What's Bothering You?

[Laconic]

I don't know how to write this at all, I have one of the biggest heartbreak feelings I've ever experienced. My lizard, after nearly a decade of companionship, passed away peacefully in her sleep. She had a freak accident with her reproductive organs a few days ago, underwent extensive surgery and was sent home, good to go. She was taking her medicine like a champ and just generally seemed better.
They did x-rays, blood and fecal work, and couldn't find any reason that lead to this. No tumors, no parasites, no calcium deficiencies. Vet said besides the obvious, she was in perfect health and all of her tests came back clear. While that would normally be good, in this case it meant it came down to old age and poor genetics. Something completely out of our control, and we had to rely on luck with the surgery.

Last night she suddenly got worse, and as I've worked in rehabbing animals for a long time, I know the signs when our time is coming to an end. She went into critical care, and as of this morning, has left me. I'm so f**king crushed; when we were in the ER initally, I was crying in the waiting room the entire time she was being seen. I'm not even religious and I was making the biggest plead deals of my life. I really thought she was on the path to recovery, and we're going to have to wait on autopsy reports to see what happened so suddenly, but god I can't stop crying. Not many people understand how much you can bond with reptiles, but she was my "dog" for a big portion of my life. I was with her constantly, and she could convince anyone to love reptiles. She trusted in me, and even when she had her freak accident, she was so calm and came right to me. With her medicine, the vets informed me it would be hard to administer it to a lizard, and that I'd have to get her "mad" so she forcefully opens her mouth. They didn't know her, when I gave her medicine, she would open her mouth for me no problem. She was a handfed since she was hatched.

I really, really wanted to be able to post in "What are you happy about today?" when her medicine was done. I'm so sad I will never get the chance. I didn't know where else to post this; in person people don't know how to comfort the lost of a reptile. They have that, "You can always buy another one" mentality. I wish I could have been better for her, that there were more options for her, and I'm so defeated and crushed. I loved her so, so much. She was in her "80s in human years", but man I would take those few extra years with her any day over this.

I'm sorry this is so long, I feel so broken over this and didn't know where else to vent.

 

[Alienfish]

@Laconic, I'm so sorry it happened, may she rest in peace...

Anyway my knee feels a bit wonky again hope it's nothing <.<

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

I might be losing my job.

 

[MelloDimensions]

I don't know how to write this at all, I have one of the biggest heartbreak feelings I've ever experienced. My lizard, after nearly a decade of companionship, passed away peacefully in her sleep. She had a freak accident with her reproductive organs a few days ago, underwent extensive surgery and was sent home, good to go. She was taking her medicine like a champ and just generally seemed better.
They did x-rays, blood and fecal work, and couldn't find any reason that lead to this. No tumors, no parasites, no calcium deficiencies. Vet said besides the obvious, she was in perfect health and all of her tests came back clear. While that would normally be good, in this case it meant it came down to old age and poor genetics. Something completely out of our control, and we had to rely on luck with the surgery.

Last night she suddenly got worse, and as I've worked in rehabbing animals for a long time, I know the signs when our time is coming to an end. She went into critical care, and as of this morning, has left me. I'm so f**king crushed; when we were in the ER initally, I was crying in the waiting room the entire time she was being seen. I'm not even religious and I was making the biggest plead deals of my life. I really thought she was on the path to recovery, and we're going to have to wait on autopsy reports to see what happened so suddenly, but god I can't stop crying. Not many people understand how much you can bond with reptiles, but she was my "dog" for a big portion of my life. I was with her constantly, and she could convince anyone to love reptiles. She trusted in me, and even when she had her freak accident, she was so calm and came right to me. With her medicine, the vets informed me it would be hard to administer it to a lizard, and that I'd have to get her "mad" so she forcefully opens her mouth. They didn't know her, when I gave her medicine, she would open her mouth for me no problem. She was a handfed since she was hatched.

I really, really wanted to be able to post in "What are you happy about today?" when her medicine was done. I'm so sad I will never get the chance. I didn't know where else to post this; in person people don't know how to comfort the lost of a reptile. They have that, "You can always buy another one" mentality. I wish I could have been better for her, that there were more options for her, and I'm so defeated and crushed. I loved her so, so much. She was in her "80s in human years", but man I would take those few extra years with her any day over this.

I'm sorry this is so long, I feel so broken over this and didn't know where else to vent.

Aw, I'm so sorry for your lizard friend.
There's no hotter sun than the one she'll experience while so close to it in heaven.

 

[maple22]

I got some Korean italy towels recently (a skincare product). Was beyond excited to try them, but I can't get them to work at all

 

[Alienfish]

My hair sucks when it comes to dying it, it's not even dark it just doesn't stick except in like some baby hair areas

Also not looking forward to study like all weekend : DDDD

 

[Blood Eclipse]

I don't know how to write this at all, I have one of the biggest heartbreak feelings I've ever experienced. My lizard, after nearly a decade of companionship, passed away peacefully in her sleep. She had a freak accident with her reproductive organs a few days ago, underwent extensive surgery and was sent home, good to go. She was taking her medicine like a champ and just generally seemed better.
They did x-rays, blood and fecal work, and couldn't find any reason that lead to this. No tumors, no parasites, no calcium deficiencies. Vet said besides the obvious, she was in perfect health and all of her tests came back clear. While that would normally be good, in this case it meant it came down to old age and poor genetics. Something completely out of our control, and we had to rely on luck with the surgery.

