What's Bothering You?

so an hour or so ago my neighbor had some friends over w their dog and their dog was [retracted] her dog and when they got stuck together my neighbors dog (the female) was struggling really bad and they were just laughing. I got really worried cause I'm pretty sure that's not how you're supposed to do that (also why tf did they let them do that anyways jesus christ). but then when I had to tell my mom about it I started hyperventilating really bad and I basically had a panic-attack and I had to sit on my floor and put my arms around my dog and pet him a bunch until it stopped. idk if it was just because I was worried or the fact that s** is an extremely taboo topic for me (I'm ace) and having to talk about it was just extremely discomforting.

anyways now I'm angry at my neighbor for that, so stupid. also if I had any doubts in my mind that I was ace they're gone now.
 
My leg keeps bleeding at random because of dry skin, and I keep putting lotion on but it won't work.
 
A friend of mine is quarantined for two weeks because a girl she knows asked for the two of them to hang out before getting her covid testing back after her Alaska trip. Also I twisted an ankle a few days ago and every so often get a shoot of pain up my leg.
 
so an hour or so ago my neighbor had some friends over w their dog and their dog was [retracted] her dog and when they got stuck together my neighbors dog (the female) was struggling really bad and they were just laughing. I got really worried cause I'm pretty sure that's not how you're supposed to do that (also why tf did they let them do that anyways jesus christ). but then when I had to tell my mom about it I started hyperventilating really bad and I basically had a panic-attack and I had to sit on my floor and put my arms around my dog and pet him a bunch until it stopped. idk if it was just because I was worried or the fact that s** is an extremely taboo topic for me (I'm ace) and having to talk about it was just extremely discomforting.

anyways now I'm angry at my neighbor for that, so stupid. also if I had any doubts in my mind that I was ace they're gone now.
The poor thing will probably be on someone's leg in a minute.
 
why do I feel like **** all the time .-.

it sucks so much when you're trying so hard to do things right and better your self, but it doesn't make you feel any better. I'm trying to create peace in the household when it comes to meals, eat healthier, exercise more, take charge and help out more at work and jobhunting....but nothing is making me feel good. What am I doing wrong?
 
Finished the wakfu movie, brother told me a technical spoiler that's kind of ruined my entire experience

And it'll be years until season 4
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ughhhhhhhhhh I'm just so madddd
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it's gonna be so depressing
 
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Finished the wakfu movie, brother told me a technical spoiler that's kind of ruined my entire experience

And it'll be years until season 4
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ughhhhhhhhhh I'm just so madddd
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it's gonna be so depressing
There's a movie?
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Good taste.
 
Dang, I’m actually trying to go to sleep earlier than usual and my mind won’t shut off so I can fall asleep. Must have been that chocolate cake I had earlier.
 
all of my problems have piled up and I've been crying

From silly ones to serious life-changing ones I can't take it

I wish I could just live in a dreamed up world but then that has its downs too

So do I have to sit in silence and accept that my life could go wrong any moment?
 
one more post before I go to sleep
my friends are having a huge fight. only one of them told me about it, but I’m not picking sides.
it hurts to see them angry. it hurts that I have to see it happen. i just want them to make up and go back to being friends.
i miss a few months ago.
 
Am I actually funny or is everyone just saying that to make me feel better?? Do I laugh at my own jokes more than other people?? I just don’t know man-
 
Got in a really big argument with my boyfriend about the same thing I've been telling him for years and I've been hysterically crying and hyperventilating for hours deciding if I want to stay.

I have no one I can talk to and I've just felt alone through everything.
 
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