What's Bothering You?

I’m going to a funeral this afternoon, but what’s bothering me is that all the people I’ve known growing up on my street are slowly dying. It's so strange not to see them pottering about in their garden or working on a car. There have been two deaths in just over 4 months and it might sound selfish, but I can’t help but think of my Dad. He’s absolutely fine apart from his poor mobility, but then I think my Mum was fine apart from her mobility and how sudden she passed. Everyday I wake up and pray that he survives another day, as I know it has to happen at some point, but I don’t want it to happen for a long, long time. He is my rock, best friend and everything all rolled into one. I feel as if I can’t enjoy my time with him properly as I’m worrying about him passing.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel every time I hear about a death it worries me more about my mom. She is my rock and I can’t imagine life without her.
Everytime we have a Dr appointment it worries me we are going to get more bad news. It’s definitely hard when you’re always worrying about them.
 
on top of the discomfort I'm feeling from my surgery, perhaps the most aggravating thing is that my uvula is terribly swollen. I can feel it touching the back of my tongue, I keep feeling like I'm gonna damage it further when I cough (on a good note, coughing doesn't hurt my chest like I thought it would), or eat or drink anything. it feels super weird and I really hope the swelling goes down soon. 😔
 
This evening has felt extremely stressed and agitated merely by what's going on at work.

For two days, I've had them ring me up well after my shift, because no one not even the actual boss has keys. The first time I had to actually walk halfway to work to give them my keys, and wait to hear when someone was dropping them off.

Today makes it a third, despite thinking all would be fine, it wasn't. Got another call about them having my keys to close up shop. But it's gonna take longer as my bosses ex was driving my boss to the airport. My mum even suggested cycling to my work to drop the keys off, which would work better as then my mum can bring then back home again. But no, they said that was lovely for her to consider but no, My coworker is just waiting for the bosses ex to arrive, so I feel like I can't really get on with things properly, can't put headphones on incase I don't hear a call.

Takes till like 9pm when I decide to ask him what's going on, and he says, oh its sorted....why didn't you guys tell me then. Are you serious.
What makes it even crazier is that the chef has keys...but he comes in after me and leaves two hours before closing, this doesn't make sense.
So I haven't been in a great mood, as I was making more of my diy project I snapped a piece in two which I think was because I was so stressed.
 
I'm kinda sad the Pet Peeve thread got locked. It was a good place to vent about things that weren't totally personal.

For example:

I'm sorta tired of everything being over monetized. Buying a game and running into deluxe edition, premium edition, ultimate edition, sorting out 10 DLC packs.

Or just wanting to play chess online and being walled out of features because of subscription tiers.

I already caved and bought YouTube premium lite because I like browsing YouTube on my phone. (it helps if I expirence anxiety at night). The alternative is sitting through dozens and dozens of ads for every click. I'm not tech savvy enough to hack my phone and implant an adblock either.


It's impossible to escape. Even when you've already taken a subscription, your pressured into buying more.

"We see your enjoying Netflix. How about upgrade to our family plan or try our ad free tier".
 
I already caved and bought YouTube premium lite because I like browsing YouTube on my phone. (it helps if I expirence anxiety at night). The alternative is sitting through dozens and dozens of ads for every click. I'm not tech savvy enough to hack my phone and implant an adblock either.

I also caved and bought YouTube premium and it's one of the subscriptions I feel the silliest for having but I use it a lot. I love not having ads on my phone & my roku when I'm watching on there. I also love the feature for the phone where you can have a video playing when my screen is turned off. I love listening to people re telling stories lol and it's nice to do that with my screen off to save battery.
 
Nicholas had his bone infusion yesterday and one of his levels came back like STUPID HIGH. My reaction was just… head spun. A normal range for Alkaline Phosphatase is 30-120 ish, his usually hovers around 180-190….it’s 5,223. And that’s a re-test! Yesterday it was 4,327 and she had me go get it redrawn incase it was an error.
 
I was trying to figure out how I can make a new lineup just now and I scrolling through my inventory and I just noticed all of my dark pink flower collectables are gone, I had a pink carnation, a pink lily, a pink tulip, a pink rose and a pink daisy(forgot what it's actually called) and now they are gone from my inventory. I don't know when they got accidently discarded by me but I just noticed it now, I don't remember the dates of my flowers so I don't know if the staff are able to give me my flowers back if I make a CTS thread if I can't remember the dates. It's really hard for me to earn TBT and I spent a long time saving up for those and searching for the correct dates I needed and the pink carnation was gifted to me by one of my friends as a generous gift. I don't know how I'm suppose to feel right now, what if staff aren't able to help me get my accidently discarded collectables back if I make a CTS thread?
 
Thank goodness I'll be done with uni soon, because working so much on my current project has really fried my brain. 😓

Especially combined with the hopelessness of knowing that the job I was working towards is gradually being made redundant, thanks to a certain technology. I feel like I worked so hard for multiple years of my life for nothing, to the point that I've been trying to look at other options that aren't related to art at all (which is hard, when my disabilities and mental health issues really limit my options).

I've just been feeling really rough in general tbh.
 
I was trying to figure out how I can make a new lineup just now and I scrolling through my inventory and I just noticed all of my dark pink flower collectables are gone, I had a pink carnation, a pink lily, a pink tulip, a pink rose and a pink daisy(forgot what it's actually called) and now they are gone from my inventory. I don't know when they got accidently discarded by me but I just noticed it now, I don't remember the dates of my flowers so I don't know if the staff are able to give me my flowers back if I make a CTS thread if I can't remember the dates. It's really hard for me to earn TBT and I spent a long time saving up for those and searching for the correct dates I needed and the pink carnation was gifted to me by one of my friends as a generous gift. I don't know how I'm suppose to feel right now, what if staff aren't able to help me get my accidently discarded collectables back if I make a CTS thread?
it's still worth a shot, I'm so sorry to hear about this friend 🥺 I hope they're able to help you.


I'm still dealing with uvulitis today, and after trying to eat something small this morning, it honestly hurts so much worse than the actual surgery site. I really really hope the swelling goes down soon 😞
 
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