Lady Timpani
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I feel like Twitter in general is really bad a lot of the time. :/ People don’t know how to be chill.
What's Bothering You?
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primandimproper
Transgender Trainwreck
Just got my rejection letter from the four-year college I applied to. Looks like it's community college for me.
Lady Timpani
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Been feeling kind of down all day. :/ I think quarantine is getting to me.
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
The pimp cane still eludes me.
ali.di.magix
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Online learning is a lot harder to adjust to than I thought. At the rate I'm going I'm literally never going to have free time. I really need to be back in the routine I was in pre-lockdown, but even that is going to take more time than I have if I want to fix it before these midterms. The thing is if I were at uni rn rather than online, I probably wouldn't even be stressed. There's something about being at home and managing your own time that makes it so much more stressful.
I originally wrote out a long explanation of what happened but, instead I'll just say that I'm tired of being used until something better comes to replace me in people's lives and I'm starting to think I should stop trusting people and not make any close friendships anymore because of it. I am tired of feeling this kind of hurt, I have enough of so many other things to deal with. People, really suck sometimes. Really. Not everyone I'm sure but, unfortunately most I've allowed myself to get close to. Maybe I'm just a bad judge of character after all? I don't know.
staticistic1114
im hungry
anxiety
mintellect
attention gamers,
damn..... i kinda don't wanna be held responsible for my academic obligations anymore
also, there's someone i'd really like to have an important conversation with in person, but the current circumstances aren't looking too bright
also, there's someone i'd really like to have an important conversation with in person, but the current circumstances aren't looking too bright
Dawnpiplup
Kick ass.
Family still unsupportive of me going to an out-of-state college. It's about 3 hours away. Heard my grandma talking about how I didn't care about them and saving money for the family and all. Think she also said something about exorcism or spirits and the like. Lovely.
I come here to post alot, wish I didn't have to
My throat and head hurt from screaming and gettin really ticked off at myself
I feel like I have somethin wrong with me cause I can never stay in a good state of mind. I think I'm okay for a while then somethin like this makes me scream. But then I also think I must not have somethin THAT wrong with me cause I'm not havin full on breakdowns that warrant me having to be sent home from work or some other intervention. What I go throu is minor compared to what others deal with daily. It leaves me to wonder how long I have to keep going throu this before it gets better or until I do start havin breakdowns and people take notice.
My throat and head hurt from screaming and gettin really ticked off at myself
At this point I'm pretty damn sure I have somethin wrong with me. Is it possible to have a temper at yourself?
I've been not so active on tbt do to life, being busy at work and when I'm not working I'm playin New Horizons. But that's really all I'm doin. If it doesn't bring me immediate joy then I don't do it, which is alot of stuff. Doing basic stuff I should be doing, not maintaining things, not doing others things I like that I want to do. For example my room has been a mess forever cause I'm too lazy to clean it. I keep wanting to clean it, but I can never find the motivation to really get to it. I don't enjoy cleaning, but I want to do it. But I don't. Another example, I've been wanting to paint my nails for like 2 weeks now. But everytime I get a day off I don't paint my nails, even though I actually want to and I like painting my nails. If the effort involved in it takes more that taking my Switch out of the dock and flopping down in my couch, I don't make the effort to do anythin else.
Lately I get mad at myself very easily at home. Like today I was screaming profanity because I ruined a screen protector. I got hair all over it cause none of the paper towels or my microfiber cloth could wipe off the hair, even after I ran it under water several times. This is the second time I've attempted to put a screen protector on my Switch, and today I noticed it has light scratches on the screen so it really does need a protector now. But I ruined it, and I'm not paying for another one. I give up. I'm done. I can't do a simple ****ing tasks as putting a screen protector on. I guess the alternative to docking would be putting it in its case I recently got, since I'm not using it alot in TV mode. But still.
There was a time for a few weeks I think that I was doing fine. I wasn't constantly in this low mood, life was okay. But I just can't stay at okay. I feel like I'm flip-flopping between okay and about to punch the wall or whatever is near me. Logic stops me from punching walls cause I'd break my hand before I do any damage to a wall. But I still punch stuff like pillows and throw and slam stuff around.
I've been not so active on tbt do to life, being busy at work and when I'm not working I'm playin New Horizons. But that's really all I'm doin. If it doesn't bring me immediate joy then I don't do it, which is alot of stuff. Doing basic stuff I should be doing, not maintaining things, not doing others things I like that I want to do. For example my room has been a mess forever cause I'm too lazy to clean it. I keep wanting to clean it, but I can never find the motivation to really get to it. I don't enjoy cleaning, but I want to do it. But I don't. Another example, I've been wanting to paint my nails for like 2 weeks now. But everytime I get a day off I don't paint my nails, even though I actually want to and I like painting my nails. If the effort involved in it takes more that taking my Switch out of the dock and flopping down in my couch, I don't make the effort to do anythin else.
Lately I get mad at myself very easily at home. Like today I was screaming profanity because I ruined a screen protector. I got hair all over it cause none of the paper towels or my microfiber cloth could wipe off the hair, even after I ran it under water several times. This is the second time I've attempted to put a screen protector on my Switch, and today I noticed it has light scratches on the screen so it really does need a protector now. But I ruined it, and I'm not paying for another one. I give up. I'm done. I can't do a simple ****ing tasks as putting a screen protector on. I guess the alternative to docking would be putting it in its case I recently got, since I'm not using it alot in TV mode. But still.
There was a time for a few weeks I think that I was doing fine. I wasn't constantly in this low mood, life was okay. But I just can't stay at okay. I feel like I'm flip-flopping between okay and about to punch the wall or whatever is near me. Logic stops me from punching walls cause I'd break my hand before I do any damage to a wall. But I still punch stuff like pillows and throw and slam stuff around.
I feel like I have somethin wrong with me cause I can never stay in a good state of mind. I think I'm okay for a while then somethin like this makes me scream. But then I also think I must not have somethin THAT wrong with me cause I'm not havin full on breakdowns that warrant me having to be sent home from work or some other intervention. What I go throu is minor compared to what others deal with daily. It leaves me to wonder how long I have to keep going throu this before it gets better or until I do start havin breakdowns and people take notice.
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
Love your avatar.
I had a toxic family who did nothing but mentally and physically abused me. At 17, they moved into a different country in a different continent leaving me alone in a country I have no one in (no relatives or anything just me and my brother). I had to work 2 part time jobs to support myself and after two years, had enough to be able to go to college.
Despite all the horrors I've been through it bothers me that I still feel horrible time to time for cutting off my toxic family or the constant reminder that it really is just me and no one else but me.
I feel that to the point I thought to myself that I'm just horrible at making friends or having friends LOL
Maybe we're just too nice to people
Despite all the horrors I've been through it bothers me that I still feel horrible time to time for cutting off my toxic family or the constant reminder that it really is just me and no one else but me.
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I feel that to the point I thought to myself that I'm just horrible at making friends or having friends LOL
Maybe we're just too nice to people
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I’m sorry that you guys are having to deal with this. The feeling of being replaced isn’t any fun. Neither is having to deal with a toxic family, that sounds horrible :/. I would be willing to be friends with both of you though!
One of you is interested in anime like me, and the other let me sell turnips at their island. Really grateful to both of you!