Last night she suddenly got worse, and as I've worked in rehabbing animals for a long time, I know the signs when our time is coming to an end. She went into critical care, and as of this morning, has left me. I'm so f**king crushed; when we were in the ER initally, I was crying in the waiting room the entire time she was being seen. I'm not even religious and I was making the biggest plead deals of my life. I really thought she was on the path to recovery, and we're going to have to wait on autopsy reports to see what happened so suddenly, but god I can't stop crying. Not many people understand how much you can bond with reptiles, but she was my "dog" for a big portion of my life. I was with her constantly, and she could convince anyone to love reptiles. She trusted in me, and even when she had her freak accident, she was so calm and came right to me. With her medicine, the vets informed me it would be hard to administer it to a lizard, and that I'd have to get her "mad" so she forcefully opens her mouth. They didn't know her, when I gave her medicine, she would open her mouth for me no problem. She was a handfed since she was hatched.

I really, really wanted to be able to post in "What are you happy about today?" when her medicine was done. I'm so sad I will never get the chance. I didn't know where else to post this; in person people don't know how to comfort the lost of a reptile. They have that, "You can always buy another one" mentality. I wish I could have been better for her, that there were more options for her, and I'm so defeated and crushed. I loved her so, so much. She was in her "80s in human years", but man I would take those few extra years with her any day over this.

I'm sorry this is so long, I feel so broken over this and didn't know where else to vent.

I've never owned a lizard, but I don't think I'd need to own one to know what losing a pet feels like. It's one of the worst feelings in the world.
To me it's the equivalent of losing a child or family member. You can't just tell someone to get a new son/daughter mother/father ect. to make everything better. It just doesn't work that way. Losing a pet isn't like losing a pair of shoes or your spiral notebook. I had a lot of people tell me that when I lost my first cat, even the vets.

For a while I didn't want to get emotionally attached to another cat/pet again only to have to see it suffer again, slowly dying and being powerless to cure it. Like you, I'm not religious, so praying is pointless to me. I don't have the power to alter reality, so all I can do is hope for the best, unfortunately hoping won't change a thing, but it's all I can do once sh**t hits the fan.

I'm sorry you had to go through the pain of losing a long time companion and I'm sorry you couldn't post in the "what are you happy about today?" thread. I'm not sure if any words can be of comfort when you suffer a lose, but if it helps, even a bit, I'm sure your lizard lived one of the most happiest and spoilt of lives before passing away. It's obvious you really loved her and she lived one of the best of lives.

 

[Alienfish]

BLoD quests in AQW, like okay that thing for enhancing the metal just... :^^^^^)

 

[Midoriya]

Sigh...nevermind

 

[ali.di.magix]

My teammates in my group project are freaking me out man. We should've got our crap sorted by now. I haven't seen any work from them except one person so I have no idea if they've got things done or not, and the deadline is approaching fast af. I've got work tomorrow, so I don't have time to pick up any slack. We've got a presentation to do as well, and I'm not very good at winging presentations.

Then after all that is done there's 2 other massive deadlines coming up and AAAAAAAAAA

 

[Chris]

My hair sucks when it comes to dying it, it's not even dark it just doesn't stick except in like some baby hair areas

Also not looking forward to study like all weekend : DDDD

What colour are you trying to dye it and what dye are you using?

 

[Midoriya]

Bored as heck, why am I still awake. And now I’ve been thinking about things recently and my life... I don’t like being left to my own thoughts for too long...

Also, kind of wish I still had my Black Clover/Halloween aesthetic, but to be fair I like this one a lot more.

 

[Alienfish]

What colour are you trying to dye it and what dye are you using?

Used a vegan more mute pink dye before but then it turned brown and did not stick at all, so used some stronger more chemical bright pink and it turned out like wine which honestly look really good now that I'm used to it.

Probably should have done a bleach but having it for half a day it looks cool. I didn't want that bright either so yeah I'm good.

 

[Chris]

Used a vegan more mute pink dye before but then it turned brown and did not stick at all, so used some stronger more chemical bright pink and it turned out like wine which honestly look really good now that I'm used to it.

Probably should have done a bleach but having it for half a day it looks cool. I didn't want that bright either so yeah I'm good.

Yeah you definitely need bleach to achieve a strong pink colour.

 

[Alienfish]

Yeah you definitely need bleach to achieve a strong pink colour.

Yeah, I don't need it as on the package because then I'll look like a pink traffic light but yeah, true. :3 Think my hair got some weird texture for dyes still though.

 

[Dim]

It's SO ridiculous how people these days can't respect other's opinion and agree to disagree. Like, it's not even funny

"This week, *this show* was better than *that show* in my opinion."
"omggggg no it wasn't are you kidding me? Unfollowed! Blocked! Done talking to you! I just can't! Ur a clown! hurrrrr!"

 

[Bcat]

It's SO ridiculous how people these days can't respect other's opinion and agree to disagree. Like, it's not even funny

"This week, *this show* was better than *that show* in my opinion."
"omggggg no it wasn't are you kidding me? Unfollowed! Blocked! Done talking to you! I just can't! Ur a clown! hurrrrr!"

ugh dude yes. I get so sick of this. It's bad if you go on reddit too and try to discuss a show or sth and say that it's anything other than the best thing since sliced bread. you can like something and still give it criticism and it's not life or death if someone doesn't like your favorite show.

 

[Hopeless Opus]

whatever.
so tired of you bringing up "wHaTs YoUr CaReEr" at dinner, and then getting mad at me BC IM EATING AND DONT WANT TO TALK

 

[MelloDimensions]

I'm back in this cesspool of favoritism

 

[Darby]

I got a friend and I’m too stupid to figure out what to do about it... I’m a bit of a recluse and have never done social media and it’s a miracle I found this place and can sort of use it but I think after being here for so long that I should figure out how to friend someone back, especially if they’ve bothered with me in the first place... Thank you for that if you ever see this and I remain clueless.