I don't know if I should say this, but I feel like getting this off of my chest will help a lot. So, here goes:
I'm the firstborn in my family, and my two younger siblings get all the attention. Now, for a normal child, this isn't a problem. But for me, a freshman in high school with high-functioning Autism and a seizure disorder, it is much more problematic. As a result, I developed SEVERE depression. the feeling of neglect combined with my autism made me have some... uh... suicidal thoughts. I also thought about running away because, and I'm quoting myself here, "no one would miss me. After all, they have my siblings. What worth do I have in their eyes?" I also never made friends irl or online until I joined here because of one reason: Friendships. HURT. Back in 7th grade, I had a friend that I hung out with CONSTANTLY. birthdays, Halloween, you name it, we hung out together. then 8th grade hit, and everything went south. the FIRST DARN DAY, I ran over to him to hang out as usual, and he just told me off and said that the friendship was a FAKE, and he only played with me because he didn't want to make me cry (I was kinda a crybaby until 1/2 way though 8th grade). Needless to say, that kinda started the depression, and it snowballed from there. then, in may of 2 years ago, a random seizure hit me, and I was basically told to limit screen usage unless i was wearing glasses.
Whew, that was a traumafest and a half. Now, I'm gonna go cry in a corner because of bad memories, see ya!