So someone at my work is forming a group so we can all go to her house and watch a movie everyone wants to see. I'm truthfully not interested. My favorite person is going and she's good friends with the girl who's house it's at, and this guy that's won't separate himself from her for just a few seconds so I can say bye is also going. He has severe ADHD and he just will NOT stop talking to her, and he doesn't get much work done at all when they're on the same shift. At least I am mature enough to acknowledge that I cannot work alongside her, so yeah, we've been separated... but we do hang outside of work. They've all been friends for like three years and I definitely don't want to be the fourth wheel. There's also a few other people going like a guy and his girlfriend. I can't help but feel like I'll just be there and everyone else will be talking, having a great time. I don't even mind gatherings but this whole situation would MESS UP my BPD. Also, my favorite person found out I'm not going and I don't know if she's really affected by it. She hasn't mentioned it to me but she did hear from someone else that l wasn't going. I definitely don't want to go if it doesn't make a difference.
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That's a lot to factor in. Tough decision. I tend to be a bit antisocial and am very easily dissuaded from walking into situations like that. Hope it all works out.
I'm very set on my decision to not go, simply to save myself from the anxiety. I'm not really part of any group there and I'm not going by myself. I can still hang with her at another time. I just feel unwanted at this gathering since nobody has really brought it up to me and nobody asked me if I wanted to go. It was all just assumed I would be, probably because of my favorite person being there. I think I will pass, but thanks for the reply.That's a lot to factor in. Tough decision. I tend to be a bit antisocial and am very easily dissuaded from walking into situations like that. Hope it all works out.
Metal Scorpion
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I really wish my brain worked sometimes like everyone else's.
I've been feeling very lonely lately and I can't get myself to talk to people about it. I don't know what to even do. I've considered messaging people but then my anxiety hits. Why is this so hard?
I also wanted to post about this earlier but I kept erasing it and ended up feeling much worse.
I also wanted to post about this earlier but I kept erasing it and ended up feeling much worse.
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
If it makes you feel better I feel the same way too
Hunter_Gr33n
Senior Member
I'm a bit upset that I accidentally deleted a project I was working on a few days ago. To be fair, it was mediocre at best and there are better art programs out there than MS Paint in 2023, but I spent a long while working on it before that.
Does this sound a bit petty? Because I feel like it might be a bit petty.
Does this sound a bit petty? Because I feel like it might be a bit petty.
I don't think it's petty. It's a horrible feeling to lose your work, believe me, I've been there. (I once lost an animation due to a glitch or the like qmq)
Not petty at all! It's like losing your save progress in a game. It sucks and there's really no way to recover it (unless you have it backed up somewhere, like a flashdrive, lol).
Hunter_Gr33n
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I know. I just thought it seemed much more minor in comparison to things others are talking about here.
feeling really lonely lately, feeling like an outsider/isolated at work doesn’t help either. i’ve been there almost two months, and the constant racism i’ve recieved from coworkers & customers alike, is really starting to affect my mental health.
i’m pretty sure i’m not very well liked there either for some reason, as my coworkers are constantly having get togethers at my work and i’m never invited to any of them
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it’s taking a toll honestly in many areas of my life even though i’ve never thought of myself who needs work friends to thrive, i wish i could quit.
but i can’t afford to right now as it’s the only place that works with my uni schedule.
i’m pretty sure i’m not very well liked there either for some reason, as my coworkers are constantly having get togethers at my work and i’m never invited to any of them
. it’s taking a toll honestly in many areas of my life even though i’ve never thought of myself who needs work friends to thrive, i wish i could quit.
but i can’t afford to right now as it’s the only place that works with my uni schedule.
Do you mind me asking what fandom/s?As my Et//sy/ shop got terminated I lost my only source of income. I attempted to launch a Big Cartel with a few fandom things, but it's a niche fandom so obviously once everybody got their merch the store runs dry. It makes me very frustrated as BC doesn't have a catalogue you can browse like E//t//sy so unless you're big on social medias you're kinda forgotten. It's been weighting on my mind a lot and I'm afraid I'll have to look for a "real" job but with autism and strong social anxiety I don't know how I'm gonna do it.
Is it a bit too deep / sad for this forum ?
King koopa
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Art block, plus a headache on top of that 
I can’t handle having so many notifs and I need to pull it together but I also might have burned myself out on art and I need to get it together on that because it’s much more important to me. I’m simply not at the level I want. Luckily my bf is there for motivation, if I didn’t have him I genuinely might have just disappeared from the internet ages ago already
sometimes the quote “you‘ll be good, but you’ll never be the best” just hits and i can’t pick myself up thinking i’m the best version of me? It’s not enough on its own to make do in society and i think too far ahead like that ):
sometimes the quote “you‘ll be good, but you’ll never be the best” just hits and i can’t pick myself up thinking i’m the best version of me? It’s not enough on its own to make do in society and i think too far ahead like that ):
@Drawdler Here’s a quote that helps motivate me in my artistic journey: “If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is a grass in the beginning.” - Vincent Van Gogh
Also, you never know if you’re somebody’s best. I had a number one favorite artist for several years but I’ve actually only commented on their work once that I remember ^^; however I talked about them to friends, family, my therapist. I should really compliment them more, but I’m strangely shy about it ;w; I saw a post on tumblr that said something similar about how your biggest fan could just be out there.
