Lady Timpani
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My instructor hasn't given us access for the assignments due tonight yet.
i know how you feelStupid canker sores wtf just go away
woke up feeing really shaky and weak today. i was hoping it would disappear after i shower but nope, it's worse. i honestly thought i was gonna faint in the shower. earlier i just had to stop whatever i was doing at the moment and lay down.. unfortunately mom refuses to take me to a doctor unless i'm bleeding. i hope this isn't a sign of anything serious :/ i'm still feeling really weak right now.
Someone dumped a metric ton of cornmeal in the sink. Another person ate 2 donuts from a box, then put it on a high place (on top of a box that sits on the top shelf of a rack, way above my eye level). It's been sitting there for a few days too cause the expiration data was April 29th. I found it May 2nd. I only found it cause I had to get somethin out of that box, cause it was pushed back a little like someone didn't want others to see it.
People constantly leave food and buttercream in bowls, crumbs on tables, dump food trash into the sink (the sinks don't have a garbage/food destroyer thingy, they are just regular 3 compartment sinks). Like, what is wrong with these people? I am in no way a clean freak or even a tidy person, but the sheer amount of dirty utensils, knives, bowls, trays, sinks, tables, floors, RAGS omg the rags are so gross, just, ugh.
I'm sick of it. I'm sick of life, I'm sick of feeling like I'm gettin depressed again, I'm sick of my parents not caring about me and genuinly not understanding they can't possibly relate to what I'm goin throu, so they are in no position to tell me to 'get over it'. When I get mad they just get mad at me for 'over reacting'. I'm sick of people depending on me so much, both work and home. I just need to face no one cares about me.I'm much more easily irritated all the time, I can't keep up with anythin, even hobbies and schedules I set for myself, my patience for customers and other people in general has worn thin. I feel like the people around me irl don't care about me, otherwise they wouldn't brush me off when I'm in a bad mood and just tell me I'm makin a bigger deal out of it. Just yesterday my asst manager asked me to come in early, the ONE DAMN DAY I was FINALLY able to go shopping for myself and not grocery shopping. I havent done any real in store shopping for myself in what is a little over 2 months. THE ONE SINGLE DAY IN TWO MONTHS, I get called in to come in early. I was so ****ed off but my parents are just like 'you havent been called in in a long time' and 'you barely have work hours anyway you could use more hours' and basically told me to get over it. They said I was makin a bigger deal out of it than what it was, but that doesn't help the fact at all. The fact is I'm tired of picking up the slack and fixing mistakes of my manager and people at work. But any time I have a chance to open up to others about my feelings and stress, I don't. And when I do with my family, they do nothing and tell me to get over it.
Stupid canker sores wtf just go away