What's Bothering You?

[mocha.]

Going through a rough time at the minute due to financial worries (no fault of my own but through my university where multiple mistakes have been made and unfortunately I have to suffer the consequences of).

I am so, so thankful that I have my partner and cat to keep me going right now, but phew. It can be so hard sometimes. My final year of university is stressful enough on its own without these additional worries on top.

 

[themysterybidder]

My dad ran in front of an older lady with a cane to get in the door first and I stayed back and held both doors. I wonder how often this happens. People need to have a little patience for people that need it.

I can sympathise with this, my Dad has poor mobility and there are people who try and squeeze past nearly knocking him off his feet, but others are so nice. He's even had older people asking if they can help him. It can take him 5 minutes to walk what would take an able bodied person 30 seconds.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

feel like I'm having a mini hypomanic episode hdhgfghjgd I still don't feel well but I have an overabundance of energy and enthusiasm, and as much as I usually appreciate that, right now my physically ill body doesn't really like it.

maybe I'll get something to eat and write in my journal some more, keep myself calm and get some much needed rest.

 

[jiny]

Spoiler: emotions

i feel so?? stupid??? i cant get over my ex from 3 years ago because theres a weird gut feeling i have that there is still something between us .... and i feel even worse bcs i just broke up with the partner i had for 2 years, but never felt with him what i felt with my first ex. AND I HATE SAYING THIS BECAUSE UGH i honestly hate myself for it. i just want someone to talk to about this i feel like im losing my mind tbh

 

[Seastar]

Spoiler: Aaaaaaa

So there's apparently one room in the house where the top of the window got stuck and won't close back.
Tonight, my parents started trying to burn a log outside. Guess where the scent went? Yeah. It's still going and the hallway smells like a fireplace last I checked. I can't be in my room anymore because it's that bad. This stuff triggers my allergies. The worst part is I know from past experience that it will take all night or even longer before it goes away. I've been unwell for quite a while and now I have to deal with this??? Really??? I hate this house.

 

[thatawkwardkid]

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[Croconaw]

Spoiler: trans rant

I just want to be seen as older. I’m almost 26 and I look like I’m 15 because I present masculine. I guess that’s a good thing because it means people most likely see me as a guy, but it’s very rare that a guy in their 20s doesn’t have some type of facial hair. I absolutely hate being seen as a child. I’d rather be seen as a 15 year old boy than a 20 some year old girl, but it still sucks. When I try to do age restricted things like the lottery nobody takes me seriously (that means I don’t even look 18 which is even more sad).

I hate that it’d be easier to just become feminine and maybe I wouldn’t look so young, but that’s not what I want. But looking like I’m 15 isn’t what I want either. Why can’t I have at least some facial hair so people take me seriously? When I post a picture with my age I always have someone calling me out saying I’m lying (not here, but on Facebook before I left).

I wish there was some way to look older but there’s nothing I can do about it at the moment. The only thing I have going for me is that I talk and vocally present myself as someone not age fifteen, like I’m more mature.

 

[Seastar]

This has been one of the most stressful nights I've ever had. For really stupid reasons, too.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: emotions

i feel so?? stupid??? i cant get over my ex from 3 years ago because theres a weird gut feeling i have that there is still something between us .... and i feel even worse bcs i just broke up with the partner i had for 2 years, but never felt with him what i felt with my first ex. AND I HATE SAYING THIS BECAUSE UGH i honestly hate myself for it. i just want someone to talk to about this i feel like im losing my mind tbh

you know my DMs are open love



I woke up at 4am and ended up being awake for well over an hour because I guess a thought I had yesterday was really bothering me. tried so many ways to help me fall asleep, and what ended up doing it was an hour later when I started journaling my thoughts. I wrote like three paragraphs and then drifted back to sleep, thankfully. I've never had that happen before though, having to journal in order to go back to sleep. I guess I know for future reference, but it still sucks that I basically lost an hour of sleep because of that.

also feeling weird because I've always been kinda awkward about physical touch from anyone, and yet I wish I had one of my friends here with me so I could curl up to them with a blanket over us. I am totally touch starved. it's a very lonely and sad feeling.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I don't know who to talk to, my friends aren't answering me. I'm sobbing and I feel like I need a hug, I need someone to talk to. I can't deal with this alone.

 

[Croconaw]

-snip-

I’m here if you need to talk!

 

[themysterybidder]

 Snip

Always here!

 

[Halloqueen]

I received a jury duty summons and found out my mother's sick, possibly with COVID but uncertain as of this writing.

Hell of a morning.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

awful, awful day

 

[Yoshi155]

My chest hurts because I crashed while go karting.

 

[VernalLapin]

i have a cold ughhhh and my throat is sore and my head is congested -_-

 

[Dunny County]

I wish I could feel sad sometimes, I never get to feel sad, only angry. I'm really angry tonight, I should be sad, because its a sad thing that's happened, but instead it's made me angry. I'd rather just feel sad, I can't ever get there anymore.

 

[nightglow]

Yeah, I think I'm still sick. I seem to have been fighting it, but I think I'm slowly succumbing to it. Bleh.

 

[Seastar]

Being under a tornado watch always scares me to death. My anxiety isn't going to leave until the watch ends.
Hearing the thunderstorm outside makes it even worse.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

so overwhelmed. gonna be another awful day I'm sure, I have so much to mull over :,,,,,)

edit: well... I guess I'll try to make the best of it. maybe instead of continuing to mull things over and potentially exacerbate problems that really aren't a big deal, I could be gentle to myself and remember that I am incredibly stressed, and I may not be in a good frame of mind to tackle these issues right now. it's really hard to put them on the back burner for the time being because I feel like I need to get it sorted out right now... actually, I've been thinking that I need to have more patience. I'm not ignoring it, I'm just putting it off to the side for now so it can cool and I can come back to it when I'm ready. god, I struggle with patience so much.