Sorry if this is weird, I’m just really passionate about this topic and I wanted to share some things that help motivate me! Also I just woke up and I just realized this is another notif for you. Sorry about that ^^;
Also, you never know if you’re somebody’s best. I had a number one favorite artist for several years but I’ve actually only commented on their work once that I remember ^^; however I talked about them to friends, family, my therapist. I should really compliment them more, but I’m strangely shy about it ;w; I saw a post on tumblr that said something similar about how your biggest fan could just be out there.
Sorry if this is weird, I’m just really passionate about this topic and I wanted to share some things that help motivate me! Also I just woke up and I just realized this is another notif for you. Sorry about that ^^;
Spending time with my boyfriend didn’t end well. I thought I handled it ok and tried to encourage him. I’ve left a lot of my own issues on the side to try and support him, then I ended up hurt listening to him talk about work when it was clearly not the time, which hurt him (self-blame) and it got worse for us both. It absolutely gets to me seeing him hurt. Back to disassociating again.
I should be on antidepressants but the problem is that every time I tried, they would work for two weeks before I realised nothing at home was changing, then I felt worse than when I wasn’t even taking any. Serotonin is more of a motivation chemical than a feel-good one and that works great until the negative reinforcement at home hammers me down.
This is just so petty by comparison but yesterday I also spent time playing NL with my dad and he doesn’t realise I genuinely dislike his company and only did it begrudgingly. I mean he doesn’t listen to me saying I’m genuinely getting annoyed or anything. He doesn’t accept that I find him genuinely unpleasant company and can see right through his crap. The annoyance carried into today.
It just feels like no matter what work I put in or how I behave that extrinsically it barely ever matters at all. People on the internet notice more than people irl which is really sad. It’s hard to be enthusiastic about anything when some of the people I should be closest with don’t even acknowledge or they make a joke of or condescend whatever I’m saying. When I ask if I’m unclear they basically admit they just don’t care, say they’ll do better, and absolutely don’t. It’s lip service.
I’m really done. I was really excited about the event and I’ll still try but I have this mess on my hands and get to see my boyfriend really sad. I think some things leading up to this are my fault or my mistake but I was learning and thought I could get support from my bf tonight and now it feels like it didn’t even matter. Whenever I get like this I just don’t wanna be using my effort talking to people even if I don’t actually wanna be alone and wish I had company. I don’t wanna be but I just wanted to be with my boyfriend first and I’m empty rn
I should be on antidepressants but the problem is that every time I tried, they would work for two weeks before I realised nothing at home was changing, then I felt worse than when I wasn’t even taking any. Serotonin is more of a motivation chemical than a feel-good one and that works great until the negative reinforcement at home hammers me down.
This is just so petty by comparison but yesterday I also spent time playing NL with my dad and he doesn’t realise I genuinely dislike his company and only did it begrudgingly. I mean he doesn’t listen to me saying I’m genuinely getting annoyed or anything. He doesn’t accept that I find him genuinely unpleasant company and can see right through his crap. The annoyance carried into today.
It just feels like no matter what work I put in or how I behave that extrinsically it barely ever matters at all. People on the internet notice more than people irl which is really sad. It’s hard to be enthusiastic about anything when some of the people I should be closest with don’t even acknowledge or they make a joke of or condescend whatever I’m saying. When I ask if I’m unclear they basically admit they just don’t care, say they’ll do better, and absolutely don’t. It’s lip service.
I’m really done. I was really excited about the event and I’ll still try but I have this mess on my hands and get to see my boyfriend really sad. I think some things leading up to this are my fault or my mistake but I was learning and thought I could get support from my bf tonight and now it feels like it didn’t even matter. Whenever I get like this I just don’t wanna be using my effort talking to people even if I don’t actually wanna be alone and wish I had company. I don’t wanna be but I just wanted to be with my boyfriend first and I’m empty rn
xSuperMario64x
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don't feel bad about that, just because some of us are dealing with some pretty heavy stuff doesn't mean that your frustrations are any less valid
idk why but I'm struggling to get myself to participate in this event, which sucks so bad bc all the new collectibles are absolutely gorgeous
I'm sure I'll be able to do it, I just feel like I'm really forcing myself to, and it's kinda frustrating.
It finally happened. My 5th Joy Con overall developed a drift. Luckily I bought the new pastel version and luckily it's the right side (well, left) for me to switch the white one for the pastel pink one. But I don't like it. And I think it's my fault because I got some sort of particles inside of that.
