What's Bothering You?

[Dawnpiplup]

Spoiler

I hate my mom.

Never proud of me. Views me as competition. I'm nothing like her, she says. I think that sometimes I'm turning into her. I find myself trying to do better than her or others sometimes - maybe to just make myself feel like I'm more accomplished or that I'm not a deadbeat like they say. Or to just make them proud of me. I find myself having some connection to her, then I turn cold and standoffish the next. It's a defense mechanism. She can be calm but criticize anything or anyone senselessly. She pities herself constantly. I know I'll almost be 18 and going to college, but man it can be really rough dealing with an unsupportive and emotionally abusive family.

 

[Locket]

i've really let go of myself recently and i'm so disappointed in myself

 

[Soigne]

my emotions are a mess. i'm very stressed about the deadlines coming up, a presentation in front of my department in about 9 days.

i'm starting to dislike the only friends i've ever had & i don't know how to process those feelings, either. everything's a mess.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler

if I don't out myself before lockdown ends, or perhaps even before I leave home, I think that would be an accomplishment

 

[MarzipanDragyn]

I just found out my mother's on her way to the hospital with a potentially broken arm after a motorcycle accident. This is assuredly NOT how we wanted this Monday to play out. To say I'm worried is putting it lightly. I don't even know all the details yet, and probably won't until tomorrow. And with the current rules at the hospital because of the pandemic, I can't even go see her and make sure she's alright. I do trust her word, but I can't stop my rampaging anxiety regardless. Both she and the bike are in poor shape. I know it could've been worse, and I'm very grateful it wasn't, but this still sucks.

 

[MarzipanDragyn]

Update: her left arm is broken, both ulna and radius. It's her dominant arm, too, so things are going to get "interesting" for the next 6 weeks...

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I have like 95 min to finish an essay, make a listening guide for a song, and then made a slideshow based on the essay. Also I was supposed to have assignments done for my other classes by the end of the weekend and now it's like almost Tuesday and they're still not done.



It's goin great yall :,,,,,)

 

[Dawnpiplup]

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Hey, I'm sorry to hear that your mom was in an accident :/ Is it just her arm that's broken? I'm glad that it wasn't anything more severe. Wishing the best for the both of ya'll. <3

 

[aericell]

I have <2 weeks left of classes before finals and so much work to catch up on with a couple more midterms on top of that..

 

[MarzipanDragyn]

Hey, I'm sorry to hear that your mom was in an accident :/ Is it just her arm that's broken? I'm glad that it wasn't anything more severe. Wishing the best for the both of ya'll. <3

She just got home, arm's actually broken in three places (the third is right in the middle of her forearm), and she has scratches, cuts, and bruises all over her legs and arms. Everything's been disinfected, bandaged, and treated, and she has had medication for the pain. Honestly, she's in a lot better shape than I feared (she showed me pictures she took from before she was cleaned up, it looked BAD). I'm really glad she was fully geared up and wearing her helmet, or it coulda been a lot worse.
She's doing a lot better now that she's home, especially since now she can eat something warm. She's also happy that she remembered she has full coverage for her bike (she was sad about munching up the back end, it was about as beat up as she was).
My mom has always said "Any wreck you can walk away from is still a successful trip," and I'm happy to say she successfully came home in one piece. It's gonna be a while before she'll be back at 100%, but we're all gonna do our best to help her out.
She also says thank you

 

[Xara]

i overdid myself today. too much socializing, interaction after interaction and now i’m mentally and physically drained ;u;

i love trading with people but i really just cannot do back-to-back trades. i traded for 5-7 hours today with barely any breaks and i am t i r e d

 

[s i r e n t i c]

I forgot to do my anatomy and physiology project and it’s due tonight : )

There’s just too many things going on at once. My town is flooding, there’s a pandemic, my cousin lost his job because his supervisor was a butt, I had to help my cousin get said job back, our family house is slowly breaking down, my other cousin needed help with government paperwork that apparently only I could do, my boyfriends native band won’t pay for his rent anymore and he can’t get a job because of the pandemic......

My only relief is that if I get at least a D in my class my university is willing expunge the grade from our records so it doesn’t effect our GPA, as long as we can show the pandemic played a part in our inability to get a better grade... which I think I’ll be able to do, but if not then it’s whatever

 

[xSuperMario64x]

School is actually killing my brain rn. I'm trying so hard to maintain a good grade, and the school will only let us take the grade off of our transcript if we get like a C- or lower (which I doubt will happen even if I just bail out for the rest of the semester) so basically I have to do like two weeks worth of homework in the next like 24-48 hours, including write a "remote" concert report, two short essays which involve reading, taking notes and doing online exit slips, reading like 7 chapters for music history, and a bunch of assignments for both music history and german that I've been slacking on cause of rock history. And then I have to do finals.



Someone just pls put me out of my misery :,,,,,,,)

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Another website from the old days, gone. Ten years seems pretty long for a website.

 

[ali.di.magix]

lmao my dad is so childish

he's currently upset at me because I didn't wait for him to come home to take our dog for a walk on the beach Then he treats my brother all nicely as if he's rubbing it in.

I just wanted some time for myself, I've been around you for 5 weeks straight now I want to have a break

 

[Buttonsy]

I've been having trouble getting out of bed lately.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

-snip-

Mm, I see. I'm glad that she's getting better! <3 Wishing for a speedy recovery for your mom. Also, I think that's a lovely quote that your mom says - I may write that down in my little motivational journal haha! Also it's not a problem

 

[sigh]

ppl be like "(specific villager) is mean! (specific villager) is flirting with me and it's creepy!!1 i'm so uncomfortable!!" sorry karen but literally all personality types are the same as each other which makes your fave of that personality type problematic too, they act the same and they are not harassing you they are a cute little animal game character they aren't real

 

[Soigne]

just slept for a super long time. i think i'm failing a class and i don't think i'm going to graduate and it makes me sick to think about how i have to defend an essay next week in front of my professors that i'm not proud of & really dislike. i want everything to be over

 

[namiieco]

im trying to do work but my parents keep distracting me telling me to exercise. do you want me to fail?! im desperately trying to hold onto these grades despite everything happening.