What's Bothering You?

[Violet Witch]

Not so much a bother but another realisation:

There's nothing sadder than watching someone you still care about (despite no longer speaking to them) repeat the same mistakes over and over and realise that they have no awareness of what they're doing nor can you help them. The path they're on will forever repeat itself until they make some big changes with their behaviour especially if they want their friendships and relationships to be longterm. Otherwise they're going to wake up one day and realise they have no one left in their life.

 

[Asteroid]

I'm scared to start the week. Idk what else to say.

 

[Kitsuragi]

one of my long-time best friends is ignoring me and i legitimately have no idea why or what i did wrong .-. last time i messaged them we were totally cool and talking about baldurs gate, and now she wont respond to any of my messages. but she's messaging my boyfriend.

i also commed her for $105 worth of art over a month ago so if she decides she wants to cut me off or stop being friends, or whatever, im doing a paypal chargeback bc. im sorry but wtf. literally just talk to me. what did i do wrong. if im being an *******, call it out. dont just snub me and run with my money.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: more rambles hsjfhsj

thinking about a lot of things, honestly. I really want to start working full-time so I can save as much money as possible. I'm getting kinda desperate to move out on my own, but I know that won't be able to happen for a while because I need to save up money first. I'm constantly worried about coming across as clingy or overbearing to my dear friends. I've already had some moments in the last few weeks where I could've seriously messed up some good relationships I have, I don't want to do that again. I just feel like there's a lot of changes happening in my life, and it's only gonna get worse and more intense over the next few months, and it stresses me out. my quirky and weird autistic mind doesn't know how to process so many strong emotions, it's been really difficult for me.

I'm exhausted but I'm also very impatient, I just want to hit the ground running and go. but I also know there are some things that need time and patience, it's very unreasonable for me to try to get into them so soon. and I know I'm being really vague, I don't want to make the details public. I'll just say I know that my life could be so much better, and I'm tired of waiting around for good things to come. I want to start working now for a better future for myself.

I think sometimes you gotta take the initiative to improve yourself, if you wait around you'll just keep being miserable and complacent. I hate settling for complacency. I know what I want and I'd like to start working towards that now.

I don't want to be here anymore, I don't want to be in cornfield Ohio anymore. I'm not happy with my life right now. I'm really not. being in Ontario for a week and a half made me realize just how miserable I actually am at home, I need to get out of here. I believe there are some really wonderful things in store for me, but I need to take action now to make that happen.


I wish things didn't have to be so complicated sometimes

 

[Dim]

Everytime I get my self esteem up... someone has to go and knock it down. I really wish I had someone who made me feel good about about myself and liked me for who I am but I have no one. Clearly nobody likes me.

 

[Acruoxil]

Not so much a bother but another realisation:

There's nothing sadder than watching someone you still care about (despite no longer speaking to them) repeat the same mistakes over and over and realise that they have no awareness of what they're doing nor can you help them. The path they're on will forever repeat itself until they make some big changes with their behaviour especially if they want their friendships and relationships to be longterm. Otherwise they're going to wake up one day and realise they have no one left in their life.

That's their choice to make and their own demons to fight with! I am sure they shall realize in their own time, until then it is their own journey and they can be the only one who can realize this. Everybody else can only nudge them in the right direction.

 

[. Rarity .]

My cousin's Memorial this weekend... He died too soon.

Im not ready. I'll never be ready for events like this..
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This year has been nothing but death. I lost so many loved ones this year. I don't know how my sanity is still here.

If antone doesnt mind. I could really use a friend right now

 

[Aniko]

There was a mouse in my room and I could barely sleep because of that. Cats were sleeping with me but they were not that interested to catch it.

 

[daisyflowers]

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[Zane]

I don’t think I’ve ever craved rest so badly in my life

 

[Bluelady]

Minor complaint but my health care provider left the system. Now I'll have to go through the paperwork again.

 

[pottercrossing]

So, today I decided to check the website of the theatre company that hosts the Saturday morning class I take, and I found out that our musical director is leaving. I am not a happy man.

 

[VernalLapin]

@CylieDanny I’m sorry for your loss. I hope the rest of the year is more peaceful for you.

 

[tessa grace]

Just sent an accidental voicemail of me totally messing up my words and asking my sister for help to the woman who will probably be my new boss... i'm so embarrassed right now

 

[. Rarity .]

@CylieDanny I’m sorry for your loss. I hope the rest of the year is more peaceful for you.

Thank you Lapin. I hope so too..

 

[Kitsuragi]

God help me I think I have food poisoning. Woke up in a terrible sweat feeling bad and my stomach is in awful pain.

 

[Seastar]

I'm in so much pain that I don't know how I will even sleep tonight.

 

[jiny]

sometimes i get sad because i wish i had friends on this forum ;u;

 

[Zane]

It’s almost 1am and I physically cannot sleep. I can never sleep when I really really need to. And I’m still chapped that I bought 10 mushrooms and none of them changed, I never take big chances like that and even though it’s stupid and not real it still kinda gets to me that it couldn’t have paid off just once.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

don't know why but I feel, like, physically unwell this morning. maybe the combination of stress and inclement cold weather really isn't doin it for me

I do feel less stressed compared to yesterday, there were just some thoughts about the future and other things that were bothering me and I basically have them figured out (or at least, put at ease) now. so that's nice it just sucks when there's so much to think about and process, but no time to do so. I was at work basically all day, so once I got home and had a chance to decompress I was fine. I love my job but work kinda sucks sometimes ngl.