
 
I really want to get back into practicing and playing piano pieces but it's been so difficult for me 😞 it's something I enjoy but it also feels like a chore. probably a remnant from college. I don't feel like I'm doing it for fun anymore. but I have all of these really cool sheet music books that I've borrowed from the library, and I'm so excited at the idea of looking at them and trying to play them. I want to enjoy it but I just can't, and I don't know what to do 😭💔
 
i screwed up on a test and now i have a low C in math, and i have a C+ in another class. i still have assignments that still need to be graded so hopefully my grade will go up because of that unless i screwed up on those too. sometimes i wonder if college was the right choice for me but then again i can’t really do anything without a degree. i know i should try harder but i am just so TIRED everyday, i wish i didn’t have to do all these core classes before doing anything with my major because that’s what’s the most tiresome.
 
I find it hard to be honest with others when I know their busy, and they have stuff going on. Like I get this person has a life, but I'm starting to get really tired of just getting on response a day, and nothing.

Sure when they do respond it's fine and we talk for one response. I haven't been honest about how one response a day is starting to drag me down. Esspecially when I see they've looked at my stuff and haven't said anything.

Am I being selfish and needy for thinking this way? I don't know anymore. They're busy, I get it. But I don't know. It's starting to hurt me more then it should.

They say honestly is the best medicine. But it feels more like a drug waiting to take effect.
 
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I walked into my living room this morning and my 10-week-old white kitten had blood on his chest.

He was a good boy and let me find the wound, check for swelling, and stayed still while I got him cleaned up.

The wound itself is very minor - it looks like an accident that occurred while play fighting with his brother. He appears absolutely fine, happy and purring and there is no change in either of the boys behaviour towards each other (in the 10hrs I've been observing them), so I'm just watching it for signs of infection. But god that was a scary sight to come downstairs to. Glad I had no plans today so I could stay home and keep an eye on them.
 
I've been congested as hell for the last few days, and I almost got frostbite on Halloween because it was so damn cold. I had a hat and gloves but they hardly did anything. I'm also very hoarse because I was performing in my school's haunted house and had to scream at people for six hours...

It's been a fun week :D
 
There’s been this growing sadness that’s been there for awhile. Trying to push it back and ignore it but it’s still there because you’re not here anymore. Halloween came and went but it wasn’t the same. In all the years we have been volunteering at the church’s festival you were always there.
We had a celebration of life for you today. So many people came to say goodbye. So many people you have helped. You were an amazing kind, generous person and we all miss you . I will always be forever thankful and grateful for your friendship. I appreciate you so much. I miss you 😢.
 
I'm fine now, but my morning was absolute ****. I was late for work again, because I thought my shift was at 10 and I fell back asleep. My dad got mad at me for something and I was stressed about how my manager would react to me being late, which caused me to burst into tears and have a panic attack while I was getting ready. I was tired, frustrated, and distressed. I didn't want to work, I wanted to sleep and relax (since today was supposed to be my day off, but guess who was asked to do an extra shift). I can't handle pressure and bad situations at all and I hate it.

While my dad was driving me to work, he told me to "stop crying and man up", which didn't sit right with me. I was rightfully upset.

Thankfully, my manager was understanding and wasn't mad that I was late. She had also talked to the coworker that was bothering me, and she was pretty nice to me in turn. Still, I could've had a better start to my day. I was tired and hungry (having to skip breakfast and coffee), meaning I wasn't at my best during the first part of my shift.

And to top it all off, my headaches were absolutely killing me today. It still is. I got a prescription that should help alleviate them, but I can't go to the pharmacy because of work, and my day off isn't till Tuesday. **** me, I guess.
 
I'm fine now, but my morning was absolute ****. I was late for work again, because I thought my shift was at 10 and I fell back asleep. My dad got mad at me for something and I was stressed about how my manager would react to me being late, which caused me to burst into tears and have a panic attack while I was getting ready. I was tired, frustrated, and distressed. I didn't want to work, I wanted to sleep and relax (since today was supposed to be my day off, but guess who was asked to do an extra shift). I can't handle pressure and bad situations at all and I hate it.

While my dad was driving me to work, he told me to "stop crying and man up", which didn't sit right with me. I was rightfully upset.

Thankfully, my manager was understanding and wasn't mad that I was late. She had also talked to the coworker that was bothering me, and she was pretty nice to me in turn. Still, I could've had a better start to my day. I was tired and hungry (having to skip breakfast and coffee), meaning I wasn't at my best during the first part of my shift.

And to top it all off, my headaches were absolutely killing me today. It still is. I got a prescription that should help alleviate them, but I can't go to the pharmacy because of work, and my day off isn't till Tuesday. **** me, I guess.
The phrase "man up" genuinely makes my blood boil a little bit, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.
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I've been a bit sick since yesterday, nothing major but definitely enough to annoy me.
 
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