What's Bothering You?

I have seen so many people saying they're not going to pay their rates this year because "the sewer and stormwater drains have failed". Bruh, do you know that we've had around 400% more rain than usual over the past few months? No **** they're going to fail. The networks were designed to handle a 1 in 100 (possibly 1 in 50) year flood in the 1960s, the pipes are undersized and not designed to take the amounts of rain we've had. Not to mention the ground is saturated, the water tables are high af, which is going to cause flooding and overflows. Is it crap that overflows keep happening? Yes of course. I wish we could stop it. But does anyone have a few hundred million (or a couple billion) hanging around to fix the problem? I don't think so. And not paying your rates isn't going to help. And no, we aren't the only city in the country or the world that experiences this so I wish people would stop acting like it's only a local problem.

Tl;dr: I hate people lmao
 
idk why I thought it was a good idea to only get 6 hours of sleep and then go out in shorts to let the dog out for 5 min when it's 37° outside 🥶

lowkey want to go back to sleep but I know if I do I won't wake up til like 3pm rip
 
My stomach hurts like my friend said his was yesterday and my other friend whose stomach was hurting this morning. I hope there's not a bug going around or something. 😖

Poor Sofia. I didn't have a lot of time to give her attention earlier today. she'll be ok, but she still needs attention when I have the time 🥺
 
Feels like I need my bf all the time or I become a wreck again. Relying on one person is bad, I need more friends and I really dont know what to do without more time between practice and my health
 
I am going to see a doctor next week and I have this fear of them giving me medications that they think will work for me but then the last time when that happened I ended up in the ER last year. I rather not go into details because it still gives me PTSD.
 
just spent like 10 minutes looking for my earbud, luckily it wasn't dead yet and thankfully my hearing is great bc I had to turn on a video with a really loud high frequency and turn off everything else so I could hear it. turns out my dog was lying on it near the foot of my bed, which sucks bc his knee is still healing and I literally just had him jump up here just to make him get down again so I could find the earbud. I wouldn't have this issue if I had a decent pair of wired earbuds I could wear to bed.

also first meeting starts at 8:30 and to say I'm anxious and very stressed would be an understatement 😬 I've heard of this w others before but it sounds weird to say I'm honestly afraid to be treated, I don't remember who I was before all my health issues happened so I'm basically having to completely rebuild myself into a better and new person and idk, drastic change is scary.

not to mention I'm kinda confused bc they said my insurance would cover all costs and yet the chart is saying I'll have to pay a $40 copay for every video meet. I hope that's just an error, I'm sure it is but my anxiety gets bad anyways.
 
the wire on my braces became loose from the bracket and i have a dentist appointment for them to tighten it today. its been lose since the last time i went so nothing had changed, i didn’t want to tell my dad bc i had to get the same part fixed before and he has to work. so they’ll probably yell at me for breaking it again and not saying anything.
 
I'm dealing w serious overstimulation rn and the neighbor's dogs literally never shut up, it's making my anxiety really bad and I honestly feel like I could cry bc it's hurting me sm. I practically have to keep my headphones on nonstop and keep stuff playing through them so I don't hear it. I just want to sit in peace and silence 😞
 
i've been feeling very.. useless lately. maybe it's just the imposter syndrome talking but i don't feel smart enough for school or anything, really. i'm going to college next year and my grades have been super high so far for it but i don't feel like i deserve it somehow. my writing skills peaked in grade 8 and hasn't changed, my math skills peaked in grade 6 and hasn't changed, i keep losing focus, and i can barely remember things i learn in class everyday. it doesn't help that i'm socially inept and can barely keep conversation. i don't even feel like i'm able to take care of myself and i'm going to live on CAMPUS.. sometimes i hate being me.
 
So tired from work...I will be off after Friday for the weekend. But I just don't have any plans. Kind of miss the old group I used to hang out with.
 
im so so nervous for my research paper......... if I fail this I literally fail everything and I have to start over with another program
 
i've been feeling very.. useless lately. maybe it's just the imposter syndrome talking but i don't feel smart enough for school or anything, really. i'm going to college next year and my grades have been super high so far for it but i don't feel like i deserve it somehow. my writing skills peaked in grade 8 and hasn't changed, my math skills peaked in grade 6 and hasn't changed, i keep losing focus, and i can barely remember things i learn in class everyday. it doesn't help that i'm socially inept and can barely keep conversation. i don't even feel like i'm able to take care of myself and i'm going to live on CAMPUS.. sometimes i hate being me.
@moonbyu
Hi ❤️ I don't know how school works in your country, but in my region many people drop out of school both because the school doesn't work well and because they are born into very ignorant family contexts.
I know very well what imposter syndrome is, I also experience it constantly. Because of this syndrome, for years I have lived my life in total apathy because I considered myself good for nothing and being such I could not aspire to anything good.
I went through really bad times, I lost a lot of weight and I didn't want anything.
I missed so many opportunities, that now I'd catch right away!
I know my words will be useless in this situation, but... always remember that your school grade doesn't define who you are, you are not a grade. Studying shouldn't be a social obligation, but it should be a way to learn new things about the world, to feed our curiosity, to guide us in comparison with each other, to become free!
Because culture makes us free, aware, it makes us human.
And you know what? Very often in school they don't teach you this!
They give you a series of sterile notions to learn, and that's it! (Moreover, in many countries culture is manipulated by the Political power, so people do not grow up as human beings but puppets)

Teaching means planting a seed, it means nourishing not only with knowledge but also with the soul. We are not robots who have to learn the lesson for the next day or how to do the math problem, we are human beings who, in addition to learning these things, need to mature as individuals, we need to understand our identity and acquire the tools to face real life!
Because life out there is ruthless.
My country offers many scholastic paths, I chose the one in which humanities and scientific subjects are equally studied. I've had really bad teachers... except one: my teacher of Italian literature and Latin literature.
And then (since my teachers taught badly) I used to watch History and Philosophy lessons from a very good professor on YouTube.
Thanks to these two people, I've learned to look at the world with different eyes, I've learned to dig into the essence of the human being, and I've learned to understand myself, because that's exactly what the humanities subjects are for.

I understood that I can do it, that what I experience is experienced by millions of other people, that we are all in the same sea, and that if we force ourselves and stop to reflect and help each others, everything will be fine.
Be strong! You are not a grade! You are much more, find out who you are.
And if you discover that you don't like studying, look for an alternative, you're not a failure because you don't want to get a degree, you just have to understand what you want.
You don't need a degree to find a job and there are people without a degree who are much more cultured than those who do! Because they are simply people who learn for the pleasure of learning.
So even if you don't go to College, don't
stop learning, ever.
In human history we have had many people who have been successful despite not having very high grades in school, the first that comes to mind is Einstein 😁 Obviously we must not become Einstein, but we must have his curiosity! (besides being a scientist, he was also a philosopher, that's why he managed to keep his humanity despite the Nazis forcing him to unheard-of things)
I am not saying that we must all become philosophers, but that we must learn to know ourselves and to believe in ourselves. (I advise you to read Daniel Pennac's book "School Blues" and Salinger's "The catcher in the rye")
What I'm trying to tell you is to study only for yourself and don't worry about the grade, the important thing is that you believe in yourself! If you feel confident in what you have studied, it doesn't matter if the grade is lower than you expected.
You must be PROUD of what you do, you must know what you want, you must BELIEVE in yourself.
You have to believe in yourself, you have to believe it, you have to do it.

Stop letting that damn imposter syndrome win, it will only sink you, some get back up... and some don't!
I got up, today I attend university and work to pay for my studies.
And I decided to go ahead because I like studying, even if... I have low grades.
At first I thought I wasn't able to, then I learned to ask for help.
I've taken a few reps, my grades have improved but I don't take the highs, but I never wanted to!
I am satisfied with myself. I believe in me. I
try to improve myself every day, but without pretending to be "the best".
Life is stressful, family often doesn't help, society wants us perfect... but you don't have to care.
Even if it takes longer than others to figure out your way, what does it do?

There are people who don't even have a roof over their heads, so we have to go ahead for them too, in my opinion!
Take your time, don't rush, the solution is ALWAYS found, but you have to believe in yourself.
Yet... We don't always make it alone.
Sometimes being strong isn't enough.
Sometimes we HAVE to ask for help!
There's nothing wrong with doing that. I decided to take some reps, which helped me, but mental health is the FIRST thing.
I'll go to a psychologist as soon as I can, we ALL should go to a psychologist (obviously we have to choose one with whom we feel good).
Unfortunately the economic part is an obstacle for many of us, but you can also confide in friends, don't be afraid! Even if you don't have friends you can trust in real life (like me) there are tons of virtual people like us on this forum with whom you can let off steam.
Never withdraw into yourself, whatever happens, DON'T.
Start loving yourself, please, we are candles made to burn, we must burn this life and make it our own❤️

And take your time to discover yourself as I mentioned, I remember a famous quote that says:"How many roads must a man walk down before you call him a man?"

It doesn't matter how many times we fail, failing is fundamental, because if we don't fall... we won't be able to get back up stronger, right?


I'm in bed with a fever that doesn't want to go down, I feel terrible and I just wish I had the strength to do my things. I can't even sleep😭
Thanks to TBT for keeping me company ❤️
 
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I’ve been questioning my friendship with some people. It’s just easy I guess because they treat me like a friend when I do stuff for them but otherwise I don’t exist it seems. It started because it was a group I felt like I was part of when I didn’t think it was possible to be included in others. When you’re getting treated so nicely and it’s not something you are used to, it’s hard to let go of that.

I’ve had one of the girls talk me into buying food for us. It costed $40 but I personally wasn’t hungry and it feels like I paid $40 for myself to eat two chicken strips. Definitely not worth it and probably stupid on my part. I easily made that up at work, but still… I never get invited to do things with them outside of work. It’s literally just me doing things for them, getting them alcohol and vapes. They do pay for the alcohol/vapes though but I know that doesn’t make it right. I mean, they are the reason I even started vaping but I’ve since quit after not being into it, but I’m thinking maybe I should quit them (the friends) too?

I think I just want to hear it from someone else that I’m doing the right thing. My favorite person told me to be careful and to not get taken advantage of, but that ship has sailed. I just don’t want to get involved with the wrong people who are clearly only using me.
 
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The company I applied for still want me on board, and I'm still not sure what I want to do. I love the people at my job and don't want to jump ship and lose my chosen family 💔
 
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